T r u 3 * D e 5 + ! n Y. . .

No where.

2009-01-13T11:30:00.004+08:00

Ultimately I still have to come back here .

I thought I would be able to abandon this place completely .

But I have no where to go .

It feel like someone is constantly squeezing my heart .

Why ?

Why can't I just let you go ..

I've never gave up in the first place ..

Why am I always a loser in relationship ..

I felt so hurt when i know you fell for another guy .

I felt worse .. when you turn cold to me .

The additional image of you kissing another guy .. is ripping me off .

Its a long torturous squeeze .

I feel nauseuous .

I'm dying .

To love is to let go .

I can't let go .

Is that not love ?

I just want to hold your hands ,

random kisses ,

warm hugs,

and brings you to the foreground .

Grudges are made to last .

But they are not of permanence .

Love neutralizes .

I only wants to protect you from all ,

To shield you from the crowd ,

To embrace you with all I have .

I want to bring you to nice places .

Just you and me .

I want to just dote on you .

Getting small things that you like .

Doing little stuff that makes you happy .

I am not a great lover .

I have learnt alot .

I have learnt through the hardest way .

So hard .. That I'm going down .

I just want to give you happiness .

I have learnt to be selfish ..

Let me be selfish and be the only one to give you happiness .

Humans are artificial .

But I am not .

I swear .

Maybe I am inhuman ?

I need to shout .. to suffocating .

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I am feeling so terrible .

Am I a loser who comes blogging to pour out his woes ?

Yes I am .

There are so much that I want to share with you .

A chance is all I neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed .

Give me a chance to make you the happiest girl ever .

Juan

2006-08-06T18:23:00.000+08:00

Found myself a full time housewife. =)

I'll promise to write a longer post next time.

Take care guys.

1st Book-Out!

2006-07-23T12:54:00.000+08:00

Recruit Jasper from Taurus Company Platoon4 Section 2 Reporting.

Damn cool~!

Get to know lots of new friends.

Everday exercise until shag.

Sing song until voice broke.

But still fun!

Although theres fun, laughter and joy.

But something seems amiss..

On my 1st bookout,

Juan came to fetch me.

Its the 1st time a girl came to fetch me. (For whatever reasons)

It feels. . .

During the weekend, it feels good to have a servant serving you by your side.

What more can one ask for in life?

My book in timing is 2025.

But I'm off to beach road to get my stuff first.

See ya guys next weekend.. hopefully!

Till then.. take care ya.

Going botak in 8hr!

2006-07-07T00:34:00.000+08:00

Hi guys!

Me going chalet le~

Finally its my turn to create my own army life story!!

Sooo excited!

Will anyone miss me??? =D

I'm done with my preparations for 14 days camp.

Take care guys till then.

P.S: I am mostly likely be in tekong when you read this. If my servant is lack of sunshine. DO THIS ONLY IF YOU ARE SERIOUSLY LACKING OF SUNSHINE: Go to your handphone stored messages folder AND photo folder. New undiscovered little surprises might brighten up your day alittle. ^.^

Update blog

2006-06-19T00:44:00.000+08:00

Where shall I begin with?

Its been busy these days.

Working, eating, playing.

Terrible feeling begins to fade away.

People come and go.

And she's a passerby in my life.

Everyone have the freedom to love.

No one is able to snatch this freedom away from anyone. (Right?)

Ok ok.

I shall stop blogging such -ve post.

Someone once told me I should blog more +ve post.

After all, blogging ain't meant for keeping bad memories only.

Argh..

I seriously do not know how to continue blogging.

Its because theres practically too much to blog on.

Where to begin, where to emphasize, where to stop.

Might be because of my sleepiness thats affecting my thoughts.

From here on, I'm gona write whatever appear in my mind.

There's something my grandma said.

And I feel good about it.

"I like to be taken care of by you only."

It feels good when someone trust you and depend on you.

Probably because I'm elder son.

I enjoy taking care of others.

Or maybe this is my nature?

I really hope I can ever repay all the great things she has done for me.

But there are still years to come before I can get my degree.

I really pray hard.

I want her to witness my achievement.

I want to do her proud.

God bless this day to come.

There's another person who recently seriously enter my life.

Juan the servant. ^.^

Servant for 1 week just because her palm size is smaller than mine by a cm?

Dont wana comment on her too much because she gona read my blog.

Sunshine is essential for plants. ^.-

Plants need sunshine to bloom. -> Quote from Plant

Advertisment. * J U A N the S e r v a n t *

Sunshine?

2006-06-02T02:24:00.000+08:00

Plants need sun to grow.

Sun need plants to shine on.

Therefore,

Sunshine exist?

Black

2006-05-25T13:51:00.000+08:00

AAARrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!

Think i must go library tonight.

To find any book related to..

"Forget someone"
"Think of you not"
"Do not think of her"
"She's not yours anymore"
"Stop being stupid"
"101 ways to stop thinking of loved ones"
"Dummy guides to become dummy without love"

ARrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going down to cmpb for taking photo to be used in NS IC.

And i've just sprayed my hair BLACK!

I'm basically looking like a nerd now.

Because of the dumb spray, I can't adjust my hair.

It just looks flat like my grandpa's hairstyle. >.<

Haiz..

So near yet so far.

I see her block,

see her msn,

see her number.

But I just can't do anything!!!

Helpless like a 1 mth baby. =(

I'm taking cab to CMPB now.

Cya.

Memories

2006-05-25T02:38:00.000+08:00

Gotta whine here again.

Sorr kevin(Spac2go), for having to see me whining again.

Packed myself with lots of things today.

Today went photography shooting at shenton way.

And my teacher ask me get a female model.

Actually i wanted to get P but not free.

So went to find A instead.

Being a female model is great.

More pay than male model.

Sorr Ming.

My teacher style is ladies get higher pay >.<

Today went to catch a movie at The Cathay with P.

Its like suddenly alot memories squeezed into my brain.

Almost died from brain toxication. -.-*

2 sad person go out together.

Sad Sad = Happy?

Mathematics is - - = + correct?

Shag.

Memories are killing me.

Me go slp le.

My dad just told me that i've gotta wake up at 6.45am to bring my sis to sch.

3 hours of slp. =(

Nights.

Her

2006-05-23T13:46:00.000+08:00

I'm here again!

ArrrrrrrRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seems like i have to come here daily now.

Cos i really do not know where else can i go..

to share my sorrow.

Thanks!

I'm glad that there are people who come to comfort me.

Chat with alot people whom i've rarely chat with.

Now I know i'm a thoughtful and 体贴。

Am I?

ARrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Even if I stand on top of the world!!!!!

Whats the use!!!!!!!!!!!???????

I can't share the joy with her!!!!!

I seriously lose motivation in alot of things.

I think i'm such a loser in relationship.

Why????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why can't i make her fall for me............

I feel lifeless..

Seriously lifeless...

I must have create a very bad impression of myself.

Being so girly.

So weak.

So useless.

All because of 1 girl. ="(

ARRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-05-22T13:40:00.000+08:00

ArrrrrrrRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't take it anymore.

Other than this place...................

I really dont know who to find to talk to.

Only this stupid place will listen to my every words.. every thoughts.

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

All the feelings is going to burst out in me.

Will i cry???

This feeling.. is really very very very very hard to endure.

We have become friends.. yesterday.

ARrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I dont want to give up!!!!!!!

CAn i dont give up??

I dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want.....

I dont want to give up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I havent love her enough.

Theres still alot more things I want to share with her..........

I want to watch movie with her!!!!!!

I want her to be on my back when i cycle!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want to take long bus rides with her!!!

I want go with her all the way to changi for chocolates!!!!

I want to go into rain with her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

I want to look at her eyes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want to hold her hands!!!!!!

I want to hug her so tighttttttttttt she can't breath!!!!!!

I want to see her beautiful smile!!!!!!!!!!!!

Most important...!!

I want to walk down the tough, windy, long road with her!!!!!!!

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I havent love her enough!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ArrrrrrrRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Am i bornnnnnnnnnnnnn to be loser?!!!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why can't i just love her with all... ALL my heart?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really need her......

She dont need to do anything.

Just be by my side...

And I will be able to face the world.........

Even the most difficult obstacle in my life...

I WILL OVERCOME IT.

As long she's by my side.

U might think I will recover in a while.

BUT NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know i can't.

I know i cannot recover...

="(

I... i can give up anything for her.

Photography. Sports. Games.

Anything...

As long.. she's by my side.

="(

Yesterday went KBOX at night.

We ordered Chivas Regals 12 yrs.

Pingkwai serve me drinks like mad.

But I'm NOT DRUNK!!!

Why?!?!?!!!!!

I just wana cry it out ALOUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY I NOT DRUNK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????????

I just want to be dead drunk.

The feeling of missing her... is worse than anything else.

Memories of her keep flowing into my mind.

She made sandwich for me.

Herbal tea.

Shirt.

Watch.

Painful massage.

Chocolates.

....

I'm really feeling very very xinku now.

Xinku until i feel like sleeping forever .

Dont wana wake up to face this.

I dont want anyone but her..

why..

啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

我真的想你想到快疯了！

爱情应该是简单的

可是我现在感到很复杂！！

没有你。。

我的世界是黑暗的

因为有你。。

我的世界才是完美。

只有你的笑容。。

能带给我光芒。

我真的好爱你！！！！！

可以给我一个机会去好好的爱你吗？

Finally

2006-05-20T01:28:00.000+08:00

Finally.. I post.

I wanted to blog alot of times.. but failed as many times.

Probably laziness?

Actually I just want to run away.

Not wanting to reflect on the past events.

1.My bird.. is DEAD.

Probably you guys might be laughing.

But..

I'm saddened.

This is the 2nd time i lose a bird.

1st is Rainbow.. and now.. Green. ="(

Actually I felt relieve for her.

Due to the fact that she is highly aggressive. (I see her aggressiveness as playful)

No one as been able to tame her.

Neither do I.

Its so sad that she trust no one. ="(

She's been thrown about by humans.

And I'm the 3rd master.

I miss her.

May gods high above.. bless her with better a f t e r l i f e. ^.^

2.Since last sunday, I was down with flu + cough.

I was slacking at home the whole day.

And the sickness came out of nowhere. -.-

For no reason I AM SICK?! >.<>

Mum
She came into my room at night and apply Vicks on me.
My flu got better the next day.

Jingyi
Wanted to pass me med and encourage me to see doc.
Although i didnt wanted med neither going to see doc. I felt better.

Maid
She made warm ginger drink for me. My mum didnt asked her to made it. She did it because she wanted to. I felt warm. =)

3.Girl

? ? ?

*SENTOSA *
We went 1/2 naked + barefooted from Sunset Bay to Subway. Sounds crazy?! =D

Stupid Day

2006-04-13T00:11:00.000+08:00

Sian......................................................................................................

Today my left hand tiny finger got injured. =(

Pingkwai jio me to play bball.

See him so desperate to play.

Despite my left elbow injuries... I agree to go.

I very steady right? =)

*Elbow injuries: Jasper got injured on last Sat night when playing bball. It was entirely an accident. Jasper was defending Pingkwai from offensing. Due to Jasper incorrect judgement..(He was slacking away and thinks that Pingkwai wouldn't be so rough in dribbling. Somemore he did some stupid actions.) This result in his precious left elbow to get injured in the process.*

But during match although I didnt use much of my left hand..

I still manage to injured my LEFT HAND tiny finger!

I think its all over for me man.

No more sports ="(

But..

I think there are sports which doesnt requires hand right? ^.^

Such as... jogging, cycling, situps, and badminton!(My right hand still can use)

But still sian la.

Injured parts = Left elbow + Left hand's tiny finger =$$$

Tomorrow need to see doctor again.

I just went yesterday and she say come on thursday again.

Maybe she will scold me playful again.. (For not resting at home and go play basketball then got my finger injured) =x

But!!

Deep inside her maybe she abit happy ba~

Because more injuries on me = more $ for her ^.^

No la.. just kidding~ =P

I know this physician for long time le.

Me loyal customer. =)

So I dont think she will be so evil.. (Or is she?) =P

One more worse thing that happen today.

Yesterday night I was playing around with my Photoshop.

With absolute knowledge + correct judgement + abit of luck.

I edited the original photo into a really really really beautiful photo.

But the problem is...

I CAN'T SAVE IT!!!

And I really want to share this photo with her.

Because it can't save.. I have to invite her over the next day.

Next day = Today.

I waited and wait..

Den I keep minimising and maximising to admire this very pretty masterpiece.

Suddenly the photo disappeared!!!!

Sian........................................................................................................

I almost cried.

There seems to be no way to salvage the situation.

The only way out is to redo the photoshop.

But this time.. i can't get it edited the way like its before. ="(

If the photo i saw yesterday is 10/10.

The photo i re-edit now is 7/10. =(

Now u guys know why I hate to gain things which are related to luck?

All these luck related things aren't going to last.

And...

I want things that last... forever? ^.^

**This is not the best artpiece.**

**Bryce last supper gathering b4 cutting Botak**

I'm late.

2006-03-24T22:22:00.000+08:00

Today is a bad day for me only i guess.

I couldnt find my o2mini battery.

My dad says his friend might be able to repair my CORODED o2mini.

But without battery how to repair it???? >.<

Evening went to play bball with Bryce and Jq

Then somehow Jq got pissed off.

Maybe I comment too much on his actions.

We spent long time to resolve the issue.

And because of that... I made her wait 45 min. =(

When I reached there..

I saw her sitting alone, staring at blank space.

I felt really bad.

Even when I was "quarreling" with Jq..

My heart is with her.

Its the 1st time I meet her..

She never smile.

I lied.

"I was too engross with playing bball.. so i forgot the time."

*Sigh*

I think she must be really angry.... and disappointed.

I lied the 2nd time.

I told her I going to take mrt somewhere.

But actually I went back to get my bike.

I'm scared of accompanying her home.

I'm afraid i... might cry.

I dont want to show her my weak side.

I went to Yiochukang on bike today.

I just wanted to be alone.

Its really a long cold trip.

I knew if i were to give up.

I wouldnt be able to reach home.

But my determination didnt fail me.

I'm Jasper ok.

I manage to find the driving centre there.

And manage to reach safra on time.

Just as when i was about to reach home.

Jq called me and say he got BIG problem.

I went over immediately.

This is the 2nd time I'm late today.

I bluffed my dad saying i still playing basketball.

Its worth it.

Jq solved his problem.

No life is loss.

All well ends well.(For him)

Haiz..

Do that stupid girl know that i miss her?

Well.. if she know.. then she isnt stupid right?

Hahahahaha...

I wish i can cry.

Inferior

2006-03-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

Last night.

I almost breakdown.

This is the 2nd time I have this kind of feeling...

I felt totally inferior to someone.

Maybe I just got too tired..

It was after 2 hours of gym.

6pm.

I went back to Yishun Mrt station.

Wait wait wait...

Then I suddenly realize she should reach yishun already.

I called up.

Yes!! She reached!

But she has arrived underpass..

"You want me to walk up again meh..."

My heart skipped a beat that very second.

I replied "Its ok.."

So near yet..

I can't meet her.

I guess she might be tired.....

I intend to return the lunchbox to her.

I brought it all the way to gym den all the way to mrt station.

*Sigh*

Actually I know deep inside me,

I just wanted to see her.

Just once..

How bad my day is,

Her smile always manage to brighten it up.

Would she think the same?

But on that very day..

My day remains dark.

After dinner with Jq and Bryce.

I went to community centre and play bball.

So happen I saw this guy.

The 2nd guy in this world who can make me feel so inferior.

I just keep playing from 7-10pm.

No matter how tired and thirsty I am,

I just continued playing.

I want to prove that I am not inferior.

My team was winning all the time..

Except the last match.

In this match,

the critical point is scored by him.

Why can't I move and stop him?

I hate myself

That day,

I was really totally worn out.

2hours of gym + 3 hours of bball.

But this is not the thing that worn me out.

Its the few consecutive moments of sadness..

**Windsurfing Class. I wonder why so many girls pick up windsurfing? >.<**

**My team in Spac2go Expedition `06. Notice the empty space on my right hand? Thats for Taufik. ^.-**

**Spac2go Expedition Team '06**

Darkness

2006-03-15T18:59:00.001+08:00

Looks like..

I'm in darkness now.

Where am I?

I probably am in a bottomless pit of... Love.

But I can see a ray of light..

And this light is.. her~

Last week.

All that can go wrong.. has gone wrong.

My right eye keep twitching even until NOW.

Its irritating. >.<

O2mini could not be repaired.

The warranty says corrosive item are out of warranty.

Replacements for my corrosive items cost $688.

Its as good as getting a new set.

I haven't even told my Dad about it.

I'm gonna talk to him later.

Bless me.

And my Ipod.

On that very same day when i receive the sad news of my corrosion in o2mini..

I crack my Ipod Nano screen accidentally.

This week.

Thank god!

Apple centre replaced my Ipod screen for free.

Reason: 1st timer.

If 2nd time, I will be paying a whooping sum of $388!

I guess this the only good thing that happen.

And of course..

Being able to see my dear is also a good happening. ^.^

Last night.

We went to play Basketball.

Pingkwai, Bryce, Jianqiang and me.

We are in a losing streak.

I guess its all my fault.

My stupid miscommunication problem.

And.. my overwhelming desire to win.

Maybe I should learn to communicate more.

And lower my desire to win.

That will probably allow everyone to perform better.

Haiz..

All I actually wanted..

Deep inside me..

Is to really have fun playing.

Losing is not really important to me.

Thats all~

No one will understand.

Forget it.

Today.

Cut hair.

Reach saloon at appointment time.

When the hairstylist was about to start cutting my hair,

1 auntie came over and scold

"Why you cut his hair first, i waited so long and you never cut my hair 1st."

Hairstylist replied

"His appointment time is earlier than u."

And they start quarreling..

Sian.

Actually I dont mind letting her get her hair cut first.

Haiz..

I just feel sad when i see people quarrel. =(

Now my hair look funny..

I keep asking him to cut short.

Then he is like..

Dont want to see my hair go so short

And so he tried not to cut short. -.-

He and my mum have same thinking.

They like my hair alot..

Especially the curls.

But i think otherwise.

Because.. someone wana give me a ride.

But she's not tall enough for my previous seating height. =P

Then I happily go home.

And prepare to go fetch Dear.

I was wondering what will she comment bout my hair.

And imagining how is she going to give me a ride.

So so soooooo looking forward to meeting her later.

Then i realise..

Her dad coming to fetch her today too..

Its my fault..

Never appointment with her in advance.

Never tell her earlier that i'm meeting her.

Maybe i always think too much.

I just feel like seeing her even if its awhile.

I think I'm an idiot.

Stupid idiot.

I make myself look like I'm desperate to see her.

I think I'm falling head over heels over her..

Stupid right?

Come on la..

Wake up wake up.

Its really hard to struggle within myself.

I remembered the last sentence I told Iris.

"You taught me not to love a person too deeply"

I think I'm going too deep.

Someone please teach me how to control my feelings can?

="(

*** Diving trip to Pulau Hantu - This is my last training open dive. And now I'm finally a certified diver. Can go any parts of the world and dive le!***

*** Dear and me. - Done by Dear***

Pro tech(s) In da House`

2006-03-04T01:16:00.000+08:00

Jh and Ah ho came my hse today.

Jh brought computer parts and Ah ho brought the whole cpu unit.

And we act like some pro technicians and start repairing each other's computer . (Except for ah ho.)

This slacker come my house.

1.Throw his CPU unit there.
2.Get free technical service from JH and me.
3.Play PS2
4.Play Dota
5.Drink free coke.
6.Eat free lunch and dinner.

In return, he gave me his 5 year old Network card ($5 worth) for my Desktop.

Thanks ar! >.<

Come to think of it..

My room looks like a technical shop back then. -.-

But fun!! =)

Fun is only a moment.

But sadness will always follow you.

*Haiz . . .*

Think its pessimistic period for me again ="(

I'm afraid to lose..

Very afraid to lose it all~

The kind of losing feeling.. is not good. >.<

I dont want that kind of feeling anymore..

And this stupid old bad thinking of mine..

"If I got pimple.. I will throw friends or whoever's face when they with me."

So I just keep running away...

Running from...

Myself.

1 - S i d e d

2006-03-03T01:28:00.000+08:00

Argh~!!!

Exams finally over!!

But I'm not really that happy at all... =(

My O2Mini spoil all of a sudden! -.-

This is still small case..

Big case is myself.

*S i G H*

Why am I such a dumbass??

I hate myself for doing stupid things.

How can I be doing such stupid things?

Why am I doing such stupid things??? >.<

I hate myself.

Can I DON'T be serious in life?

I can't.. I really can't.. >.<

Don't I ever learn from previous experience?

Stupid me.

And..

Before I know it..

I, stupidly, have already step right into the Fatal Trap.

I think I'm really stupid.

I don't know about people's feelings.

I can't sense it when people hint me.

Am I stupid or what?

Or isit because there isn't any feelings + hints in the 1st place?

And so here I am.. Blabbering nonsense.

This is what i call --> 1-Sided

I am confuse.

And this stupid boy here..

Because of the stupid pimples. (This few days very late sleep and eat alot heaty food =P)

Dont dare to go out with people.

He thinks that people will mind his looks.

Stupid isnt he?

Someone.. Please enlighten me~ ="(

ihatetoday

2006-02-25T18:37:00.000+08:00

I HATE today!!!

1st. Community centre have event.

I didnt went.

Kangming called me and decided i no need to go.

Later, Peijiang called.. and ask why i havent go down.

Sian.. i hate it when there is breakdown in communication. >.<

JASPER YOU WIMP!!!!

2. Playstation 2

Jiahao's friend selling 2nd hand ps2 for $200

Yiyuan selling for $200 too.

I wanted to borrow from yiyuan and test if I like it anot.

He said "I lend u until Monday u give me $10 bucks can liao"

Now I understand.. 2 days of playstation cost $10

Friendship cost nothing.

I understand that in Friendship,

One shouldn't ask anything out from it.

So I ain't a Bastard and go ask for free loan.

3. Printer

My dad ask me to buy Epson printer.

I told him to wait as this is not an urgent issue yet.

He told me "Buy la.. $200. Cheap wad.. Promotional offer leh. Now your printer spoil liao.. Buy liao can use mah.."

I dont know how to reject him.

In 10 min, I'll be leaving the house and join him at Harbourfront to purchase.. the printer. -.-

And to help him carry back.

4. Study

I haven't even touch my books.

This coming Tuesday will be my last paper in my POLY LIFE.

And worse of all, its theory based.

No mood to study..

So many stupid distractions.

I HATE TODAY!!!

Windy~

2006-02-22T17:46:00.000+08:00

Its been a windy day~

Couldnt seems to study anything in. >.<

Promised not to dota today. >.<

Tomorrow gotta go MOE to print my O'level results for NTU admission. Hate it. -.-*

Moodless. -.-

Should I go out exercise abit? =)

Or...

Play House of the Dead 4 with JQ. =\

Life is boring without dreams... -.-zzZ

** Someone commented I look girly in this pic.** >.<

**Yesterday on train. After submission of portfolio to NTU. Worse day in Feb** >.<

("v") V.Day ("v")

2006-02-16T01:32:00.000+08:00

1st Time celebrate V.Day ^.^

1st Time buy Bouqeut of Rose + Tulips. ^.^

Its been a Tiring Day. -.-

BUT . . >.<

Happy Day. ^.^

Everything is worth it. ^.-

Just for One Reason. ^.^

"Who's the mysterious person behind these roses??" >.<

B.D : "Thanks for the Jacket." ^.^

Standstill

2006-02-09T14:03:00.000+08:00

Devil today has made a repetition of successive attempts in stopping me to go school. =(

Angel in me has weaken alot.. alot. *Sad~*

I think I'm screwed up this entire week.

Sleeping at late wee hours..
Slacking too much..
Never exercise..
Too much dota..

I AM SCREWED!

Haha! Maybe Jq is right. We can start writing a book on..

"How Dota has ruined our life."

Can't imagine myself doing this..

I bought something for someone..
No chance to give it to someone..
In the end, someone bought it already..
Looks like i can throw it away then.
Who would want an extra book? >.<

Lets talk about my dream.

I wonder whether this dream is real?

Sometimes i dont understand the dream at all~

Which part of dream is real?
Which part is unreal?
When is it real?

Is this the dream I've been seeking for..

I wish god give me an answer.

Else my life gonna be a standstill... at least for now.

I'm in such a big dilemma.

Its tiring.. ="(

Stupidity

2006-02-06T18:20:00.000+08:00

I didnt wanted to blog.
I didnt want to give her the blog address.
Because I didnt want her to see.

But in the end.. i still did blog.. and gave the address. -.-*

Its been a long time.. in my long search~
I think.. I've found someone which simply fits in.. the missing jigsaw puzzle of my life.

Today, I did something stupid.

There is a dinner compulsory for all Year 3's EEE student.. but i didnt attend it.

All because I had a stupid wishful thinking.

Haha!! But nvm..

Maybe after all, its just a dream.. When will this dream stop..?
If its a dream.. wake me up please. >.<

Is this the end..

2005-11-23T23:03:00.000+08:00

I msg angel before my match.

Hoping she will reply..

But didn..

And with all my might, i gather all my concentration to focus on the bloody match.. -.-

Today lost again. But i had real fun.

At least i stopped 1 short corner. =)

But still i had two injuries.. left hand and right knee

Quite badly bruised.. but who cares right.. I didnt even let my parents know it~

Damn sian..

Think this probably is my last hockey match.

Maybe i'm gonna find a weekend job and work.

I just remembered something.

The last time i cried was when my parents disapprove my ex and me.

I was forced to make a decision.

1. Be an obedient boy. Let them control every single thing in my life. Never whine. Never complain. No freedom at all.

2.Choose her and bear with it till some miracles happen.

That time.. i chose 2. But now.. I think option 1 probably is the right choice for me.

In the end.. still option 1.

My life only have studies, work and family.

My sports.. will be gone too.. ="(

Going to sleep soon. Nights... to me.

Hate this feeling.

2005-11-23T11:50:00.000+08:00

I'm lost.. *sobz*

Today have 1 lab & 2 tutorials.. I skipped them all~

I told myself that i wanted to change a new leaf.. go to sch and study, be like a normal student bla bla bla..

but how the hell i know..

I havent really gotten over her..yet~

Haha... HAHA!!

The reason for not blogging long is to make people forget bout this place.

Anyway i guess no one will bother to come here.

I really feel like crying.. but no shoulder to lean on.

Weak I am.. am i not?

I thought of angel.. dont know why..

Maybe because angel can heal wounds?

but angel today not free..

So sad..

I'm having a hockey match later on.

SP vs Combined ITE at NYP.

Dont have any mood for the game.

This afternoon, I'm supposed to hand up the Under-21 registeration form to the club Tornados.

Gabriel told me that he ain't joining.. and i'm greatly affected.

Dont feel like joining it too.

I lost it all..

Lost my mood for anything else..

Last week i went JB with Jianqiang.

My dad found out and he's really mad over it.

So.. he confiscated my passport and said i'll have to reach 21 before he returns the passport.

Today Jianqiang going JB with his friend cos i couldn't make it.

I really wish to go..

Good food. Pretty girls. Nice accessories and clothing.

I can see that the girls there have better sense of fashion than singaporeans.

I miss the place man..

Mainly because of food. (Cheap and good) Dont misunderstood.

Haiz..........

I'm so dead now.. i know if i dont recover in time..

I will really lose it all~ everything.

Fyp, hockey and studies.

And there something i like to write in my blog.

Its about a girl.

She likes me.

She's really sporty and nice.

But deep in me.. i feel that something is amiss.

I dont noe wad.

I feel so bad now....

Really feel like crying le..

I really hope i can be good friends with her.

How to not hurt her?

I'm worried that i give her false hope..

Haiz..

Maybe i have alittle feelings for her.

Because i nvr really know a sporty girl..

But after this few days.. i know that she can be a good girl friend..

But.. still not my type.

I need to refocus..

Someone save me.............................................

**Wake me up please...

Dreams...

2005-08-27T02:00:00.000+08:00

"Jasper, you skills improved really alot!" exclaimed Prince Gaurev & Karma.

I'm really glad to hear these words coming from my 2 buddies in hockey. ^.^

Today we had trial for hockey IVP team. I'm really nervous.. as nervous as when taking exam.

1st trial: 3.2km run
2nd trial: Indian dribble across 8 cones.
3rd trial: Hit 5 balls and score. (Keeper is there)

It has been since a really long time since i do some real running. And today.. I finished 3.2 km at 14min15 sec! =P

I'm satisfied with it. ^.^

And the Indian dribble i made a small mistake.. think my timing was 14sec.

Lastly the 3rd trial. Its held at 8pm and the court is pitch dark.(The light weren't on)

And I actually hit in 2 balls! Actually its 3 but during the 1st score, keeper wasn't ready so.... -.-*
Overall, I'm quite satisfied with my performance today. ^.- Because of the trial, I even wear my newly bought AND1 socks! HAha! Anyway.. If i really were to get into the team, I hope my buddies get in too~ Hope our dream team can be formed. *WinKZ* ^.-

I'm a step closer to my dream.

****Even if you put in hard work, whats the use when you don't believe in it?****

Below are shots i took yesterday night.. for fun~ =)

"Working Till The Sun Sets.."

"Blk 253"

"Pingkwai's dog name Jacky"

"Me with Pingkwai's new dog.. name Jacky also.. -.-""

Back from Dinner

2005-08-16T00:20:00.000+08:00

The dinner was great! I almost ate 2 serving each time. Haha!

Thru and fro the journey, my mum had a talk with me in the car.

I actually reflected alot of things..

Punctuality, studies, relationship and family..

But upon reaching home, my dad started to nag again because of my warning letter of attendance.

Haiz.. i know i'm at fault.

I think i got alittle tired these days..

Sometimes i had a wishful thought.. hoping that some silly girl will fall for me..

then i will have a shoulder to rest on when i'm tired..

and someone to hug when i'm down..

HA HA HA!

Probably i'm too sick and weak now.. thats why have such silly thoughts.

Off to shower and sleep soon.. Nights guys!

*1st time to Wild Wild Wet*

* 1st time play archery*

*Fireworks upon closing of the festival. Nice right??*

*1st pic with guofeng. Taken at marina carnival for free.*

*Before going out dinner with mum. Trying out my newly bought gatsby wax. Red colour type.*

WeAk

2005-08-15T19:16:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday.

Its the 1st time in my life i've seen mingyuan so generously treating us. It was the entrace fee to Wild Wild Wet. I tot wad sia... He won 6 tix in some stupid lucky draw.. Haha!

The whole day was damn fun! Mingyuan, alex, yiyuan, guofeng and me went! We played tsunami pool, ulu oh, shiok river(Lazy river) and SAMSUNG!! The price to these fun (besides entrance fee) was lots and lots of walking. We had to climb stairs, walk against the flow of water at Shiok River.. =.=

Beside these normal fun, of course we get to FeAsT our eyes too! ^.^ There happen to have a group of japanese babes.. *Drooling* And for some reason or coincedence.. there were lots of times where we happen to play the same station together..-.-* I think they thought we stalk them sia~ >.<* Who noes mayb they were stalking us instead?? MuHahah!! =X

Actually i was suppose to go Sentosa to meet Shoel to play volleyball with her japanese friends.. Haiz...~ But they say i always run here run there.. cannot devote myself to 1 group of friends one.. Say until i so bad..~ ='( So i bite my teeth, clench my fist.. and give up the hope of going over Sentosa and play with those jap babes.. ="(

At night, we went chinatown to eat. Since i dont know the name of the hawker centre, we walk round and round the place for 1/2 an hour then only we find the place. Actually we were dying already then somemore very hungry.. (We didn eat the whole day since the moment we enter Wild Wild Wet) Everyone is like complaining bout the long walk and stuff. But the moment we reach there~ The HeAvENLy DeLiCiOus Food immediately bring PEACE among us. And everyone starts to hunt for food. I already had sore throat, but the food was just so nice.. so I heck care and go ahead with eating those fried and oily food.

During dinner, i recieved a miss call from iris and i called her back. She told me her god father passed away. I felt sad.. but i dont know what to talk to her. I only ask where is funeral held at and hung up the phone. I wanted to show concern.. but i think she got bf already.. so what for am i needed right? Anyway she's not gonna appreciate it.I made a few attempts to msg her.. but was told off by mingyuan they all... so i didnt msg at all.

After dinner, we went walking awhile and start to search for MRT station. -.-" Its a long search and we got lost somehow.. Haha! It sounds damn stupid. Actually we were heading for Raffles then somehow we walk halfway ,got lost, and walk back to chinatown station. -.-*

EVeryone was happy and tanned at the end of the day. (Thnx Mingyuan for the tix! ^.-)

Sunday.

I woke up.. and the 1st thing i notice is.. my 7 alarms failed to wake me up!!!

Its already 9am and i'm supposed to meet Xueli 9.30am at Harbourfront station! Die....

I waited for bus hoping that it might be faster than train.. but to realise it will take more than an hour. -.-"

No choice.. but to spend my precious $$ To take cab down. *Heard Pain* ="(

Its $14++ ="""(

Then i meet her and went to eat duck rice. She didn wanted to.

We went in and tanned awhile... then it rains.. >.<>

When we finish washing up.. the rain almost stopped and the sun coming out again.... -.-!

Back at hawker centre again.. i went to eat chicken rice. This time, she eating too. And i paid for her meal and drinks..

And we head down to chinatown. At station, she wanted "teenage" magazine.. And i paid.

At marina carnival there, i'm already too poor to buy the package for unlimited rides for lots of things. =(

So i went walking around only. Then i recalled guofeng also wanted to come so i jio him down. And he happily agreed=)

Meanwhile waiting for him, i got hungryy again. Then i went to search for food. Lucky me, found 1 stall selling beehoon for $1 and nuggets for another $1. ^.^

Finally guofeng arrived and the fun begins! We played archery, rock climbing, bumper cars, viking, carnival games( we played the game which require u to throw balls at 5 cans.. and we failed to clear it.. the prize was tazmania stickers...-.-"). We also used up all the coupon they gave us.. Its super worth it lor.. HAha! $10 for 2 person. ^.^

At evening, we came across a stall selling magazine. It gives alot of goodies upon purchase of magazine. And i chose FHM. =P And i had to borrow $ from Xueli because guofeng don have $ also. LAter on, xueli told me i must return her.. because her mum will check her $ and if i didn return her, her mum will scold her. -.-??? (I seriously thought that theres something wrong with it.. because if i didn treat her to meal and buy magazine (Add up to $6 at least).. then she have to pay it on her own right?? The result will still be the same right?)

Sian lo.. aiya.. but nvm. I called up jianqiang and invited him after his work over to see fireworks . At the same time, he return me some $ to clear the $6 i owe her.. -.-" Thnx Jianqiang. ^.^

The price of late for today is heavy $$.. not gonna be late anymore =X

At night, The firework was really nice..

That moment.. i oni thought of 1 girl..

if only i get to share the beautiful fireworks with her.

Monday. (Today)

I was sick. My throat hurts alot. =(

Hoping someone will take care of me.. But none~ Haha..

Resting at home whole day.

Going out with mum to dine at Jurong west soon..

Its some kind of 7th month dinner where people will bid for items and have dinner at the same time.

I promised to accompany her.

Did not had my dinner yet.

Hope I can eat some of the food there.

Conclusion: My throat hurts alot alot..... Dying....~ =(

StiLL @ LoSS... -.-*

2005-08-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was National Day.

I'm proud to be Yishun resident.. because they have a stage in Yishun!! Muahah! The best part is Twins and Xie Ting Feng performance. ^.^

We missed Twins.. ARgH!!! (Because I'm playing Dota then mingyuan was at my house rushing me througout the game. =P)

So we went walking around looking at their booths.

Suddenly we heard some guy singing on stage...

Its Xie Ting Feng!!!!

Oh shitz!!! That Freaking GaY.. I heard my friend say that he went jail last time because of Hit And Run Accident. I hate this kind of people lo..

But never mind.. he has his retribution in the jail.

Heard my friend saying that he got raped by the guys inside. (Imagine ur asshole getting poked by so many "sticks".) Ouch! HahahaAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is the 1st time i saw him LiVe on stage. He dont look that handsome anyway.. If u ask me to use 1 word to decribe his looks.. Its "BENG"

On stage like so polite like that. Can't imagine someone who is polite will hit and run in a car accident.

Ooooh.. Mayb he scared of ppl poking his ass again~ LolX!

K la... enough of him. Waste my energy and time only. ^.^

Anyway, I'm still considered a SINGLE now.

Imagine: You are in a relationship which doesnt require commitment. It means you attached or you are still singe???

Can someone answer me?

Question: Does True Love involves commitement? IF u really like someone.. will u want to commit in it??

Anyway.. I think this is a good chance for me..

A good chance to LeArN how to NOT COMMIT in relationship.

Its gona be a struggle for someone who is very affectionate in love relationship.... ^.-

But.. I truly believe that anything is possible in this world...

Oh yah... My FrEaKinG pimples are back again.. Lame leh.. they shift from my right face to left face then now.. back to right side of the face again... SHucKS! -.-"

Nightz guys ^.-

*Took Today By Mingyuan.. He commented i look sad.. =(*

*Look cool ritez... O.o*

*Who care bout Ferrari and Skyline?? ^.^*

*I just love shooting... =)*

At loss...

2005-07-28T21:00:00.000+08:00

Actually didnt wana blog.. But the feelings in me are killing me..~

Wanted to find someone to talk to.. but guess everyone is busy with their own stuff~

Wanted to find cloud... but.. I'm afraid..

Dont ask why.. cos even i do not know.

I think i owe her an apology..

An apology for missing her.. too much*

Ha ha..

Today's weather was great~! I wanted to ask Cloud for a swim.. but i didnt..

Becoz of my PiMpLeS~ -.-*

These naughty PiMpLeS came popping out the past few days..

I just feel uncomfortable if i don look good when i'm with her..

Maybe afraid to throw her face? Lolx..

So i rather throw my friend face .. for having such fren like ME wif PiMpLeS. =P

Chris came over my house in the noon to study. (Just because he needed a table to study.. Lolx!)
Guess wad?

As soon as he arrives, we had our lunch together.

Then... he watch me play DOTA. -.-*

I was teaching him while i'm playing. (I think he's gonna get addicted to this game.. HAha!)

He actually ask me to go town later at evening to play pool.

But somehow.. i didnt went~

There is like.. so many alternatives.. but i chose to sleep~

Even after my napping, these activities are still there for me to do..

1.I can play DOTA with yiyuan,
2.I can go town and play pool with Chris and gang,
3.I can watch movie with Angel,
4.I can play badminton with Bryce and gang.

But.. i didn do any of these.. I just stayed at home.. with the intention to study~

BUT! I also didn study much.. I have extremely bad attendance this sem. I guess no1 could beat me to it. I never even seen my some of my lecturers face before.. HAha!

I will probably just flung this MST papers..

But recently.. Till i met the TonTO CLouD.

I have to admit that she's smarter than me.. FOR NOW.

As usual, I hate losing to girls..

So i'm definitely tryin hard to catch up now.. All on my own~

Cloud is like.. reminding me to study every now and then.. -.-" Thnx~ =P

K la.. I'm going to shower then chiong study again~ Hope i can make it. ^.-

Btw, last night's outing to Chinablack was quite fun.

With Free Entrance & Free Flow of Drinks.. What more do you expect?

Everyone was drinking like nutz.. Lolx!

Only Bryce and me left for last train . He got schooling and i've got family.. Haha! Nah.. its just my dad nagging.. Normally i can just overnight without any problem.. but that night, i guess some wire in him went haywired. I really feel like rebelling him..

Haiz.. Too bad i'm too FiLiAL~ ^.^

And that night, i was wearing 1 of the shirt she gave me. (Because the shirt was too large for her.. -.-*)

K la.. Off to do my stuff~ Have an early nights guys. ^.-

*2 Lonely Souls Back From ChinaBlack*

^CLouD + HoCkEY^

2005-07-26T02:11:00.000+08:00

Been really long time since i blog~ Sorr to keep you guys waiting.. =)

Actually i'm really down initially during the 1st week i didn blog.

My life got sOooO LiFeLeSS... that i didn feel like doing anything~

Until i met a CLouD` ^.^

She's the 1st girl in my life dat msg me as a stranger through net.

In the past, theres practically no girls who are interested in me~ Ha ha Ha...

So.. i got really ExCItED bout this.

Actually from the pictures she posted online, i was not attracted at all!

On the nxt day, we started to chat on MSN instead of wholivesnearyou..

Surprisingly our chat got on soOooO long that it hit the limit of the dialog chat box. (It just keep scrolling up automatically)

I guess we chatted online for about... 5 hours?

Wow! This is my 1st time chatting online for sooooOOo freaking LoNg!!

Its not that kind of... dull boring and draggy chat. Ours is a long, interesting active chat throughout the 5 hours.

Then she asked me out.. but i rejected... because of PiMpLes!

Haha! And she was kinda pissed off because she lost to my pimples.. Haha!

In the end i sort of reluctantly agreed so as not to disappoint her~ =)

Initially she wanted to watch movie.. but i suggested star gazing at Lower Seletar instead~ ^.^

So we went there walking because she's got some sort of stupid phobia bout bikes.. -.-*

But that day was cloudy... and soon it begin to drizzle..

I hurried her to get on my bike.. and she unwillingly agreed~ =P

The road was long and quiet... I mean.. suppose to be long and quiet.. but her screams polluted the environment there~ =X

We had quite a chat below her house before we go home.

So thats the 1st night with her~ =)

Then on the 2nd night... i went to watch movie with her... Initial D~ This is my 2nd time watching~ -.-"

But i didnt really mind cos the show was pretty nice and she havent watched it yet..

Our 3rd outing was to Yishun safra..

Almost everyday was raining.. but it didn rain that day.. (Because of me? =P)

We were tanning from 12 to 4pm. Of course we did swim.. alittle~ =)

Most of the time in water, we were fighting it out. She keep attackin my weak points and pinching my face all over.. -.-*

My friend(Life guard) saw us and blowed the whistle..

He hand signalled saying that i should not pinch her back.. instead should slam her into the water.

Haha! Of course i didn slam her la.. I dont hit girls kk.. =)

On the dat night.. We went to have our dinner den we walk around Northpoint.

Then Bryce phoned me and ask to play badminton. So i brought her along. =)

She was wearing skirt that time.. Haha!

I was playing with the guys there until lights off. Then i play with her under a blk.

And so i challanged her to a match.. the prize is suppose to be a Big HuG.

As expected.. I won~ No kick man.. =P
Then i sent her home.

Then below her blk, she asked me if i wanted my prize(HuG).

And suddenly i recalled her last time saying "Wouldnt you rather want a hug which i give willingly?"

So i replied to her no. Then she said she wanted to give me a hug.

A Willingly One. ^.^

I was so suprised! And so i shyly agreed. =P

We were so awkward lor.. haha!

Its my 1st time hugging a girl who is not my mum, grandma nor my girlfriend.

She commented that I'm like a block of wood. Haha!

Then after many minutes has passed, I gather all.. and its reallly all my courage to hold her waist and hug. Haha!

** S H Y **

I still remember her saying that my hug was nice.. And she feel so secured and comfortable within my arms that she almost fell asleep~ ^.^

The next day, she came my house to motivate me studying. Haha!

I think its on that day, she asked me if i like her.

I went blank that moment.. then slowly i regain consciouness.

I replied Yes. ^.^

I asked her the same question too.. and of course.. her answer is similer to mine. ^.^

I know all these is all of a sudden.. but we are going to take it slow.

Then the next day is already my hockey camp. She came over to wake me up and send me to bus stop~

The hockey camp was great! All of the teammates are much more bonded now!

Well.. the best part of this camp is when we play card games at night.

We were playing the game "BLUFF"

All of them are damn gd liars.. only i always lose.. (Because i dont lie well?) Haha! =P

On the last night, we had Bapok night. I was one of them..-.-" Although i didn wont, but i sure did give them a good laugh. Haha! My dressing includes 2 sharp pointed breast and 1 10 inches dick. Haha!

Among these 3 days, its raining for the 1st 2 day. We only get to play games on the last day.

Gopi said that i got better again... Haha! He added "Don get so happy.. You think i wanted to say it meh? But thats the fact.." =)

I really got happy and i did realize i got abit better. But this is not enough to get into the IVP team. Gotta train harder ^.-

On the last day after training, Cloud came down to fetch me. ^.^

There were really alot of bad happenings the past few weeks.. but i wanted to share the joy and happiness with you guys this time. ^.^ Dont worry bout me k. Thnx alot for your concerns. Nights! ^.^

*Part of the hockey team during break camp*

*Me during the Bapok night.. Look what i'm holding.. Haha!*

*May the fingers combined..*

Lifeless...

2005-07-10T22:43:00.000+08:00

I haven't been bloggin for sometime.. Perhaps i'm not ready to.. I'm confused.... =(

Alot things happened recently. Of course there are alot fun and happy happenings.. but there are bad times too~

Getting kinda tired.. and disheartened....

Now still recovering from sickness..

Then my StUpID Pimples came out. =(

And my grandma was admitted to hospital again.. since last monday. -.-

*SiGh*

Furthermore, i've been slacking too much since the beginning of my 3rd year in poly. I seriously dont know whats going on. Haha!

I have been sleeping real late this entire week.. Everything seems so lifeless..

Probably u guys can't see it.. Right now i really dont know what i really want in my life..

Maybe i'm just used to being sporty, fun and everything. Thats why no one know when i'm feeling down. Haha! I guess thats me..

But i've decided at least.. not to let down those who have faith and hope in me. ^.^

From tonight onwards, i sleep at 11pm. And study at least an hour each day. And........ no more skipping of classes. ^.-

Is it all gona be empty talk? Just wait and see... ^.^

WAiT!!! I have a story to share with you guys. Its quite a touching story. Enjoy it~ ^.^

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene of ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls attention. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn t help doing so.

I moved Dew's hands aside and said, You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I ve got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn t imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I ve got something to tell you, I said.

She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly.

She didn t seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

At that night, we didn t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn t want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month s time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn t want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms , she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don t tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.

I didn't tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.

She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All my dresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn't notice that our life was lack of such intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.

She looked at me, astonished. Then she touched my forehead. You got no fever, she said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you.

I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed by the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favourite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greetings on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

~ThE EnD~

How u guys find this story? Personally i was thought that this story was quite meaningful and realistic.. Towards the ending, it give me a kind of.. sweet and warm feeling. So i thought it'll be nice to share with you guys. Me go shower and prepare to sleep le. Nights guys! ^.-

[MC]

2005-07-04T22:40:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 10am today..~ *Still SicK*

I started revising my CSS Lab notes for awhile~ Everything seems so... unfamiliar?

Guess I've really slack too long...

Ever since the school started.. I've been slacking~ Everyday is just like HoLidAY to me..

But now.. I guess its really time to start studying~

Its gona be real hard.. Haha! I know nothing at all.. I'm gonna start from scratch, from ZeRo... ^.^

Today i went polyclinic to see doctor. Got a MC. =)

Shoel came down while i'm waiting for my queue. We went Safra to play pool for awhile. And she went back school for some project thingy~

After seeing doc, Yiyuan came to meet me at Safra. We played pool.

We played 10 games... And he lost 10 games. =X

I went home at around 6pm. As usual, I did praying.

Then Yiyuan and Ah ho asked me to play Dota. And i did. Jianqiang join in at the 2nd game.

We stopped at 2 games.. And i've been slacking till now~

Time to shower and sleep soon.

My pimples have yet to heal..~ =(

Nights guys~ ^.^

Sick...

2005-07-04T01:50:00.000+08:00

Woke up... felt sick~

I'm in a dilemma..

To go for the soccer competition anot..
"Its a event hold by the west region community centre. We are there to look after the event."

HaIz..

I have stomach cramps, flu, cough.. and...

PiMples~

I think i seriously lack in sleep and eat too much heaty food. Plus probably i drank too much alcoholic drinks? Its my 1st time drinking 3 days in a week.

I'm so.. lack of confidence.. to go~

Why am i so conscious of my look? Even if its without pimple.. i'm also ugly.. But why the pimples are affecting my mood this MuCh? =(

In the end i decided to go.. because of ResPonSibiLitY.

But i didnt went because Yanling has left for home. And they dont really need anymore people there~

So i called Shoel out to play pool. =) Then we went to eat at Jurong Point. Haha~ That place is fill with memories of my past..

Then i accompany her walking home from Boonlay to Lakeside.

We sing our way through the darkness.. Haha! She's pretty good at singing~ But i'm better at singing... out of tune. LolX~ =X

*******Thnx Shoel.. Thnx alot~ For not minding my looks. ^.^*******

I went home after that..

And slack until now~

I decide to see doctor later in the morning.

I'm going to recover.
I'm going to play sports.
I'm going to study.... ^.^

From tonight onwards, my bedtime is 11-12am. =)

Nights guys~ ^.-

Can't do sports... ="(

2005-07-03T01:04:00.001+08:00

I'm alittle feverish now.. Haiz~

Yesterday was a over-exhaustion day.. After school 3pm, i went to play pool with Daniel at queensway.. Lost him every match~ -.-*

At 5pm, i went for hockey. Kama said i'm getting better. ^.^

I left the training earlier at 8.30pm to shower and prepare myself.

I took bus 106 to somerset but i blur blur got down a few stops early. -.-" So i went to take MRT from orchard to somerset.. Lame! -.-" Then i manage to get into cineleisure on time.

This is the 1st time I ever had my dinner in a cinema.(Eating rice) Due to time constraint, jianqiang buy my dinner for me. Haha! Lucky no one complain . =P

The movie "War of the Worlds" is very nice! I give it a 4/5 rating. ^.^ Movie Director Steven Spielburg is really worthy of that Oscar award. ^.^Be sure to catch it guys! =)

Then at 12am we went to ChinaBlack. But when reach.. its past 1am le, so we have to pay entrance fee. (Its free entrance before 1am) Inside, i went to keep my bag at the counter for $3. And jiaqiang didnt wanted to drink, so i get to drink 2 cups. ^.^ I gobbled them in 2 shots.. Then i felt alittle like puking. But i didn la, of course~ ^.^ And i went to watch people playing. Everyone there is basically smoking except me. ^.^ I'm suffocated and breath real hard to get oxygen.. -.-*

At 2am+, Daniel msged me telling he's at Devils bar. So i went over to join him~ But in the end, i can't attend because he forgot to tell his friend that i'm underage.. Actually is free entrance 1 leh.. because of his friend. But nvm la, i went back to chinablack. He felt real bad bout it.. but i assured him that its ok. =) Next time, i will be able to go in le.... from the back door~ =P

Then i left home with Jiaqiang at 4am+.

The next morning i woke up at 10am+. I hesitated whether to work anot.. because my throat is killing me~ But i recalled what my boss, my mum and everyone else said. "I must responsible.. "And so~ i went. ^.^

And at early noon, i came back home to rest. Then Jianqiang came over to download some program for repairing computer. Actually we were about to leave for SimLim square to repair his dumb computer. But luckily i psychoed him to spend more time to repair. In the end, his computer was revived. Heng! This means i no need to go town liao~(Because i'm sick mah) ^.^

Then now, i'm on phone with the National Day girl. I got to know this stupid girl while ushering her. =) I still she was very late that time.. Hahaha!! =D K la.. me going sleep le~ Sick liao.. Haiz~ So sad~ Can't do much sports now.. Sobz~ ="( Nights guys!

DrUnk????

2005-07-01T13:00:00.000+08:00

I woke up late this morning.. But still managed reach school at 9.30am for my 9-10am tutorial. Heng~ The lecturer didn say i late. Lolx! =)

Then today sian.. Daniel and Aravinth didn come school~ I went to mix with other clicks. Luckily I'm HighLy sociable~ =P Today i went library during 2 hours break..I went there with Eng chye and 2 more guys.. 1st time go library this year. Lolx! I was copying tutorial answers from him. Haha! And i also copy the highlighting.. copy until i tired liao also havent finish copying~ Die la~ haha!

Today after school, i went to meet Bryce at Ngee Ann Poly. I waited for him for an hour! Haha! Then we went to eat chicken rice first then went to play pool. Haha! I won bryce 4 games out 4 games. =) Its because he didn play pool for quite a while le.. Haha~

After that I rushed to meet Mr Morri. Yes!! Twice in a row waiting for people in ONE day. =) I waited him for 1/2 an hour~ Haha! Then we went to shoot the newly constructed library from a rooftop. =)

Then i went home le~ I was kinda tired today. I'm very dizzy the whole day. Its like some after effect from last night dizziness or maybe i'm too tired? Haha! K la.. me go slp le~ My photography teacher ask me to sleep earlier and drink more water because of my pimples. Must obey~ Haha! Tomorrow gonna be a long long day~ Nights guys!

1st Pool Victory! ^.^

2005-06-30T01:21:00.000+08:00

Juz got back from chinablack.. Alittle dizzy and tired. HAha!

I wasn't late today. =P Although mingyuan and alex were there ahead of me.. but i still have to wait for guofeng and yiyuan's arrival.

When we reached there, alex and me went to play pool. Haha! I lost to him in the 1st game. Then at the 2nd game, alot ppl watching.. I was playing like a total newbie lor~ Haha! I was already very nervous in the 1st game although there isn't many people watching.. probably because of the atmostphere? Unexpectedly.. i made a turnover and won Alex!! Muahah! Then when i was about to leave.. a guy asked me to stay. He told me the rule there is "Winner Stay". So i stayed on to play another game. He's the 1st stranger i played against with!!! I was playing like a newbie again. But at the last minute, i made a turnover again! And i won my 1st game against stranger outside!!! Muahaha~! Then the 2nd challanger came.. He thrashed me in the beginning.. but i keep snopping him all the way~ Until i left 2 ball.. and lost it~ Haha! Alot people watching lor... HAiz~ I must train harder and go back to play with them again! ^.-

When we went back, i ordered whisky dry. The person mixed for me de~ I finished the jug within minutes.. Then i go alittle dizzy. Its my 1st time feeling dizzy after drinking. Haha! Then we went to dance. And for awhile, its already 12am! When we going off, i saw my friends at the pool table so went over for small talk. Then i realize its already 12.10am. The last train is at 12.14am!! So we ran all the way from chinablack back to the MRT station. Outsides thought what was happening sia~ Because i was already sprinting at the front while mingyuan they all chasing me! haha~ People thought some gang fight or wad.. Somemore i'm in my singlet~ haha!

Lucky we manage to make it for the train. Then we saw weijie on train. Haha! He helped us to take photo before going seperate ways. ^.^

K la.. me going to shower le. Nightz guys! ^.-

**1st shot.. I prefer this 1**

**2nd shot..**

ResT DaY~

2005-06-29T19:58:00.000+08:00

I woke up late this morning.. So i skipped my 8-10am lecture. And i woke up realizing i didn off lights and computer then fell asleep last night.. And i forgot to blog too.. So i blogged this morning. ^.^

I wanted to go swimming this morning. But too tired.. So didnt went~ I was watching "Tsubasa Chronicle" from episode 3 till 12. From morning till noon. Then at around 4pm, i went to run errands. I went to check whether the clinic is open, went to buy carpark coupon den go market buy jasmine flowers(praying purpose). While i was cycling back... I went to check out the basketball court opposite temple. Yeah! Its cleared from those temporary stages builit on it last time. But i can't play today... still too tired.. My left thigh will cramp anytime.. Haha!

Today i keep taking short naps.. But always got people interrupt my sleep. -.-zzzZ Sian~ I got alittle irritated.. How come? I rarely have this kind of irritated feeling.. Haiz.. I'm not feeling good~ Or isit i got too tired because i over exhaust myself the past few days? Dunnoe.. -.-"

Now i'm off to meet the yishun gang to celebrate Alex's b'day at Chinablack.. Even thou tired.. must still got~ What friends are for? ^.- Maybe today i drink alittle more.. HAha! Sleep early guys. If not cannot wake up early for school. EarLy Nights! ^.^

PresEnTat!on

2005-06-29T11:16:00.000+08:00

Woke up late in the morning again~ And i rushed to my 10-12am tutorial, reached there bout 10.45am. The lecturer mark me "L" again~ Haah! Today is our turn to present! Then i panic and rush through to prepare the presentation. Daniel presented first, ara 2nd and me 3rd. Heng ar~ Haha! The lecturer praised me "gd". Yeah! ^.^

After class end, i went with daniel to his home to take his money. Wah~ His house alot wine.. haha! Then he treat me to drink Shivas.. I had only a glass. Then we left~ We meet DeYong to play DOTA at queenstown. I went off at 5pm+ for volleyball elective.

Today volleyball is learn to "set" the ball. As normal, we practice among ourselves until 6.45pm. Actually Cynthia ask me to go off early because hockey training starts at 5.30pm. But i insist to finish the elective. I dont like to do things 1/2 way~ Then when i reach the hocky court. I ask Kan if i need to run anot. Then he say no need because the volleyball elective already considered warm up. But then later on got 1 female senior ask me to run. -.- So i ran 2 rounds.

The game today is fun. My team is good.. only i'm the lousiest? Haha! I can't control the ball well. They did give me alot of chances because i keep running to open space. Haiz.. I gotta train harder! ^.^

It was already 10am+ when i reached home. Then i shower and take my dinner. And i was watching the 1st episode of "Tsubasa Chronicle" japanese animation. It was nice.. so i carried on till episode 3.(Because i only d/l till 3 episode) After that i went to download the rest of the anime. And i went to rest on bed awhile... And in awhile, i fell asleep. Haha! This blog was done in the following morning. =) Morning guys! ^.^

Desaru RoX!!!!!!!!!

2005-06-28T01:45:00.000+08:00

YEaH~ I'm back.. I woke up late that morning. Then took a cab down to tanah merah.. The taxi drive at a minimum speed of 120km/h!! Haha! I took around 15-20 min den reach there le~ But the cab fee.. $13. Sian~ I started to use my money when i havent even reach there~ -.-" I was there so early that i waited for them for 20-30 min. In the meantime, i went to shoot some shots of the sunrise. ^.^ (These pic are kept for my own purpose.. if wana see can come look for me. ^.^) But Jiali treat me a banana and a tuna sandwich for breakfast! ^.^ Yay!! =P Then we set off to Desaru on boat! ^.^

I shan't talk too much bout the trip. Or else.. will type super long de. Haha! The whole trip is really nice.. We played volleyball, team building games, pool, karoke, buffet, sea sports, dai dee and alot alot. Oh yah~ On the last morning.. -.-" I was squashed by 3 big guys! -.-* 2 guys are 80+ kg and 1 is 110+ kg. -.-* The 1st attempt is the big guy lie on top of me den the other 2 goes on top of him. Then they thought that it's not effective enough~ They changed the formation. The 2 80+ kg guys lie on top of me then lastly the big guys comes on top of us! The joint 2 bed is splitted.. -.-* My breakfast almost vommitted out the moment he comes on top. -.-" The food there not bad.. just that its quite expensive. Normal Nasi lemak for Sing $9. Haha!

Upon reaching singapore, kahbee wana go watch Initial D. And so i agreed. There is her brother, Ken and 1 more small girl going too~ ^.^ We took cab to Lot1. $ again.. -.-* After that, we eat dinner there. The movie was nice. 7/10 =) After the movie, kahbee, her brother and me went to play pool. She wanted to master pool mah~ We play till midnight then i went home. I spend $25 after i reached singapore. -.-"

K la.. shall stop here for Desaru le~

Heres today blog:

I woke up late again~ So missed my 8-10am lecture. Then i went for my 10-12pm lab. Still i was late for around an hour, but luckily i manage to catch up with the work this time. ^.-

After classes, i went with my fyp team to meet fyp lecturer. Then do some fyp work. Yes!! Finally i'm going to chiong my fyp project. ^.^ AFter that i went to eat lunch with daniel and kok choon. Then i went to meet Ivan to do gym. I was doing gym from 2-5pm+. Then went to eat alittle den i go home.

Back at yishun, I went to exchange ringit back to singapore currency. Then I went popular to browse magazine then happen to see zhihao. He jio me to play arcade and i went.. but for only 1 game only~

Then we went home. But on the way home, i saw some people playing basketball. So i joined in. And got 1 guy wana play 1 on 1 with me. And i won him every round. Then suddenly got 1 small kid appeared. Saying he wana play 1 on 1 with me. I was shocked!! I was wondering its either he's very good.. or he's very bad. Because he's appearance doesn look like he's good. So i ask other guy to play with him first. And it turned out that he's quite new to basketball. -.-* Later on, i saw my phillipines friends. Then we played together. My team was winning until at later timing, got a bunch of chinese guys came to challange. Then my team got 3 phillipine guys, the small kid and me. We lost by alittle. But all the score is taken by 1 phillipine guy. He is damn fast.. and good. Me leh~ Haiz.. worse than that small kid. So freaking disappointed in myself.. Haiz~=(

K la.. me go sleep le~ Super tired now.. Nights guys!

**Me on a swing at the Desaru Beach**

**Taken with jiali. I look cool ritez. =P**

**3 Girls and me ^.^**

**Lam Soon CC leg gathering. Guess which 1 is mine? =)**

Defeat.....ed~

2005-06-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

Woke up late again this morning at 9am.. I sleep 6 hours only leh! Its raining this morning.. But then didnt went back to sleep. I dont like to sleep after i wake up.. It still early lor.. I slept last night at 3am leh! On phone with 1 person then another.. -.-* Yup! And so i skipped the 2 lectures.. Then i was still late for my lab at 1-3pm. But i was within an hour because the lecturer told me after 2pm, he not gonna mark attendance. Then today he put me "VL=Very Late" -.-* Haha! He told me not to be late again.. Hmm~ And i nodded. ^.^

After school, i went to play DOTA with Daniel and 1 of my classmates..(But forgot his name =P) As usual, i bought Nasi lemak and smuggle in the lanshop again~ Today the uncle very generous, he add rice for only $0.10 which makes the total $2. Haaha! =P

I left at around 5pm. And i manage to be in time for the hockey training. Oh man.. Today me and Prince were seperated into different teams. Sian~ My team.... lost~ Although its a friendly match only.. but.... Sian~ Its true that the other team have all the experienced players while my team consist mostly new players... But lose still means lose. We are thrashed 11-4. I only manage to score 1. I think we seriously need more practice. Hmm~ I'm gettin myself 1 hockey stick if possible. Wana train at home. =P They brief us on the IVP thingy.. probably around august or novemeber.. I got less than 2 months! Its like super hard to get in lor.. But i will try my best. Furthermore.. I beginning to love this sport. =P Today got 1 guy say that their group were talking about me. Saying i look like i'm from dragonboat.. haha! Dragonboat needs too much commitment. If i join that, i will have to give up all other sports.. So~ No way! =P And i tink i'm not good enough to join them ba~ =P

K la.. I just got home. Just now had a mini chat with KAhbee~ Her dad help me change $102 Sing into Ringit $230.. Just because the moneychange dont have small notes.. -.-" Actually i didn intend to spend so much, after all we going there to relax. And its a resort island there.. Can spend on what?? HAha! Then we somehow talk about her... Haha! Glad that i manage to make her feel better.. ^.^ She's really a good girl, hope she can make it in life. ^.^

ME going to shower le.. and sleeping soon. I haven't even pack bag yet!! Haha! Tomorrow hope i dont late.... if not the boat ain't gonna wait for me!! See ya guys till monday. Will anyone miss me? Nahz.. Hah! Nights everyone. ^.^

Efficient Day!

2005-06-24T01:42:00.000+08:00

Woke up late again~ I missed my 1st tutorial of the day. -.-* But i manage to attend the other 2. =)

In between tutorials at 11am, Daniel and me went to eat chicken cutlet rice at foodcourt 3.
During lunch time, we went foodcourt to meet Jiangyang and HockJun. Then i eat again but daniel didnt. =P ThenJianqiang came looking for me. I hand some disc over to him and he return some money to me. Yay!! I got $ again~ The feeling is so great you know?? Getting to buy food AnYwHeRe AnYTiMe. No need to be worry of hunger anymore!! =P

After last lesson, i rushed down to Lavender to update my passport's expiry date at SIR building. Then after that i went to Marina Mandarin to meet up with my photography teacher. He paid me some of my pay.. Yay! Got money for this weekend overseas trip liao~ ^.^And together.. we went to Marina square to take photo of the interior shops. Haha! I think we are quite a poser today. I keep asking people to siam because i'm ordered by my boss to do so~ -.-* And i realised the food there very expensive!! Sian~ Haha~ I only buy myself a Roti John. (Me wana save $$ kk..)^.^

Around evening, we went out of the building to shoot the building itself! Haha~ The sun was really good. There are some pics i took during our outside shooting using my O2Mini. After that my teacher and i taking cab back to Newton. Then suddenly i realise my bag is still in his car! And the car was driven off by her wife during the middle of our shooting!! -.-* Her wife drove it to fort canning hill to learn classical dancing. -.- So we take cab and go all the way to fort canning just to reach the car and get back my bag. -.-!

Just reached home. Then i talk with Yanling on phone. She said I'm efficient today! HAha~ After dinner, just finished playing DOTA with yiyuan. Just finished counsellin Margeret. Going sleep le~ Nights guys! ^.^

**Photo of Marine Square. The sun very nice but my phone camera sucks! Haha~**

**My teacher taking photo using his Canon 1Ds Mk II with 24mm L Lens!!! WootZ!**

**Me slacking when he shoot. So i took a candid of him with me! ^.^(Its alittle dark as its evening le)**

HocKeY!

2005-06-22T00:47:00.000+08:00

Woke up late again~ But still i rushed to my 10-12pm tutorial.. And i made it to class at 11pm+. The lecture sian1/2 then he ask me not to be late again~ So he marked me late.. Haha! Heng~ =P

Then after my last lesson at 1pm. I went to have lunch first then go to meet FYP lecturer to submit some kind of group name and stuff~ And after that i rushed to meet Margeret.

At 2.15pm, i reached Dover station. I was late for 15 mins? Because of the lecturer la.. Aiya~ Late still means late.. -.-* Then when i reach, she was with a girl. The girl called.. amanda? She's kinda lame.. but somehow i got lamer than her.. I was laming with her until she left.(She was so lamed by me.. Haha!) =X

And we went Suntec to shop. Initially we planned to watch movie(Magadascar! I desperately wana watch that movie.. WHy? Because i wana have a good laugh. ^.^) but there is no time slot suitable for me. (I got volleyball elective at 5pm mah)So we went shopping lor. During the shopping, I keep fooling her around~ Haha! Because she got too cocky at first and said" Only i fool people, no one fools me 1" And so i was unknowingly "dare" by her lo.. Haha! Then i keep fooling her all the way.. Of course its all harmless fools la~ ^.^

I got back school by 5.15pm. Then i change into my sports attire and get to the basketball court. And i realised..training cancelled!! -.-"( Because of the slight drizzle.) Then Cynthia ask me to join her hockey training because her training is not affected by the slight drizzle. So i happily agreed. I have not play hockey before lor.. except for once or twice in my primary school days~ Haha!

At there, i knew this guy call Prince. Wow!! Haha! That must be the expression u people give right. Where got people name call "Prince"? Actually its his first name.. Haha! I prefer calling him that because he's other name is kinda hard to remember. =P We chatted alot during the training. And i realised... he's the captain of the hockey team back in India!! Wow!~! Haha! Then he taught me alot.. And i really tried my best to pick up this sport. After some routine training, we were divided into groups to play games. My group has Prince, Wee Meng and Taufik(This 1 is not the Singapore Idol guy ar~). My team people sounds pro right.. Prince ar.. Taufik.. and Jasper as well.. Haha!! Juz kidding~ =P All the name so nice! Haha! Our group name call "Trash Us". Haha! I know its kinda lame.. but well..~ =X The 1st game we scored 2-1 and the second game is 4-1. Haha! We won both the games and trashed ppl at the 2nd game. But then... i didn get single score out of this 6 goals... -.-" So sian~ Haha! I think i'm the most noob player there already. =P

After the hockey training, i decide to join that club. ^.^ After that, Cynthia and me went to meet up with Bernard and go home together. He just finish rock climbing. Actually today i'm suppose to join him in climbing but i didnt realise the hockey training was so long~ Haha!

K la.. I just had my dinner and was playing DOTA with Yiyuan again~ We were having fun owning other people but suddenly my com hanged and his computer lagged out at the same time! Haha! Its fated that we can't enjoy the win.. -.-* K la.. Shall stop here~ Nights guys! ^.^

SLacKing DaY. . .

2005-06-22T00:20:00.000+08:00

Today woke up late again~ I didn attend my 8-10am lecture again..~ And so i didn even went school today because after that, there isn't anymore lesson. ^.^

My dad was at home this morning. He brought my grandma along with my maid to see doctor. Its her routine checkup every month. So i'm staying at home to look after my cute little sister~ ^.^ Actually today I'm suppose to join Spac2go to go Jurong Bird PArk for the joint project between LAm Soon CC and Spac2go. But i dont have enough money to even pay for the entrance fee.. so i didnt went~ Then Ken(From Lamsoon CC) called me. He say he's paying for my entrance ticket. So i agreed to go. But because my dad took a long time.. so long that i waited till 3pm then he reached home. So i can't join him le.. And the worst thing is.. he bought my ticket for me. $14.. -.-* Luckily can claim if not i surely sian 1/2.

So i slack at home.. Playing 3 games of Dota, watching anime (Yakitate Japan + Mahou Sensei Negima) and Scooby Doo from SCV. Then later i watch the making of "Dont trust her". Aiya~ The movie title i not very sure.. but its a very nice korean movie. I'm probably going to watch it.. Its a romance + comedy story. ^.^

Then at 4pm+, i went to study for the first time this semester. I read 2 pages!!! And then fell asleep le~ Haha!!

Until 5pm+, I did praying and had another DOTA game with Ah ho. We were playing 2 vs 3. And we won.. actually its because he's good so i'm motivated to play better~ ^.^

Around 7pm, I'm beginning to feel uneasy.. Its like i'm feeling sick without sports. So i jio Pingkwai to play basketball with me.. But he was too tired. So i went alone~ I went to temple first but there is a shelter built right on top of the court! I think its again for some celebration purpose.. -.-" So i went to 100+ there and there is a shelter built there too! Hmmm.. i wonder what are they celebrating? >.

Just finished my supper. Self cooked instant noodle with egg and an apple. ^.^ I'm going watch 1 last anime before i sleep. Its called "Buzzer Beater". A basketball Japanese animation. Last episode le.. Kk. Nights guys! ^.^

FyP ProjecT~

2005-06-21T00:55:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 8am+ but AccIdENtaLLY went back to sleep till 9am+. -.-" And so i missed my morning 8-10am lecture again. This lecture i have never attend it before.. ever since the 1st week. Haha! But i think my attendance full.. my fren they all sign for me~ OooPX~ =X

When i reached my 10-12am class. Its already 11pm+. LAte for an hour +.. -.-" Then i started to catch up with whats going on. Lucky the technician sit beside me nia~ Then he teach me.. Haha! But still i am blur la~ I already holiday for 4 weeks liao.. Need to buck up leh~ But i love sports too much.. and got distracted-.-*

After class, i went with some of my classmates to eat. Then at foodcourt 4, saw another group also from my class. Then we sat down and eat together. 1st time so many classmates eating together sia~ I felt kind of *warm*. Haha! Dont know leh~ Maybe because my class not so united ba.. then today we chatted until shiok~ haha! At1pm+, we went seperately.. Everyone is going for their FYP except me. Haha! Slack rite~ But this is not the end of me.. Just u guys watch! ^.-

Suddenly my photography teacher called. He told me theres a shooting this evening 5pm at SMU. And so i agreed to go. ^.^ And also the LAm soon community centre located at choa chu kang, called me to say theres an urgent meeting this 7.30pm. And i agreed to go too~

And i went with Aravinth to smoke first then accompany him to his FYP room~ And Raj and Hajit was there. So we chatted bout our past.. for quite some time~ He taught me 1 new theory

"When it comes to love..
Use your brains!!
Not your heart~"
Quoted from Hajit.

Then i left to meet Jiahong and NAfiz to meet our FYP lecturer. But he's not in. So i went gym alone while Jiahong and NAfiz wait for me outside at the swimming pool there~ Haha! And i know a guy call Faiz there. He's only year 2 but got quite a big built. Btw I'm NOT GAY ok.. It was when i'm doing my bicep curls.. then he saw i cannot make it liao~ So he came over to help. Thats how we become friends.

It was 4.30pm. Suddenly my FYP lecturer has come back. Actually i wana meet him. So i called up Mr Morri first and he told me no need to go for work le because the shooting doesn allow any delays. And i immediately told me i'm going for the shooting and decide to skip the meet up with FYP lecturer. So Jiahong and Nafiz went without me. But then Jiahong called me up and ask me to call the FYP lecturer up and talk to him.. Hmm~ Guess they can't do without me.. =P

Heng ar! I manage to reach SMU on time. YEs!! I'm not late! ^.^ Today shooting was alittle siong. Actually is because i did gym then immediately i went to work. But still i gave my best. ^.^ There was a short break in between when we see Anthony(videoman) off~ During the short break, Mr Morri treat me to lunch. And i always try to get the cheapest there. So i got myself those normal rice with 2 side and 1 meat. The fish there was so delicious man!! Its flavoured with dried chilli. Oh yah.. The place is call "Kopitiam", located near the nearly constructed SMU. U guys can try it nxt time. ^.^ And after the meal, we continued shooting till 7.30pm. Then i quickly smsed LAm Soon people to tell them i can't make it. Sian~

The moment i reach home. I went to grab something to eat first.. =P Then I did praying, then i went to put on my ankle guard and bring my basketball down. Its because i saw some phillipines friends of mine at the court opposite temple while i'm on the way home. It has been sometime since i played with them. And they got better again~ Haha! It was already 8pm+ when i reach the court and i played till 10pm. Although the session was short but we played full court. So it really exhaust me out~

Back at home, I eat my supper. At the same time playing DOTA with yiyuan again~ HAha! He got own by me 3 times. =P I guess he's team is alittle of inexperienced thats why got thrashed by our side. HAha! The game just ended. K la.. Me wana go sleep le~ Nights guys! ^.^

SeN+oS@

2005-06-19T23:28:00.000+08:00

I woke up at 8am+, then went to prepare for sentosa till 9pm+. And i went down to help my mum tend stall till 11am+. -.-" I'm late to meet Xueli!! Oh nooooO~! 1st time meet her then late liaoz... ArGH! I really sian until rot lor~ But no choice.. My 1st priority is to help mum.. Actually can go off early de.. But today she got extra orders for lunch. Haha! Aiya~ Actually quite sad.. I'm trying real hard to be punctual~ Hmm. I try again tomorrow. Until i succeed 1 day... ^.^

She waited for 40 minutes? Haiz.. Feel so bad.. Really~ I met up with her at Harbourfront station. I accompany her to eat first. Then i treat her lor.. Since i'm late.(Me already very poor.. But i know i'm suppose to treat her.) Haha! Then we went in and she register Islander card. After that we went to buy a mat and beach bag for her~ And i bought tanning oil. (Yellow colour Banana Boat RuLZ!!!) ^.^ And we walk from Siloso till Palawan just to find a secluded spot.(She dont like crowded place. -.-*) We tanned from 2pm till 4pm+. Haha~ She wanted to sleep but i keep crapping until she laugh and get pissed off and laugh~ (ACtually she already very tired from yesterday tanning at Sentosa but she want to go become super tanned mah~ So she got me to go with her today lo..) We chat non-stop till 4pm+ lor~ Haha! Then in the end we didnt get to sleep at all~ Lolx! WaH~ She looks more tanned than me!! Maybe because she got the redness from tanning but i dont have. =P

Today i showered quite fast sia~ Haha! I feel so.. ShiOK when i get to wait for someone. ^.^ Then we went to Harbourfront centre's foodcourt to eat there~ And we went walk awhile before going home.. I sent her till her block there then left. And then she pay me back $10(I bought for her the mat and beach bag) because i left only $35. My ez-link was low on value and no more concession. I'm so freaking poor sia~ HAha! Actually she wanted to pay me the full amount.. Its only $8 more.. Haha! Given my poor status i should accept her generous offer~ But again.. I didn take..

1st. She's a girl.. -.-*
2nd. I think she's low on cash too~
3rd. I can survive with my Old Notes Saving~ (I got collect old singapore notes mah~ Can use them to survive while first~) HAha!

I just need the $10 to top up my $35 to make it $45 to get concession pass~ But at the station control, the auntie ask me to start the concession tomorrow.. Because today i only need to take 1 trip~ So not worth it.. After some discussion with her.. Haha! I decide to start it tomorrow. And now my ez-link is super low on value liao~ .

Then the moment i reach home. DOTA with yiyuan already. I was having my 2nd dinner at the same time! Haha! And 2nd game is play with Yiyuan, Ah ho and his friends. And now here I'm blogging.

K la.. Me wana go sleep le~ Hope i can manage to attend the 8-10am lecture tomorrow~ Nights guys! ^.-

**XueLi's shy when i'm taking her photo~** (Actually i got her fully revealed face. But she shy so i didn post it. BUT!! Those who wana see can pay $2 a month to join Jasper's Photo member club! Haha~ Sounds like those eat money webby rite? STupid Me! Haha!)

SeN+oS@ Part 2 (ERROR)

2005-06-19T11:56:00.000+08:00

I wanted to edit my previous Sentosa post. But some errors cropped up. Regarding the quote until Xueli's photo. The "Jasper photo's member" i mention is totally just some crap. Please do not take it seriously. I apologise for any inconvenience caused. Gd nitez guys. ^.^

To Cool: I'm not pissed off or what. Just that i worried there are people who are really blur and thought that its real~ So dont take it to heart k! ^.-

BaskeTB@LL AgAin!

2005-06-19T01:12:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 1pm today.. Also dont know why i wake up so early for what..? -.-" Then i went to play a game of DOTA first..(I dont like to sleep once i wake up) And soon i played my 2nd game of DOTA with yiyuan. -.-"

Then at 3pm+, James and me went to Yishun Safra to swim. But as usual, he just slack througout again~ HAha! My frog style and free style is getting better liao~ Don pray pray ar~ Heh heh.. ^.^

At 6pm+, we went home and get ready to go down for basketball. Initially is David, Guofeng and Mingyuan were playing at 213... And i didnt want to go there because of the people there. I dont like to play basketball and have to be extra cautious of hurting others. Its not as if i like to injured people la~ The people there are easily angered even when u accidentally hurt them for few times. Although some are really good players.. But.. Aiya~ Perhaps i'm not skilled enough to play there lor~ whatever it is.. I still like to play at the court opposite temple. ^.^ Pingkwai accompanied me to play there. And soon David want to come over and join in too! Then James and Yiyuan arrived. After playing some games, Mingyuan and Guofeng came over too! Haha! In the end, all of us were playing together at the court opposite temple. ^.^ We played till 9pm+ and went to rest and have small conversation before heading home at 10pm+.

K la.. Me going sleep le~ Very tired now.. Eyes are 1/2 open nia~ Nightz guys! -.-zzZZ

JQ's B'day

2005-06-18T06:10:00.000+08:00

Woke up late again.. So I skipped 8-10am and 12-1pm lesson.. Both are lectures~ =) Then I'm still late for my 1-3pm lab.. I persuade Daniel to go for the lab too because he overslept like me and skipped previous lectures.. Then i waited for him at Dover station~ In the end the lecturer mark us absent but at least I did learnt whats going on in the lab~ ^.^

Then we went to play DOTA at Queenstown. This time, Jiahong went with us too! I saw him on train coincidentally and so i jio him to go with us.. After some PsYcHoIng.. He agreed to join in. =P We played 2 games only.. but we did had fun.

It was 7pm. And i reached Orchard early. (I'm suppose to meet Jianqiang at 8pm for dinner because he got some class event) So i went to look for Jingyi at her working place. (She always complain i never go down to see her) After much searching.. then i manage to find that place. We had a short conversation then i left to meet Jianqiang.(He decided to skip his event and come down early) We went to eat Pizza. We ordered a Large Stuffed Crust Veggie Pizza and 1 Root Beer Jug. (Cost us around $35) Haha! I rarely eat so expensive food 1 lor.. (I'm a poor guy kk..) We enjoyed every piece.. Haha!

Then around 9pm, we went to join up with rest of our gang. There was Alex, Mingyuan, Guofeng, Yiyuan, Bryce, Ah ho, Me and Jianqiang. The moment we reached there, Jianqiang told me he forgot to bring IC. Then all of us sian until rot~ And suddenly some girls appeared and told us a guy can bring him in as he's the organiser. Then we realise there is some NTU event going on~! Haha! Heng ar! And so that guy manage to bring Jianqiang in. So I bought the tickets for him from the girls. Then when we meet up in ChinaBlack.. He told me he already paid for himself.. -.-" My mood was a mess man! Lucky i cool down within seconds.. Then I bring Jianqiang down in attempt to refund the extra tix i bought.(Initially its bought for him) Luckily i manage to get the refund.. Haha!

At 10pm+, Angie and her friends arrive. Then we realised its MArlene!! Jianqiang's good friend.. Haha! Then we start drinking and dancing.. Until 12am, Theres another cake cutting ceremony.. but this time by Marlene. =) At 11pm, there was no one dancing and so our big group(14 people) start the ball rolling. And soon enough, the crowd joined in. While we were dancing, we saw a girl not wearing any bra.. It is so super obvious lor.. They only got 1 piece of clothing infront. -.-* I mean all our friends are discussing on that la~(I'm not pervertic kk...) Then we realise its a SHEMALE!!! Haha! And in total, there are 3 SHEMALES~ Personally, I have no prejudice against them.. Their dress code is really daring! Lolx! And they are really friendly too~ =) Haha~

HAlfway through the dance, I went back to drink. I tried to drink alot and fast. But didn get drunk~ haha! MAybe i next time drink at home and try again~ HAha! Then i saw a jug on our table but there was no one there~ And i drink it. Because I ask Mingyuan and he assume its ours~ ACtually now i'm kinda worried if the drink got PROBLEM 1 anot~ Scarly is others and those people got sickness or what.. >.<* This is me.. I'm always worried for stupid and unnecessary stuff~ Haha! Aiya~ Life's short.. Lets cherish every single moment thats left for us~ ^.- The place was damn crowded man.. And soon all of us got on the plattform to dance.. Haha~ We danced all the way till 4pm then left the place.

Just when we reached the bus stop, my stomach pain.(Jianqiang also had stomach pain when we reached ChinaBlack. I assume the pizza we ate was unclean!! -.-*) And we went to Hyatte Hotel. The washroom was closed but i just went in to try my luck. Indeed its still open, but the cleaner(Indian LAdy) was washing. Though she was kinda unhappy but i already no choice. And so i went into the cubicle and do my business. =P

It was 5am when i reached home.. Now just finished showering. K la.. Me go sleep le~ Nights guys! ^.^

**My new Girlfriend and me having pizza~** (Actually is Jianqiang & Me Enjoying Our PizzAs!)

**This is the China Black's Disco Lighting~ Nice right.. I like the blue colour~**(Taken by my O2 Mini Phone)

B@sKeTBaLL

2005-06-17T01:15:00.000+08:00

Today woke up late again.. But I still rush for the 1st class~ But in the end.. I missed the 8-9am Tutorial~ =.=" And the worst part is among the 3 tutorials i attended today.. Only the 1st class that i missed has attendance taken.. SuaY Man! -.-"

After class at 3pm+, I went to play DOTA with Danel they all~ I really sucks alot at the game today.. I was teaching a newbie throughout the game.. And i ended up playing like newbie~ -.-" (I can't really do well in 2 things at the same time BeCaUsE i only got 1 brain.=P) And this guy is Jiangyang. He's a pro in playing pool but sucks alot at DOTA. Haha! Although its quite frustrating at times but i patiently taught him.(I remembered how Daniel taught me playing pool) I played until 7pm then left le~

Upon reaching home at 8pm, I was nagged by dad. I know its my fault for being late to do praying.. Hmm~ Gotta improve on this. ^.- Then i immediately rushed down with my basketball and badminton racket. I went alone to play basketball at the court opposite temple. And i saw familiar faces there. And so we played a few games. Then i left for badminton. Actually I'm suppose to be at the badminton court below my house at 8pm. But i saw familiar faces playing basketball at the court while i'm cycling home.. Thats why i went to play basketball first~ Today's badminton was okay~ But there was 1 game where Bryce and I got thrashed by Guofeng and Mingyuan with zero score in 1 game.. HAha!

K la.. Me go sleep le~ Later tonight going ChinaBlack to celebrate Jianqiang's Bday! Nitez guys! ^.-

*HappY B!rThD@Y Kong Jian Qiang!*

SMU

2005-06-16T00:56:00.000+08:00

Today woke up late.. Skipped class again.-.-" My lecture 8-10am oni mah~ I go there also 9.30am liao~ No point going for 1/2 an hour only rite?

So.. I went to work at noon.. Today's shooting is at SMU. Their lecture room really nice sia~ Haha! I can't imagine myself studying there.. Damn shiok~ ^.^ The shooting ends at 3pm+. Actually today my FYP project group has a meet up with a Boss at Sim Lim Squre at 4pm. Initiallyi couldnt make it because I thought that the job will end later.. But in te end i still manage to make it on time~ Our project chim sia~ We have to do something that can control the whole Dream home.. Lolx!

After reaching home at 6pm, I went to get basketball and immediately rushed down to basketball court. I was playing alone all the time.. Until 8pm+, Pingkwai came to join me.. We played all the way till 9pm+.. Then we challange a team there~ Got 1 guy quite cocky sia~ Quite all. He keep complaining that he didn wear shoe or what.. Lolx~ In the end kena thrashed by us. Wah~ Today really shag.. Actually i couldnt even move my arms much.. But i keep stretching and push myself to the limits~ Lolx!

K la.. Me go sleep le~ tml have tutorials.. cannot skip~ haha! Nightz guys~ ^.^

RoCk CL!mBiNG

2005-06-15T12:24:00.000+08:00

Woke up late again~ But today late for less than 30 min.. Bcos tutorial starts at 10am. Lolx! Today didnt saw christina.. but instead i saw Irene(From CSCC). Lolx~

During my last lesson at 12-1pm. I went off halfway with Daniel, Aravin and Hock Jun to eat lunch~ HAha! The lecturer sian 1/2 because we sat quite infront. Aiya~ Actually what he taught is kinda boring today.. So we signed attendance liao den went off~ =)

After lunch, I accompany them to smoke first.. (But I dont smoke kk... ^.-) Then I accompany Daniel to meet his girl at Clementi~ Ok la~ I can see Daniel's taste is not bad. ^.^

At 2pm, I went to meet MArgaret. I was late.. because of some stupid reason. I was at Clementi then i was waiting for her to arrive with the train.. then i will board it mah~ But!!! I forgot Dover is after Clementi station. -.-" And she scold me "Wu Gui"(Tortoise) the whole day.. -.-" We went bugis to do shopping for her clothes. So we shop and shop.. until its time for me to go~

At 5pm+, I got back at school for volleyball elective.. Today is juz practicing of normall passing. So bored.. But ok la.. get to know quite a few "girl" frenz~ -.-" Their instructor(SP Volleyball players) are quite friendly.. Got 1 of them has broad shoulders.... Oh man!! I think she more fit than me lor~ haha!!

After volleyball, Penny and me went to see RockClimbing.. And Bernard happens to be at there~ So he brought us in.. Haha! But we have to wait until 7pm then can start climbing... because before that is "training" for seniors.. -.-" I climb until my arm strain sia~ Bernard setup 2 routes for me.. The 2nd route was tougher.. He keep asking me to give up sia~ Haha! But I'm really really determined to complete the route. I tried more than 20 times lor~ And in the end, I really did manage to complete it!!! Song man! Haha! I was telling myself "I will not give up.. I must not give up!!" Haha~ Sounds stupid right? Lolx.. But it kinda works on me.. When Bernard told me to give up.. because he said that i was too tired.(Yah, thats kinda true) At that moment, I recalled my Msn quote:

"If you say you are going to give up, I will try harder and never give up!"

Althought this is not really related.. but i focus on the "I will try harder and never give up!" Haha! I'm really really glad that i manage to complete the route. Shiok ar~! Before today, I was still hesitating to join the SP RockClimbers anot.. But now, I've made up my mind.. I decide to join! ^.-

And we went back at around 8pm+. When I was about to reach home, I saw someone playing basketball at the court opposite temple. And I went to join in playing. Initially i couldn even shoot a ball well..(My muscle was too strained) But after alot of stretching and warm up.. I can shoot alittle better. Then I played 1 on 1 with him.. Haha! And i won 2 out of 3 games~! =P Actually i also couldn play well.. My sprained ankle has not fully recover yet.. I'm afraid to sprain it again~

K la.. Just showered and had dinner.. Now feeling abit full... But heck care liao~ I'm too tired now.. Gotta sleep le~ Nightz guys!

-.- zzZ

2005-06-14T00:55:00.000+08:00

Today woke up late.. Sian.. I missed my 8-10am lecture.. again! Die AR~ Until now, I know nuts about Wireless Networking~ Lolx!(I haven't attend a single lecture of that module yet!) On the way to school, saw christina again~ Everytime see her 1 de leh.. Also dunnoe why so coincidence 1. Lolx~

After my lab ends at 12pm. I went to eat first in school then head down to Queenstown with KockJun and Jiangyang~(Daniel's friends) Actually Daniel jio me to play DOTA but i requested to play pool.. Lolx! In the end alot ppl playing pool with me.. Haha! I got thrashed every round lor~ All the player there damn pro man.. HAha! But i did learnt alot~ These nice ppl teach me as we play.. Haha!

At around 2pm+, I went to Novena to meet up with girl girl(My niece, 19 years old, but in terms of generation.. I'm her "Uncle" -.-") We went to see her gong gong at Tan Tock Seng. Surprisingly Amanda and Peggy turned up too!(They are also my nieces) Glad to see her gong gong is still ok.. Just that breathing is abit of difficulty~ I prayed for him awhile, hope it helps alittle~ ^.^

Then we went down to Orchard to do some shopping. 1st time i go shopping with my nieces! Haha! (I think the youngest is 16 or 17 ba.. Lolx!) Girl girl wana buy presents for her 2 friends.. Lolx~ Before we start choosing presents.. they went to shop for clothes first~ As usual, girls really take their time to choose clothes and then try the clothes for NuMeRoUs times and.... dont want to buy it~ Haha! But in the end they did bought some clothes la~ Lolx.. =D After finishing buying clothes and present, I got hungry again~ So we went foodcourt to eat. Then we separate at ORchard and go our own ways.

It was already 5pm+.. And i rushed down to YioChuKang to meet Chris and Don for gym. Wah.. today siong ar~ I really do until my muscles veins can be seen.. (Now I'm really shag lor~) We did almost 2 hour of gym then go off le~

I went back to Yishun and got home to get my Badminton racket and change to my basketball shoes(With my ankle guard on.. because i sprained it last time when playing tennis -.-") Today badminton... got thrashed.. Haha! (Why today i always get thrashed 1 ar??) Me and Bryce were on the same team and we got thrashed by Mingyuan and Guofeng. Haha! But they didn manage to thrash us with zero score. I always manage to break our egg before the game ends. =P I was really tired already lor~ Almost dozed off during the game.. Haha!

Now just showered and had supper~ Super tired lor.. Today so many activities... I over use my concession lor!! Its 4 trips but i made 6 trips!! Expensive lor~ Haha! Actually today I got different planning of acitivities one.. After school, I'm suppose to go gym.. but Ivan was too far and i got no time to wait for him.. So we shift to wednesday~ And I'm going my hongxin's chalet after gym. But my dad ask me not to.. And I obediently obeyed~ Haha!

K la.. Me go sleep le. Nights guys! -.-zzZ

SuN DaY~**

2005-06-12T23:17:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 9am.. Then i prepare my swimming stuff. Just as i was about to leave, grandma called me to help her cut nails.. Haha~ So i went to help her trim her nails. Nice leh.. I also didn cut my own nails until so neat lor~ Haha!

Then i went down to help mum. It was kinda late le~ But heck care~ Just go down help. We chatted alot.. haha~ And of course i did help out too la! =)

I left my mum's stall at 1pm+. Then i went to Safra... alone~ Haha! 1st time going there alone.. In the past, I never dare to go there alone.. Because I'm afraid of drowning! haha! Actually I have some bad memories of swimming when i was young.. but i ain't telling it here~ =P This time, I can at least not drown again~ =P

Until 4pm then i left the place. And soon Mingyuan came over to my house. We were slacking until now... Haha~ I just had my dinner. It has been long since i had such a wonderful dinner. My mum brought home fish fillet and chicken cutlet. Then plus my maid's cooked food. Wah~ Eat until my stomach bloats! Haha!

I'm watching channel 61 now.. Its a korean love story~ Haha! If u guys had read my blog since long ago.. U will realise that i watch a nice love story at this channel too~ But this time.. I'm single when watching it.. This show is about a girl who have stomach cancer.. And she happens to know a doctor who owns a hospice. This hospice look after dying cancer patients. The story nice lor.. Haha~ But i dont know the movie title~ haha! There is one quote the girl used.. I find it very meaningful

"Nobody sees you walking away.... without wanting to be with you..."

K la.. Me go sleep soon~ Tomorrow will not be late for lesson le~. This is a promise..for a semester!~ Nights!

Deep thoughts:

Guess i screwed things up again ~ I made 1 of my fren pissed off with me i guess.. I also made my dad angry last night.. becos of some incident that happened last night. Sometimes its really hard to please everyone i guess~ But still i will continue doing that.. Hahaha!

To James: If you reading this.. I would like you to know that I'm not trying to make you feel bad or wad.. I just pour out my feelings into this blog. I'm in fact.. talking to the blog. ^.^

Only here...
only here i can say out my feelings and thoughts for the day...
only here it will attentively listen to what i've got to say...

This is the place where i wont get scold nor grumbled at.. And it never turns me away~
So.. please dont read my blog if you feel uncomfortable or what k~ ^.^ If you got any problem with me, Call Me. I will settle it with you nicely. =)

New hair cut~

2005-06-12T01:50:00.000+08:00

Woke up early at morning 8am+...

Actually i wanted to help my mum.. But i went to do more research for my photography teacher. He request me to find out more on SHATEC's culinary skills for Overseas student. And so.. i researched till 10am+. And i went to meet Shoel~ Guess i'm abit late? She accompany me to cut my hair first~ HAha.. She commented badly on my new look.. Probably because it got shorter?? Haha! Nvm~ I like it neat.. Its more convenient for me to do sports too~ ^.^

After that we went Safra. We were tanning most of the time but.. at least i got down to swim~ But she just slack there throughout the whole thing.. Lolx! My swimming improved again~ Haha! The speed is getting faster this time.. =P

We went to eat first before going down orchard to meet my photography teacher~ I'm punctual ba~ But they were earlier there.. Lolx~ You guys can go SHAW TOWER there to check out the super large Batman Poster near the entrance there~ The poster shows lots of bats over the Esplanade building area~ That photo is taken by my teacher~ Lolx! Before we walk our seperate ways.. My teacher ask me I come orhard for what? Then i say window shopping lor~ Haha! And he asked if i have money with me.. (He know i'm quite poor lately) Then i say no. Haha! He wanted to give my some money first and take it as deposit pay for my next week part time job for him. But i rejected. Lolx~ But he let me felt alittle warm at that time.. The feeling of someone that cares for you~ Haha!

After that we meet up with Bryce, Mingyuan and James. Then walk around awhile.. and went to eat again~ Lolx! Then she left for work and we continue walking around~ I was really super tired lor... Almost dozed off everytime while waiting outside every shops they went to.. Lolx~

Then i went off first. At the entrance of Heeren, there is a busker activity going on.. Suddenly the busker was walking beside me.. Immediately i knew something is not right.. I suddenly stop my movements and he did the same thing. Then i continue walking and so did he.. I realised he is imitating my movement.. Given the normal me, i will surely do some stupid thing and disturb him but i was too tired for that. Then i just walk and stop and walk and stop and... He insist on imitating my movements.. Soon the whole crowd was laughing~ Lolx.. Then he realise i didn't laugh and so.. he tickled me.. -.-" I'm afraid of tickling and so i was forced to laugh too~ Ha.. Ha... Ha...~ Lolx~ This busker really made my day~ Probably he saw me dull looking so he approached and play with me.. Lolx~

But things take a U-turn soon.. -.-" James catch up with me. I thought he's going home with me.. But instead he ask me to go Bugis with him.. After much reptitive persuasion.. I agreed~ Actually I'm on time to reach home to do my praying at 7pm. But since i accompany him.. i would be damn late~ But i know the feeling of lonely sucks big time.. Lolx~ That is why i agreed. Haiz~ Did i make the right decision to accompany him? While on my way there, my dad keep calling to scold me.. -.-" It has been since quite sometime since he nagged... When we reached there, the place couldnt agree to his request. Sian.. then i suggest to take cab and he agreed.. I thought he will pay the cab for me too... Haha~ Guess probably think too much.. So i payed more than him in the end.. Lolx~ Maybe he thought that i was pissed off with him.. probably i will blame him because i'm late for home. But I didnt.. I was just blaming myself.. For my stupidity to do things following my heart~ I should have act according to my brain and reject him in the first place.. Stupid me~ -.-"

I was so pissed off with myself.. I almost cried~ Lolx.. Stupid me. I was expecting my dad to yell at me. Then i will feel better.. But he didnt~ So i reach home and immediately do push ups until my hands cannot take it.. Haha~ Now its so "nua" meaning "shag" meaning "overstress". Then i played DOTA with yiyuan.. and he sucks at the game!(Of course, i am not better la~ Lolx!) But he really gaming freak.. Maybe he play a few more times den will get pro liao~ Lolx!

K la.. Me go sleep le~ Nightz guys!

*Reflections*
Shouldnt we give things out without asking for return? Of course when people return you a favour, we will appreciate it alot~ But what if they dont?

For me.. Since long ago, I have been practicing in such a way that I do things for people and do not ask for anything in return. In love and relationships, I guess that is called Selfless Love? Haha~

I have seen alot of couples in orchard road.. I guess the feeling of been in love must be great? Someone will be there to care for you, listen to you, think of you and love you...~ Haha.. Dont think i will get involve in such nice, loving, sweet and stupid relationship thingy again...
Love sux~ lolx!

Lan Gaming....

2005-06-11T01:40:00.000+08:00

HAha!! I skipped my 8am lecture... and 12pm lecture~ Lolx!

I woke up late this morning.. then i went to search for my O2 mini's chinese software. Nowadays, so many ppl are sending me chinese msg.. And i can't read them~ Kinda sian.. So once i begin to search... i search for the chinese reader all the way till 12pm... -.-" Then i realised 1pm got lab.. And i can't skipped it~(Because lab cannot ask ppl fake my attendance.. =P)

I rushed to school and its already 1.40pm~ Lolx! Lucky the lecturer bo chup~ But then the lab is tough~ I really dont understand a single thing! Haha! PRobably because i've been skipping lots of classes lately~ Haha! Luckily got Ivan they all help me.. then i understand abit~

After school, i went to meet Daniel to play LAn Gaming. ACtually i wanted to meet my photography teacher.. But he called to inform me he can't make it today and requested to meet up tomorrow(Saturday) Until now i havent give him a reply yet.. Because i'm kinda busy tomorrow. But most probably i will still meet him 1.. ^.^

Today is the 1st time in these few years i played lan gaming for soooooo LoNg!! We played DOTA for 4 hours straight!! Play until i blur sia~ Haha! I wanted to play pool de.. but they wanted to play lan gaming.. Den play lor~ Haha!

And i went home straight.. I just finished playing a game of DOTA with Jianqiang,Yiyuan, Ah ho and Jiawei.. We lost! Haha! Everyone was so noob lor~ I mean.. we got Jianqiang as the noobiest noob there~ HAha! HE screw lots of things up, such as forgetting to put "AP" mode when he is the server and he buy Scrolls instead of the need items... Haha! Actually its alright one.. Who is born to know everything right? ^.-

K la.. me go sleep le~ Tml probably be a busy day.. Nights guys! ^.-

3 Hours Of PooL??

2005-06-10T00:40:00.000+08:00

I was alittle late for this morning tutorial.. Lucky the lecturer didn take attendance! =P

Today was quite dull because i didn really plan any activities. Actually I wanted to rest because I probably pushed my body too hard these few days.. Lolx!

After school, I went with Daniel and Alex(his friend) to play pool at Clementi. Starting part.. I play like small kid man.. Simple shots also cannot make it! Lolx~ Then later I was outside talking to my photography teacher. And saw Pinkie Hairband. Guess she saw me ba.. then i wanted to say Hi and she turned. Dao manz! Later on i went back to join them and i realised.. she went there with her friends to play pool. -.-" I also never really bother to say "Hi"(Only to those people i say "Hi" a few times and act daoz 1.) Maybe because i'm not good enough to be their friends? Haha.. Must be la~ I'm such a low class person.. I'm not fit to be their friends. Haha! She came over to borrow the cue support den i just say "ok" Thats all~ I was losing alot of games.. until Alex left. Daniel taught me how to play in the correct manner and also in a more tactical way~ Lolx! And i beat him at 2 games out of 6. Got 2-3 games is I left 1 black ball and he left a few.. but I missed all the way until he won! Lolx~ Probably i didn wanted to win ba..~ (Or maybe I can't? =P) He's really a good teacher.. at pool games.. LolX! He did commented that i improved alot~ ^.^ We played for 3 hours then only we stopped.. Lolx! Shag man.. I play until blur~ Lolx! This is my 1st time playing pool for so long! Haha~

Then i went home straight~ Just now played DOTA again~ Lolx!My team lost.. I too noob already~ Got owned so many times~ Lolx! ACtually it was towards the end of the game then only i realised my team had only 3 person while the opponent has 4 players.. Haha! Alittle disadvantage i guess.. But nvm la~ Its just some stupid game to kill time~ Lolx!

K la.. Me go sleep le~ Nightz!

New GyM @ SP!

2005-06-09T01:02:00.000+08:00

I woke up late today... Was late for the 8am lecture~ Today was kinda bored.. 2 hours break from 10am to 12pm.. Then tutorial 1 hour nia.. But luckily today our class propose to change the tutorial to thursday 1 hour break.(We got two of 1 hour break on thursday) And he agreed! Yeah! This means my Wednesday is only 8-10am. ^.^

After that we went GyM. There were Ivan and Hawk are from my new class and also Jiahong join in. Quite fun man.. This is the 1st time this group of friends did gym together.. Hawk is good! He taught me quite a few stuff on gym. ^.^ Then we were crappin.. And someone mention that Dove shower foam can burn fats! Haha! And another guy say he wana use it on the face to make his face look thinner.. -.-" Haha~ Alot lame craps going around.. Lolx! I was really shag.. Monday gym.. den now gym again~ -.-* Later at 3pm, Chris and Don came. But i didn get to gym with them because I have to attend a FYP briefing. This briefing ended the moment we reached.. LAme sia~ -.-* Then i wanted to look for Chris they all.. But then they left le. So i went to station and go home with them too.

ACtually i wanted to go shopping with Mingyuan at orchard today.. Shoel is also at orchard too.. Lolx~ But was too tired. Initially I went home with Chris to do praying then get change and go down to meet Mingyuan for shopping.. But then.. when i reach home.. I was really shag~ So i told mingyuan i'm not going~ Then in a short while.. Pingkwai jio me to play badminton.. -.-" After a long discussion then he agree to let me rest! Lolx! I sleep until 8pm+ then went down to join them for badminton.

At the badminton court, there were some kids playing.. (They are secondary sch kids~) Me and Bryce 1 team.. and we lost! Haha! (I give water 1 ok...) I was teaching them the rules while playing also.. Plus my leg sprained.. -.-" Can't move much~ And at the last game... Mingyuan and Pingkwai also lost them! Haha! Lame man.. We lost to kids!! Haha!

Then now at home.. Just finished a DOTA game.. Sian~ Today is the 1st time my com lag while playing DOTA. EVeryone in the game got pissed off~ Sigh.. I also dunnoe why.. I even went to d/c my msn. But still lag! -.-" In the end everyone left except 1 guy.. And i continue playing 1 on 1 with him.. And lose until he 10 owns and 0 death. I asked him" U got lag mah?" And he said" Nahz" Sian.. I was lagging like siao and he didn even lag?! My skills and all.. u click on it already.. wait for 4-5 seconds then it works.. That time also get owned liao lor~ HAiz.. Lesson Learnt => *Do not play when you lag*

K la.. me go sleep le~ Nightz guys! *Shagged*

ALoNe In TutOrIaL~

2005-06-08T01:40:00.000+08:00

I woke up 8am+~ Sian man... I was on time for OM tutorial!! But...~ The class was cancelled... and i didnt know~ My friend all heng sia... because they all lazy to go tutorial~ -.-" I was alone in the class and so i slept till noon~ I also got revise chapter 1 alittle in case later at 12pm OM lecture i dont understand a thing..

After school.. Daniel accompany me all the way to foodcourt 6 for lunch. Today eating vegetarian meals mah.. because 1st or 15th of lunar month. ^.^ Then I went to meet my photography teacher! We met up at City hall.. Heng AR!! Me not late.. I was actually late already.. Then i called him up to inform him that i will be late for 5 minutes. And surprisingly he's late too! Lucky he's later than me.. Haha!! We went to have a chat at Funan's KFC. And he passed me a disc. Its about Singapore's ITE First Regional Campus Project. Its about the newly completed school in Simei. I think its called Simei ITE. Last time i went shooting there with him mah.. And so he gave me a disc for reference.. ^.^ We chat alot~ And i always feel good after chatting with him. Lolx!

As soon as the chat ends, i rushed down to Queenstown to meet Daniel and his friend to Queensway. His friend wana buy leather shoe. ^.^ After that, we went to eat first before playing pool. I had another vegetarian rice meal.. =) During our pool play, i didn perform that bad after all~ Lolx! Manage to win 1 game.. All the loss is by margin of 1 ball. Heng~ Lolx!

At 5pm+, I rushed down to meet Kangming, Serene and Irene to play tennis. The moment i board the train, i saw Ziqing, Rouwei and Yuhong.. Lolx! They were talking bout how nice my pictures ar~(Cscc Camp's photo) Lolx!! Have been long since i hear someone praising me.. Lolx! *ShY* =P And they asked me where am i heading to.. And i replied "Dover" They ask me "Sure anot?" And i immediately realised that i took the wrong train!!! And i'm ready at Redhill.. So i drop off immediately and wait for BoonLay's train.. Lolx!! Blur me.. -.-*

When i reach the tennis court.. Surprisingly, Alvin, Florence, Wanlin and Weili were there too! Sian man! I played for half an hour ++ then sprain my leg liao.. And its because i was chasing a ball then i accidentally step on another tennis ball and slipped!! Sian man... Cannot exercise much le.. i guess~ ="(

Then we went to YewTee to eat because choachukang dont have vegetarian stall. Actually we heading down to Causeway because Irene insist to go there as only there sell vegetarian food. Haha.. She so thoughtful~ Lolx! *Pengz* But i also dilemma leh.. she already very tired liao.. So dont wan her to go home late. When we reach Yew Tee.. I suggest we get down and try our luck. She resisted but Kangming and me manage to get her out. Lolx! When we reach the foodcourt, the vegetarian stall close le.. Luckily they got packet beehoon. Actually the uncle sell me $2 per packet.. but later he change his mind and sell me $1! Haha! So i bought 2 packets. =P

Now going to sleep le~ Just had a game of DOTA.. This time i used Phantom Assasin.. but didnt worked out really well~ Although get highest score in my team.. but only by margin~ Lolx! Aiya.. I also know its lame to mention this kind of thing in my blog.. Heck! Lolx~

Me go sleep le~ Nightz!

**Taken when alone in class... BorIngz~~ -.-zZ**

**Left side: Irene ask me make that face 1... Lame-.-"**
**Right side: Kangming took it for me after our dinner.**

1st T!mE~

2005-06-07T00:54:00.000+08:00

Today I, Jasper, did alot of 1st times..~ ^.^

I woke up late again~ HAha! Actually i woke up early one.. Actually my dad keeping nagging until i almost wake up.. And~ Shoel did the finishing move and i finally woke up....... =.=*

I was late for class again! Sian man! I only reached my 8-10am lecture at 9.30am~ HAha.. On the way saw Xuejin. He's lesson starts at 8.30am and he thought that he would be later than me~ But... guess i disappoint him again! Haha!! Actually late is nothing to be proud of.. -.-"

When i was about to enter the lecture hall.. Students were already on their way out.. Sian man! But luckily no attendance taking. =P

After all my lessons end at 12pm. I went to eat first then meet up with my fyp lecturer. Then... Daniel called me asking me to play mahjong! Haha... And i stupidly agreed~ Lolx! Its my 1st time really playin mahjong that involves money~ It was fun la~ Although i lost.. $4.50~ Heartache leh! I'm a poor guy now... ="( Actually i dont like to gamble.. All my frenz know it. If i happen to win money~ I would not know how to spend it.. Its either i donate it away or... i gamble again and again and again... until i lose it all! Haha! Stupid right~ =P Because i find that such money is not earned through my own effort in the correct manner~ ^.^

I rushed back at 4pm+ to home and do praying. Then rushed down YCK to meet Christopher and Don~ We went there to do gym. Its my 1st time going gym this year~ ^.^(I went gym for less than 10 times in my entire life) LolX! I tell them that and they dont even believe.. Haha! Maybe because of my current nice figure~ *VomitZ* =P The workout was nice man! Maybe i will start to go gym often. ^.-

And after that i went home. Yeah~ Then after shower and dinner. I went to play Wc3 DoTA! Haha! They play random pick and i happen to recieve Silent Assasin. Haha! I sucked at that character.. But dont know why.. i create a miracle within myself. I got 12 kills and 0 death. Muahaha! 1st time kill so many and never die.. somemore buy so many expensive items. (I very noob 1 kk.. always die and never get to buy gd items =P) But... just as the game was about to end... My com screw everything up... The program got critical error and automatically forced quit my Wc3 Game.. Sian lor~ Didnt even get to see my score.. I never got 1st before~ Lolx!

K la.. Now going to sleep le~ Nightz guys! -.-ZZZ

Slacking...

2005-06-06T01:29:00.000+08:00

YawNz.. Tired man~

I woke up at 12pm+.. Sian~ Slept less than 7 hours but dont know why my body stupidly wake up~ -.-"

The moment i woke up, the 1st thing i did is... play WC3 DOTA~! =) HAha.. Today I use Tinker.. Own people like free.. I got the most kills! But i'm the lowest level among my teammates.. Lolx!

Them mingyuan come my house and we slack together~ Lolx! Its only until evening then i went out to meet Shoel~

We met at Cck~(Because its near our house) Then i accompany this stupid girl to eat. She had beef noodle. Its already in small portion but she can still have leftover. I wanted to help her clear up.. but cannot~ Because i can't take beef.. -.-" Hate to see people waste food man!! But no choice~ =( Then we went to play Daytona. Just like the 1st time we went out.(That was 2 years back!) HAha.. I won again~(As usual~=P) AFter that i sent her home.. The journey is very tedious~ We take train from CCk to Jurong east. Then change to bus... then change to walking. Actually right... she stay just beside the MRT station Lakeside. But this stupid girl just dont want to go home.. so i accompany her do these StuPid things~ -.-"

Yawnz again~ Actually i aimed to sleep at 12am. But its already 1.30am now. However I still insist to wake up at 7am so that i wont be late. ^.- Nightz guys!

**Shoel Da Stupid Ger's Precious IPOD mini**

RuSH HoUR!

2005-06-05T05:40:00.000+08:00

-.-zzZ

Finally i reached home from clubbing. =.=

I woke up early this morning at 7am+ but suddenly i got headache.. So i'm forced to sleep till 9am+. Then i hurried to prepare for Sentosa and set off to my Mum's stall~

At Mum's stall, after helping out awhile.. My sister called~ Its my grandma! She want to see doctor.. And I have to rush back home to bring her to see doctor. After seeing doctor, i went back to Mum's stall and help out till 12pm.

Then i got down to meet Yuqing they all at Sentosa. Today's sentosa outing is F U N!! We played volleyball, beach soccer, freesbie, captain ball in water.. and the most interesting thing is........ I manage to swim over to the plattform. Lolx! This is my 1st time swimming over.. In the past, my swimming skill sucks and if i ever attempt to cross over... I will definitely end up drowning.. Haha~ But now different k, i know how to swim le~ =P

Until 4pm+, We begin to wash up and left. For me, i'm off to meet my Mum at Bukit Gombak. She's going to change for a new car and i was asked to accompany her~ Alittle sian man.. she wana downgrade to 4 seating.. And there is only 1 car that caught my eyes.. Its the sports edition Nissan Sunny car~ Lolx! I think its very cheap ba.. $50k++. Lolx! But its only 1500cc. The enquiry of this car thingy cause me alot of time.. And I'm late to meet Shoel~ -.-" Sian man.. After enquires on car is done, my mum sent me home to change clothes for clubbing~ When I got myself change and got down back to her car..(She sending me to MRT Station~) She already got ready Macdonald's Fillet O Fish meal for me! Lolx! And the funny thing is.. Its the 1st meal my sister treat me! She's only primary 3 leh~ Haha!

And soon.. i got down to orchard and meet Shoel~ Guess i was late for too long ba.. But lucky she's not really angry with me.. Though i'm kinda pissed off with myself~ Haha.. She ar~ I know her long time back... but lost contact for quite long. This is the 2nd time i going out with her. Lolx! Ok la.. she did change for the better ba.. But still stupid as ever~ =P

At10pm, we went to meet Bryce they all at Orchard station. Oh Yah!! Its today then i know the girl's real name call SHoel.. In the past, i used to call her.... "Xiao MEh" Lolx! Sheol was lame lor.. dont wana reveal her name to my frenz. -.-" We had a small chat and she left for home le~

Then we went to meet my niece, GirL GirL. So coincidentally.. Lifen was sitting beside her! HAha~ She changed alot ba.. ^.^ I'm sure if she will look alot alot better if she take care of the face... Jiayou! =) We exchanged contacts and she left.

Now.. I saw Girl Girl's friend. There are Ben and WeiLing(Couple) and 1 more girl, Siti. ACtually Siti is her fake name.. But she purposely make me blur because i intially tot that tshe was malay from her look. And so she pretend not to know chinese and fake me all the way. -.-* Until when we reach Rouge then i know she's a chinese. -.-" ACtually today is going ChinaBlack, but my silly niece forgot to print IC. So cannot lor and instead.. we went Rouge=)

The music there are RnB and.. the place small and...drinks are ok.. and DJ IS great! Lolx.. Guess i learn alot dance moves there this time.. HAha! Jiahao's female friend very "high" 1 leh.. HAha~ She dance with all guys individually.. And that stupid yiyuan go play with her~ Lolx! I wonder what will jiaqiang do if he were to go~ =) After the clubbing, i went home straight. Actually wanted to send my niece home but.. got ppl going with her.. Then boh bian lorz...~

K la.. me go sleep le~ I really cannot tahan anymore.. Nights guys! ^.^

ShoPP!nG~ !!

2005-06-03T22:26:00.000+08:00

Today woke up at 9am.. I was late for my 2 hour lecture which starts at 8am! -.-" I decide to skip it.. =X Then at 1pm also got another lab.. And I skip it too~ =P Aiya~ 1st week nothing much to do one.. So should be fine i guess~ =)

So Jianqiang called me.. And guess what? He skipped his classes too! Haha~ And so we decide to go swimming. ^.^ I had a heavy lunch before leaving.. because we would be tanning first before swimming~ So i guess its alright~ =) Song man.. Initially there is a some drizzle but after 20 minutes++.. the sun got alot stronger! Song man! We had a good tan. =) And we swim for awhile before leaving.

Jianqiang cycled my bike home to change his clothes.. And I went home to change mine. At home, my mum brought home a packet of "guo tiao" and "yong tong hu". I eat until so full~ YuMmY! ^.^ Then we meet up and set off together to town. He is off to work while i meet up with Andrea, Ah hao and 1 freshie~ Today........ I reluctantly spent $7.40 on a thai restaurant. Its at Far East. The price damn ex man.. Serving soooo little... The taste is SO-SO only~ So in conclusion, don go there eat. =) *This is my personal opinion* Today I bought 1 Quiksilver slipper and 1 Fabrick polo tee. And the best thing is... Both item is not on sale~ -.-* This is Singapore Great Sale and i buy things without sale!! Muaha~ LAme... -.-"

And now, I'm home! =) Going to shower soon and eat my dinner CuM Supper~ Tomorrow morning 7am+ gotta help Mummy tend stall then meet our gang and Yuqing's gang at 10am to Sentosa. =) At night still got clubbing at ChinaBlack with my NieCe GiRL GirL... -.-" K la.. Me go do my stuff le. Nights guys! -.-zzZ

**ShoPp!nG I+eMs*

TrUAnCY!

2005-06-03T01:40:00.000+08:00

Haha.. Today didnt went sch~ Heng ar! Ivan msged me saying that the practical session was cancelled. This left me with only 2 tutorials. And tutorials in 1st week are not important as they only start on 2nd week! MuahaHa! So I'm correct bout playing TruaNcY~ =P

I woke up at 9am+.. Slept only 7 hours.. Sian! But i didnt went back to sleep. I dont like to sleep once i wake up.. because sometime overslept will give me headache~ =) The 1st thing i do is... DOTA. Lolx! But play until halfway then the program hanged. Lolx! This is the 1st time such error occur.

Then i went to meet Pingkwai for swimming at 11am+. We went Yishun Safra to swim. Today didnt really swim much.. We went there with 1 main purpose.. Its to get TANNED! ^.^ Song man.. The whole session is just like having a sauna..(Although i never had 1 before~ =P) Before we left, we did a few laps. Pingkwai commented that my swimming got alot better! MuAHaH! My Butt also didn float on the water while doing breast stroke liao.. YeaH! =)

After the swim, we went Northpoint foodcourt to eat. I had vegetarian meal(Cheap) and a Roti Boy. ^.^ Then we went to John Little to get my singlet. This is the 1st time i get myself a (S)mall size shirt! Haha.. And it still fits me.. -.-"

At around 3pm+, we parted there. And i went to Queenstown to meet Daniel and JAne to play DOTA again.. Lolx! I also got to know a new friend, Keith. After only 2 game, i wanted to leave because later playing badminton. And they also left with me. We went to eat first. I had Char Siew Rice*Added Rice*. Haha~ And they send me off to station. ^.^

Back at Yishun, i rushed home and get myself ready to meet the rest. But! I was late.. Sian man. The moment i got home, my mum ask me to go down to get something for her. Lolx.. Bryce waited quite long then i think he got pissed and went off. I was also surprised that the rest are so late! In the end, only me and mingyuan played. We borrow the net from bryce and its with me now. Lolx! I actually wanted to join SP Badminton club.. But~ Haha.. I think i'm not pro enough to get in.. Today i got draw with mingyuan. 3-3. Lolx! Although its only 2 of us... but we really had some great time. And i learnt alot~ ^.^ And this is also my first time replying to almost all of Mingyuan's Smack. Lolx! Hmm.. I'm still considering whether to go for their trial anot~ Haha.. But before that, i hope I can get to play a game with Swee Ling first~ Then can ask her to judge my standard. ^.^

After the game, we chatted awhile. Its already 10pm+ and only then.. Yiyuan came below my blk and saw us there. Lame man.. We talk on physical training and stuff.. Heh.. Hope i can grow fatter den can train more. =P

K la.. I just had my supper... Now going to sleep le. Tml morning class at 9am. Maybe i late awhile.(No attendance i think). Nights guys!

**Photos taken after badminton game.(I'm wearing my newly bought singlet ^.^)**

F!naLLY BaCK!

2005-06-02T00:46:00.000+08:00

Finally.. I'm back here~ Haha!

Haha~ I also dont really know what to say... This blog.. brings me back alot of memories~ Its how she and me started... Lolx~ And also what we been through. Be it sad or happy moments..~

K la.. I've sort of renovated it alittle~ Did it looks nicer? Haha~ I'm not good with such boggy things but i'm contented with what i've got. =)

Today i was abit late due to last night's late sleep. During the 2 hours break, Daniel and me went to have lunch(Ba Chor Mee*Added Mee*) and play pool at Clementi. Today super Ex Ar! $_$ We play 1 hour+ only and it cost us $10.. =.=" During the pool game, i won a few rounds.. Lolx! Haha. He told me that i've improved. Haha!!! =P *MuSt BE HumBLe*

And we head right back to school for tutorial. Sian man! The lecturer spend on 5-10 minutes telling us his particulars and we can leave le.. Lolx! In this class, i got to know a new friend, Ivan. =) He's cool! This guy used to be Dance & Cheer Team captain.. Haha! And the best thing is he does Gym too.. THink i found a gym partner in class liao! YeaH! =D

After the class, we went to Queenstown to play lan games. And the game is DOTA! Haha! Daniel call his friend down.. and it turns out to be a girl! Haha! She's Jane. Her skill not bad leh.. Then after DOTA game, we went to eat Chicken Rice. While we were eating, we started to chat. Haha~ 1st time got girl say me better looking then other guys. Lolx! She say that the other guy is quite cool and is those "Sunset Bay" boys.. Lolx! But she say I look better!! Haha!! Really 1st time sia.. Lolx~ She say "He also same like u... Stylo Stylo 1.. But u look better~ Haha!" Don't know why i feel alittle joy in me.. MAybe because ppl like me dont get to hear this often? Haha! Then we went her house to play 3-person mahjong. The mahjong set was cute man.. The tiles is only alittle bigger than my thumb! Small sia~ Haha.. We didnt gamble because of me.. Lolx! But i learnt alot... They taught me the rules and score counting method for mahjong. Learnt alot. At our game, i won the most! Haha! (Maybe thats beginner's luck) And also while we were playing... Jane serve us with Sake wine! Lolx.. I drink until feel like sleeping.. Or maybe its because the game got too boring?? Lolx!

At 6pm, i left for home. Today actually intend to sleep early. But i delayed it.. So now then i can get to sleep. LolX! I was thinking.. that its not nice to use that combined blog anymore. So I quickly renovate this blog and move back here. ^.^ K la.. me go sleep le~ Tomorrow is gonna be my first time playing truancy. Its 2 tutorial and 1 lab. I dont think the lecturers will teach anything lor~ =) So i'm not going.. Somemore the class starts at 8am and ends at 3pm! I dont want to go there and get Lecturer's contact number only~ Haha.. Nights guys! ^.-

FeeLing Low. But..!!

2004-12-27T23:52:00.000+08:00

Very sick.. (Sore throat in very bad condition)
Tutorials not completed yet..
Insufficient sleeping hours..
But..

I want to blog. At 9.30pm, i just had my dinner and went back to my room.(Mingyuan still playing gunbound on my computer) So i went to watch tv. So happen that when i switch to channel 61( Celestial Movies channel) There was a great japanese movie showing down there. Wow! The movie is about the love story between two photographers..
The title is.. Collage Of Our Life 恋爱写真 .

There is really cool camera angle view of the movie..
Really nice photos shown in the movie..
Very touching love story..
Pretty good selection of actors..
And.. Its just good. ^.^

I bet you guys surely get surprise at various parts of the movie.. The story is really interesting. Shall not talk too much then.. watch it for yourself. ^.o I was inspired by the movie.. alot alot~ Thank god.. for letting me watch such a movie..(I know this sound stupid) but i find myself really lucky to be able to watch it. My passion for photography is now stronger than ever! At times when i'm down or bored~ I feel like grabbing my camera and walk down the streets which i walk past almost everyday and start shooting around.

The environment..
people..
cats and dogs..
plants..
road..
place..
and alot alot more..

I just feel like doing that.. but not determine enough to.. This time around, i will make sure i do that if i feel like doing it. ^.o The love story too.. has taught me something~ But i dunnoe how to explain. I still remember 1 part.. where the girl say: "Thanks for believing in me.. all these while." This is really touching.. I know u people surely say that:" Aiya~ Come on la.. Jasper~ This type of conversation very common 1 leh.. All love story also like dat 1 mah.." Like i said... wait till u guys watch it.. then u will know what i mean. And something about this show.. "Its very real." Thats all about this movie i wan to say on. I going off to bed soon. But will have a chat with my Baobei first~ *Please let everything go smoothly..* Haha.. Will blog again when i feel it. Won't be too long from now.. i believe. Bye guys~ Jaa ne! ^.o

To Baobei:

These few weeks.. i know everything has been a struggle. BUT i believe.. if the bond between us is strong. Obstacles will be overcome eventually.. I believe.. really believe that true love still exists.. among us. ^.0 Sorry for taking more than 10 min to blog ar~ And thanks... for everything~ *MuackS & HugS* ^.^

*M!5s U.. alot!*

Reaching Limit...

2004-12-20T22:37:00.000+08:00

1st time... I got tired~ Keeping everything inside me. All to myself and no one else...

It has been sometime since i blog. Was kinda busy with alot of stuff.. (Forgot wad things le.. but was really busy)

Actually i came here with only 1 purpose. To pass some message to U.

By now.. i have cooled down, totally cooled down. And.. Hehe~ I forgot what made me lose my cool le.(Reaching my limit..) Anyway, can someone tell me what to do? Just go read her blog and u guys will know. There is 2 things i like to say.

1st. I dont wish to explain myself further. I truly believe that you really know me inside out..

2nd. "so decided 2 meet him 4 dinner at cwp",
"den we bot e same specs..planned 2 wear e same specs down 2 club 2dae..kekex..",
"heex..he oto like it alot..so he bot it too..so means we both hav 1 each.."

*There were 2 different guy mentioned above*

All the "He(s), Him(s) and We(s) isn't me at all.. Guess she's having fun with other guys? Haha.. even sometimes i dont get this kind of happiness that she give to other ppl.. ^.^; I dont understand whats really wrong.. You keep saying i accompany my friends.. Thats what i feel like right.. Its mainly sports lor..(You should know i'm quite active in such areas..) And those were times when u can't accompany me to do sports. And at least they were all guys.. I dont hang out with girls..ever since we were together.. Never Once. Its not like i'm not happy that you go out with other ppl.. I'm quite glad that you took the 1st step to hang out with your friends.. I can't be with you all the time right..? But its... 1 on 1 with a guy? or with 2 guys..? HAiz.. Maybe i should let you experience it once.. and you will know how i really felt.. =')

Things has been weird since sometime back.. I really want to know what went wrong.. but you just keep saying "Then?" if not, you just dont bother to say it. Haiz~

Thats all.. i guess.. I know U will be coming to read my blog~ Only through here.. you will read till the end.. Unlike phone chats and in reality, you hanged up on me... or just keep walking away at fast pace.. Leaving me all alone. Sometimes.. aren't you glad that its not the other way round? You chasing me from behind.. phone getting hanged up by me.. You will surely say "Ni she de?" meaning "You bear to..?" Hmm... You know i won't... ^.^ Going off! Jaa ne to all readerS~ ^.0

*M!5s M!5s... U*

TirEd BUT Hon3Y!

2004-11-26T02:50:00.000+08:00

Add on for TUESDAY BLOG! : On that day we watch the movie "Shutter" right.. Baobei was so scared that she said "Baobei.. faster hug me" Then i use 1 arm to hug her.. And she replied" Can use 2 hands to hug me anot?" Then i was.. Er.. Haha.. and i faster hug her with my 2 arms.. ^.^ Felt nice.. not really because of hugging her la~!! I also dunnoe how to say.. Haha~ =P

I'm very tired now.. so will keep the blog as short as possible~ I was woken up by my mum's phone call~ She requested me to go down and help to look after 1 of the stalls as 1 of her helper wasn't able to work that few days.. And i had to go down.. so this means i have to delay the meeting with baobei to a few hours later.. No choice 1 lor.. Then i met Baobei after my work.. I was late due to the working there. Actually she misinterpret my language when she called me.. I was telling her that i'm searching for plain water.. She heard it as I'm drinking water.. Where got drink so slow one lor~ Then she got pissed off when i met her at Mrt station. I was whacked badly all the way.. Haha~ But things cooled down when reaching my house.. ^.^ Then she watch Naruto and i join her watchin after awhile.. (Actually i'm partially at fault.. I was having my lunch after helping out at the busy hour.. Then i was hesitating how to tell my mum that i need to leave.. and that causes delays 5-10 min more~ Sorry baobei.. Dont angry already k.. ^.^ )

As the time pass by, its already almost time to get out of the house..(5pm+) And i ate some stuff before leaving.. Because its already late.. Baobei suggest to take cab.. -.-" No choice lo.. Then we meet her friend and head to NUS by bus. When we reach there, the person in charge says that it start at 7pm! Sian.. and the ticket says 6pm. Waste $$ taking cab.. -.-" Judging from primary school standard.. the performance was considered good. =) Finally theres a time interval~ It was 40 min long! So long.. and baobei and me was already hungry.. So we decide to skip the 2nd half of the concert and have our dinner outside. =)

After having dinner, we went to Cck .. intended to take neoprint.. but the shop was closed.. Too late le~ No choice lo.. have to take it on saturday =) Then i send her to her block.. It has been sometime since i walk her to her block.. Feels good. ^.^ On the way back to her house, we had new names for each other.. For baobei -> "Jasper de xin fu" and for me -> "Iris de xin fu". Haha.. I know it sounds stupid to some.. but its feels honey ok.. =P And that baka accompany me home through the phone chatting with me.. ^.^ K la.. now super late le.. Go sleep liao.. Ciaoz guyZ! *M!5s Ba0BeI* *MuackS & HugS*

Inner thoughts: Had quite a fun today.. because of her presence.. ^.^ Actually today had a small jealousy with her friend.. but i guess its alright now.. =) The faith in her has grown in me. ^.o K la.. going to sleep~ Tomorrow is going to be a super tough day for me.. Wish me the best! Jak!

TiRing DaY!

2004-11-25T01:49:00.000+08:00

Today woke up late again~ The moment i wake up, i checked the results~ Sian.. got 1 C.. for general elective: "Negotiation". The rest get B and 1 A nia~ Haha.. Heng didn fail any module.. If not die ar~ I really didnt study lor.. Haiz.. regret~ The coming semester must jiayou! ^.o After checking results, then i went to sch for the leadership cruise thingy~ Sian.. super late lor.. Aiya.. heck care liao.. This briefing cannot skip 1.. When i reached, they having tea break.. Hengz~ ^.^ Then after taking my attendance, i went in to search for an empty seat~ And it happens to be beside Mei An. ^.^" I only realize its a workshop when i reached there. Its about dining and social etiquette.. but i missed the social 1.. Sian lor.. eat also so mafan.. Spoil my appetite only~ Haha.. And also we already get to know our cabin mates.. But i dunnoe anyone of them at all~ Haha.. Heck care~ Boat reaches the bridge head auto straight 1..

After workshop, went to have lunch~ After that, went to join Irene they all to do the CCGC stuff.. Actually have to bring my sis to go dentist checkup one.. but i tink too late le..(In the end my maid brought her~ =D) Haiz.. In the midst of the CCGC thingy, i went to meet my ITP officer.. We chat alot on photography stuff.. HAha~ He actually became my liason officer because i'm attached to a photography company~ Lolx.. Chatted for an hour then i went back to join Kangming and guys at CCGC. Just as we were about to leave.. Baobei called.. Felt so nice when saw her no. appearing at my phone.. but.. she called to scold me why so slow never reply her... (I dont know wad to reply mah..) Then i wanted to do something but she dont wana hang up~ Haha.. its my fault in the behinning i guess.. so no choice~ I keep asking if i can go back later.. requesting her to hang up first.. after numerous attempts.. she somehow got pissed off~ I also forgot what i say le~ *Blur* Then she hang up.. Sian -.-" I tried calling her using different handphone borrowed from my clubmates, but she didnt pick up~ -.-" Haiz.. then no choice~ Go home then try again..

Upon reaching Yishun, i went to the saloon.. Actually suppose to make appointment, but i called several times and no 1 answer.. Thought they might be busy, so i went over to check. Surprising.. they didnt open the saloon today. -.-" After that i saw guofeng and sunyi playing basketball.. so i went to join them~ I played like newbie lor.. got thrashed.. hands were trembling.. got faked by a girl.. aiya~ very jialat.. I was too nervous i guess.. Then i played 1 on 1 with a new friend.. and got thrashed.. haha~ Really must go do some training liao.. ^.o Actually when playing basketball, i'm suppose to go home and do praying(Burn incense) But i didnt.. i have not ignore this duty of mine for a very long time.. but i did that today.. Haiz. dont feel gd.. maybe thats 1 of the reason i didn perform ba~ Then after the game, i went home straight~ K la.. just now made up with baobei le~ ^.^ Now going to sleep liao.. *Ciaoz Guyz!* *M!5s Ba0BeI* *MuackS*

Inner thoughts: My results were quite poor.. but at least i passed~ Haha.. its really tough to study on my own.. as i skip lectures and was super late for alot of lectures~ In the next sem, i PROMISE that this will not happen again. ^.o I really did think of baobei lor.. Just that i didn't really know what to reply to her~ And everytime she called me.. i was really typing the sms halfway.. then she interrupted with her call~ I dont lie 1 lor.. *Miss Baobei*.. JaK!

HoneY DaY

2004-11-24T01:47:00.000+08:00

Today was soooooo honey~ =) At first, in the morning.. planned to meet Baobei early at 9am.. because she has to reach home by 5.30pm~ But.. i can't manage to wake up.(Last night blog till very late~) So we decide to meet later.. But still i'm alittle late~ Hehz..

We went to golden village to buy tix for "Shutter" first.. then went on to safra to swimming~ ^.^ 1st time see her in swimming suit~ Alittle.. cute? Haha~ I remember her telling me that she's was so shy that she didnt even want to come out of the toilet~ Lolx.. Then i have to apply tanning oil for her~ She la.. BaKa~ Want me to apply.. ^.^ After that we swam for few laps.. and went for jacuzzi~ Every moment was fun lo~ =) I still remember.. we actually wanted to have a race.. halfway through..she stopped.. (her goggles has some problem) Then i was already at the middle of the pool.. Unknowingly.. i floated!! I floated with ease.. unlike the past me.. struggling to float~^.^" Then i went over to help her~ After that, i tried to float again.. but wasn't as easy as the previous floating.. After that, when i swimming with her~ I didnt want her to throw face.. because my ass keep sticking out of the water when i do frog style~ So.. i tried my best to change.. and.. i did it~ =) But once in awhile, it will still come out of the water la..~ ^.^" Just before we go off, my nose start bleeding.. also dont know why.. maybe too heaty ba..(Took too much heaty foodstuff lately~) or maybe.. because of the girls there? Haha.. joking.. JOKING ONLY!! Later baobei surely scold me again~ =) But she know i'm not that kind of person.. ^.^

After swimming, we went to have lunch first then watch movie. The moment we reach cinema~ We face some problem.. some kids were sitting on our seats.. i actually tried to talk baobei to take other sitting on the same row.. The situation got worse when the kids denied sitting the wrong place.. Then baobei got alittle pissed off.. haha~ i understand how she feels.. So didnt really stop her.. When we got into our seats.. i tried to cool her down.. haha~ luckily she did cool down before the show.. Then i got my windbreaker for her.. (I got prepare 1 hor.. Dun pray pray~ =P) The movie "Shutter".. quite nice~ Didnt gave sufficient time for people to recover from shock, another frightening scene comes up immediately. After the movie, have to send her home already.. its reaching 5.30pm~ Sian... can send her to her station only.. can't accompany her all the way to her block.. Not nice to be seen by her parents.. For now la.. =) I believe.. when things get really settled down.. heh heh.. then i can go her house have dinner liao.. =P(Its not because of food ar!! Its because.. aiya~ Tell u all so much for wad.. wtf~ =P)

Then i went straight home.. And i started to play a new game. "Maple Story". Not bad la.. Then now.. going to sleep soon~ Ciaoz Guys! *M!5s Ba0BeI* *MUACKS & HUGS* ^.o

Inner thoughts: Today's really a great day.. like wad she said.. first time go swimming and first time watchin horror movie since we are together.. Its soooo "Honey". But still.. i got admit.. i got alittle jealous.. i saw you and hanqi photo in your handphone.. then qingshan called u.. haha~ BaKa me.. Haiz~ K la.. Jak!

She's back in my arms..

2004-11-23T03:36:00.000+08:00

Woke up late again.. last night 4.30am then fell asleep~ I was chatting with Baobei on the phone.. or maybe chatting with a sleeping Baobei.. Haha~ She was listening to me talking about her blog.. then i think somehow she fell asleep~ I guess she's really dead tired by then.. But all since the beginning of the chat, she was just keeping quiet and listening to me~ Soon.. I knew she was asleep.. Then i still go on.. After sometime, i tried waking her up.. but to no avail~ Then.. i guess i was tired too.. and soon i started to say nonsense? I just blurted everything out.. haha~ Just like a drunkard ba.. (Wasn't in a very conscious state) I think.. my tears started to flow down my cheeks.. to my chin.. and drip away~ I wasn't very sure of what i was saying.. guess it must be something sad or what..? I kept on believing that she's listening.. or she will wake up somehow.. To listen to me.. Haha~ It was until 4.30am then i couldnt go on... the moment the phone was off. I fell asleep almost instantly.. with tears in my eyes~ Haha.. i guess that wasn't me.. Rarely my tears will appear.. Haha~

This morning, she came my house.. and bought the cheese bread i have been yearning for~(Only can be bought at a bakery near her house). HEh.. Thanks Baobei~ I really appreciate it. ^.^ But then.. i only get to eat alittle leh.. you eat more than me lor.. -.-" Haha~ Anyway, that time I was still sleeping.. Actually have to go school early in the morning to accompany year1 for Apex.. But since kangming and irene going~ Then i might as well sleep awhile longer.. and also give them more time to be together mah.. =) I was slacking throughout the noon.. while baobei watch Naruto.. -.-"

It was until late noon then i set off to school with Baobei.. Luckily i was in time for everything.. To hand up my leadership cruise stuff and take photo for year 1!! Heh.. Lucky~ =P When we reach the apex training grounds.. Heh.. kang ming help us(me and baobei) take picture.. ^.^ So... sweet~ Finally we get to take photo together~! =) I was kind of excited.. ^.^ After that i accompany Baobei to marina square.. She's having dinner with her family.. So i went home straight after sending her there~ Alittle lonely.. but its alright.. cos its worth it~ ^.^ K la.. i go sleep le~ tomorrow is going to be a long and fun day.. i hope~ ^.^ Ciaoz Guyz! *M!5s Ba0BeI* *MuackS & HugS*

Inner thoughts: I read through your blogs over and over again~ But i did not felt any better.. Sometimes i'm in alittle confused state.. Haha~ Thats BaKA.. i know~ Haiz.. But 1 thing is for sure.. The feeling.. for U.. was growing stronger all the while.. hasn't decrease.. not even a single bit since the very very very beginning.. ^.o Jak!

*Pictures of us!* *BaoBeis*

"Finally! Our 1st time taking photo together.. (By someone else.. Because everytime is i take one mah..) "

*Picture of Us!* *BaoBeis*

"After sometime.. only then she overcome her shyness and hug my arm to take photo.. ^.^ Haha~ See my face.. ^.^ Can you see the word "Song / Shiok" !?!? =P"

She's back! ^.^

2004-11-22T01:45:00.000+08:00

Woke up late again... Last night edit blog till 3.30am again~ =D The moment i wake up, i start wondering when will Baobei break camp.. Hmm.. Finally she called! Then i went to get already to set off. But.. something force me to hesitate.. My guitar lesson starts at 3pm.. and i'm meeting her at 2pm plus.. I wouldnt be able to make it for the lesson if i'm meeting her.. Heck care la.. 1st time i'm going to skip lesson~ Heh.. Then after that.. Its her blog.. I wonder if she will get angry if i put up our pic in her profile.. Then just before i left.. Heck care liao~ When she scold me then see how lor.. =P But the problem is.. there is some network problem~ I struggled for some time but to no avail~ I know i'm already late.. so no choice~ Have to get out of the house le.. When i reach station, immediately i rush off to get a packet of apple juice for baobei later..(Serve as rejuvenation purpose~ ^.^) Dont think that she had anything healthy during the 4 days 3 night camp.. O.o Sian.. because of the apple juice, i can't get on the train in time.. so have to wait for the next train.. which was 7 min. -.-"

When i reach woodlands.. finally~ I saw her.. ^.^ The feeling was so... nice~ "Even without saying anything.. even without doing anything~" She come in and join me and we went back to Yishun together.. because her sister there or what.. -.-" At Yishun, we went to McDonalds to have her lunch.. She was filling me in with what she was doing the past few days.. Haha~ Her mouth just went non stop.. All i did was... stare blankly at her~ Of course i'm listening at the same time la.. =) After she finished her meal.. i actually ask her to wait for me at Cd-hut.. I'm going for my guitar lesson for awhile~ But she doesnt want to.. I guess she was really tired.. So i sent her back to her station.. She didnt want me to walk her home.. Saying that she wouldn't bear to let me go off if i had walk her home.. Then fine lo.. i let her decide. ^.^

And i head straight back to catch up with my guitar lesson.. After lesson, jianqiang and i decide to quit soon.. Got few reasons.. Heh heh.. thats between us only.. =P Then we chat about anime and stuff then started playing cs.. I have not touch Counterstrike for about 2 years? Haha.. But dont know why still so good~ =P Really.. you dont believe.. you guys can ask jianqiang. ^.^ But my skills drop alot liao.. But heck care.. not much time for such things already.. After playing for sometime, i went off to take passport size photo.. -.-"

Luckily the shop wasn't close.. Actually i intended to cut hair before taking photo 1.. but baobei and jianqiang suggested that i do not cut.. -.-" When i reach the shop, the uncle told me today was suppose to be ½ day.. but he has something to settle, thats why close shop so late. Hengz.. ^.^" So he lent me a comb to tidy my hair.. =) While waiting for the photo to develop, i tok cock with him.. We were chatting on my smile. He told me that i can try practicing it infront of the mirror everyday.. Haha~ Then he also said that those air hostess are doing that also.. Lolx.. I know its true la.. just find it alittle funny.. WAhaHA~! Standing infront of mirror and smile to yourself.. MuwAHAaha~! OOopzz~ =X Then.. the photo turn out sucky as usual. After that i went back to jianqiang's block to get back my stuff. These stuff are my belongings.. just returned to me by baobei after her camp~ 1 of the belonging is the basketball shorts..(She didnt wear it.. as she didnt shower the last night..-.-") We bought the similar 1 together then she say tml wear.. So... i had to get it back from jianqiang's house no matter wad le.. -.-"

Finally finish blogging le~ Dont know why.. but today's bloggin seems hard to write.. Maybe because she's back? Heh.. no need to write report for her le.. =P Going to sleep soon.. tomorrow still go apex with year 1s.. Ciaoz Guyz! *M!5s Ba0BeI* *Muacks*

Inner thoughts: Felt really nice to see you and glad that you appreciate what i have done for you blog and all.. ^.^ But.. still some sad things happen to me~ You might not have notice it.. haha~ Remember the guy you say he's your ex? I didnt even get to see him.. Sian.. make me think of the past.. Then your thigh there.. they draw on your thigh.. Also sian.. but still can't do anything~ Next time i go and draw something on a girl's thigh also.. see how it goes.. -.-" K la.. shall end here~ Jak!

G o 0 d | e S

2004-11-21T03:27:00.000+08:00

Today woke up late.. Due to last night's sleeping at 4am. Once i woke up, immediately start to prepare to set off to orchard.(Meeting Mentor) Luckily i wasn't late today.. Hehz.. I went off with him to Bugis Junction to check out some dvd player and amplifier stuff.. We found out that 5.1 speaker can't work without an amplifier.. Sian~ My mentor was cheated.. Haha~ Past few days, he bought a 5.1 speaker system at $300.(He was still saying that it was very cheap) Upon reaching home, he realised that there is no amplifier provided.. And now, i made a call to the retail office and found out that its really not given together with the speaker system.. and now he had to spent another $300 for the amplifier.. Lolx..

After that i left for Choa chu kang. I was suppose to help out a Resident committee there..(Kangming's lobang) Since i know the guys there, so just go down and help out lo... =) And i was surprised that they are holding some big event there. They told me that its Resident's day.. Lolx~ Kk.. Then we were packing alot of stuff.. As night falls, we went to have Mac for dinner.. (Pei Jiang's treat!) All of us ordered the 2 piece fillet fish burger.. And mine was 3 pieces! Haha~ Since Cabby was contented with 1 piece, so she gave me the other one and makes mine a 3 piece fillet fish burger! Haha~ Eat until song.. Then i had caramel sundae and milo.. Wah sian.. super heaty foodstuff~ After that, we went back to our stall.. Then kangming and I was approached to be the mascot of the event.. -.-" We are suppose to be mosquito and get on the stage. Haha.. On the stage, we had to beez around and disturb the MPs.. -.-" Then we have to lie on the floor to pretend dead after they burst the balloons held be me. -.-" Whats worse.. Our face are exposed as the mascot doesnt gives us a mask.. -.-" Next time no face to walk around Choachukang again.. -.-"

Towards the end of the event, plenty of goodies were left and its distributed evenly among all of us.. I had a hard time carrying back them man.. Especially when i had to bring the bike home too.. Initially wanted to call for cab.. but~ in order to save cost, i bear all the burden and endure all the way till home.. Once i reach home, my parents were delighted at the sight of those goodies.. Haha~ Good stuff leh.. got 5 umbrellas, 1 big box of soy sauce etc.. And soon.. i went to my com and edit my blog.. Had a hard time handling those html stuff man.. -.-"

Its super late liao.. And tomorrow i'm going to fetch Baobei.. Yayyyyyyyyy! ^.^ Then still have to take passport size photo for cruise and sentosa islander card.. Then still got guitar at noon.. Hope everything goes well later.. Go sleep le *Ciaoz GuyZ!* *M!5s Ba0BeI* *MuackS & HuggieS*

Inner thoughts: Have been thinking of her whenever i'm free.. Sometimes.. even at busy times, she will still come across my mine.. Somehow..~ ^.^ Still miss her alot~ Jak!

好想你

2004-11-20T19:47:00.000+08:00

Its raining cats and dogs tonight.. I can imagine that you will msg me and ask me to take care and dont get cold.. I have been looking at my handphone at times.. hoping that miracles might happen again~ Hoping that your msg will appear at my phone.. ^.^

The whole day.. have been thinking of Baobei~ ^.^ Woke up late this morning.. At noon when i just woke up, i saw the name "Baobei" appearing on my phone. She called me! Haha.. i didn realize that they are allow to use phone during their meal hours.. Song lor.. Finally get to hear her voice.. know that she's safe..(I know its lame.. -.-") Thats how i felt..

But... sad to hear that she was injured again! O.o Haiz.. not i want to say ar~ Why the club didn take safety precautions one.. Let my baobei get injured.. ArgH~ Play can la.. but safety comes 1st mah.. >.<* Damn buai song lor.. Haiz.. But also can do nothing.. Can only hope that she wont get injured further for the next two days.. God.. please watch over her~(I know god is also looking after everyone single one of us.. Just feel like saying it.. ^.^")After the chat, went to watch certain Naruto episodes again.. Basically.. have been slacking till evening.

When i was about to go down and play bball.. Suddenly! I saw a new message recieved on my handphone.. Its from her! ^.^ I was so suprised.. and.. happy to see her message.. It says "had ur dinner? heex.." Haha.. I'm also not very sure of how i felt then.. if i were to put down in words.. there is only 1 word to use.. "sweet". Heez.. And i went to play basketball.. even brought my handphone with me.. so can chat with her longer~ In the midst of my game, i suddenly request half time.. because i sense that its about time baobei going to return her phone to her senior to keep le.. she did told me about the time when sh'e's returning the phone la.. Haha.. i got scolded by pingkwai for putting the game on hold for too long.. Heh.. -.-"

After the games.. on our way home, we saw two small black kittens curling over each other.. And at that time, the rain has already started.. So pingkwai and i decided to call SPCA. I digged out all the girls phone no. and call them up to ask for SPCA number..(I dont think guys will care bout such things 1 lor) But then again.. i may be wrong.. because of all the girl i called.. none has it. So in the end.. 1 of them told me to call 100 and ask.. I was asking pingkwai to call then.. because i has been doing the calling all the while.. (Expensive leh!) And now.. the sad part begins.. Both kittens went near the lift.. and i worried that they might get stuck inside.. so i went to close the door. At the same time, i use my legs to block them from entering the lift. Guess wad!!! Just as the door was about to close, both of them were so excited and wanted to get in.. I manage to block out 1.. and the other got 1 leg stucked just before the door close! And the kitten was crying in pain.. I immediately press the door open button.. The kitten can't even move.. This is the first time i heard a kitten crying.. ="( Pingkwai went to massage it alittle and soon it start limping around.. I feel so sad.. Really sad.. I love animals alot 1 leh.. Haiz.. And so i continue trying to get to SPCA and finally i got through. I told the person about the two kittens condition and they said we had to keep it till tomorrow morning before they come to fetch it. So happen that my basketball friends(from China) walked past.. I was thinking that they usually share the house with friends so i guess if they are willing to help.. shouldnt be a problem.. unlike us(Have to get parent's permission) Luckily they agreed to help out. And i gave the person their contact no. Before hanging up the phone, my conscience is acting very strongly. I pick up courage and told the person that its my fault because things wouldn happen if i didn go and close the lift's door. The person say its alright.. at least i manage to save 1 kitten from going in..(But i felt that he didnt quite get what i mean) Haiz.. why!! Sad man.. but at least tomorrow they will be sent to SPCA. By the way, he was saying the injured kitten may be put to sleep if the injuries is too serious. Sian.. but i think it shouldn be a problem since the kitten can move around and there is no bleeding..(Only that its limping).

When i reach home, went to shower then eat.. and watch tv..(keep browsing through all the channels) Now updating blog.. and i went to do some editing to my blog(Add photo and music) and her blog too.. Hehz.. Hope it will suprise Baobei with this.. =P K la.. Sleepin soon.. CiaoZ Guys! *M!5s Ba0BeI* *MuackS*

Inner thoughts: Yesterday night.. just before i sleep~ Went Baobei's blog and read up on her first few postings.. Those were about when she got attached, broke up, crush on another guy etc.. Haha.. feel very xin ku again~ Then i saw my name inside too.. I also dont really know how she's thinking of me at that time.. Haha~ Haiz.. Shall stop here. I really miss her alot~ Jak!

She's mine!!! *Ba0BeI*

L o n 3 | ! n e s S

2004-11-19T18:00:00.000+08:00

I was late today.. to meet Baobei at her train station.. (Overslept) Sian.. then she alittle pissed off~ -.-" The moment i wake up, i went to brush my teeth and i pack the stuff she need.. then rush out of the house le~(Less than 15 min from the moment i wake up). Fast rite... ^.^ But still she has already left for sch.. Before heading to meet her, i went to get strepsils for her and stuff it inside the sleeping bag..(She mention that she wanted to get it but i wonder if she remember to buy them..)

Wonder if that BaKa will be surprise..
Wonder if she will be able to find it..
Wonder if she will lose it before she get to see it..
Wonder.... if she feel sweet and touched..? =P
*Haha~ Tink too much.. only 1 small packet of strepsils..* ^.^"

The moment i reached school, her briefing is about to start.. When she saw my arrival, she rush over and grab the stuff and went back to her sit le..

Didnt even get to say.. "Take care" and she didn say anything to me either..
Didnt even get to hug her one last time.. Tightly~
Didnt even get to... give her a kiss..
*Haha~ Who ask me to be late.. SianZ.. Shouldn have slept late last night!* -.-"

After that.. went to IMM to help Jianqiang check out his part time thingy.. Sian~ All alone.. Also can't blame la.. Initially agreed with jianqiang to meet up in Yishun at noon and go together.. Since i was already at JE.. and i'm lazy to go back yishun and come this far again~ So i went first.. Sian.. all alone~ Was keep thinking of baobei.. if she was here with me.. She..

will lame with me..
will listen to my cold jokes.. and laugh..
will wipe my sweat for me.. and throw back the used tissue to me.. (Lolx.. -.-")
will... take away my loneliness and fill it with.... herself..

Haiz.. and so i went there and wait for jianqiang's arrival~ Waited for almost 2 hours.. Sian~ I walked almost whole of IMM and ended up standing outside a Vcd shop watchin "Last bet". After checking out his part time stuff, we went to do shopping at giant supermarket. Bought alot of tidbits.. Lolx.. Damn shiok.. After that went home.. and rot till evening.. Went to play basketball. Actually going down alone.. can't contact jianqiang and pingkwai.. until the very last minute then manage to contact both of them.. Lolx.. We met one big size guy.. sian~ He's not bad.. and i only won him 1 game out of 3.. -.-" Too long didn play bball le.. after i sprain my leg. I still remember that the thought of her came across my mine.. and theres really sudden burst of energy.. for that moment.. Lolx.. ^.^ Anyway.. lose still means lose~ Lolx.. I also got injured on the face.. its a scratch by my fingernails i tink.. He was whacking the ball when its on my hand.. the fingernail got sandwich between the ball and my face.. sian-.-" The scratch quite long.. den very red.. more sian.. haha~ I also disappointed her.. didn manage to take care of myself on the 1st day le~ Apologise first.. "Sorry Baobei" =P So sian lor.. my hands were trembling after the matches.. Today played 3 "2 on 2" matches and 6 "1 on 1 matches" Haha.. Didn exercise for too long le~ Haha.. time to buck up ^.0 Then now i'm bloggin.. super tired.. Guess i'll go sleep le.. Has been thinking of her almost every moment.. People used to say "thinking of her EVERY MOMENT" I tink they talk cock one lor.. where can every moment one.. i dont believe.. i dont believe they did not stop thinking of her for even 1 second.. Haiz.. k la.. go sleeping soon. *CiaoZ guyz!* *M!5s Ba0BeI AloT* *MuackS + HuggieS*

Inner thoughts: Haiz.. today at IMM, we went pass the magazine section.. We saw Teens magazine again.. I was asking if Jianqiang know about Baobei and her Ex's neoprint in the magazine.. He told me that Yiyuan and Mingyuan has told him about it. Haha.. its like everyone knew about it le.. that.... Their picture is up in Teens..... Haha.... Heng xin ku.. =") Who knows... how i'm feeling? Haix.. Lolx.. k la~ Stop here le.. Nights! Jak! ^.0

S|-|AR!NG@N

2004-11-15T17:24:00.000+08:00

First of all! Let me explain my Title first.. Its the description for an eye which is red in colour and has the power to copy opponent skills and of course.. the eye has psychic powers too! =) Only those who watching the japanese anime "Naruto" MIGHT understand what am i toking.. if they SMART enought. =P

Today.. I was sleepin all the way from last night 3am till 12noon.. The moment i woke up, my eyes feel swollen.. and indeed its red! Sian.. painful and itchy lor~(As if i have Sharingan!!! Wahaha~=D) Then i apply some eyemo.. and i called Baobei.. and she was woken up by my call~ Lolx.. Anyway, she has to stay at home do housework etc.. So i just have to slack and rest at home till its time for work.. I was watching Naruto.. And i slow down my pace.. Due to the latest ending song.. the Mtv for the ending song was soooooo nice! The video has successfully bring out wad the song is trying to express.. Feels gd.. Was hoping Baobei was here to appreciate it with me.. =) And today my dad came home early..(probably because today's a public holiday) Luckily baobei not here, if not he's gonna get mad at me again.. LolX~ And i wasn't late for work today.. Actually i don't want to work.. my eyes were hurting.. and it affect my vision alot and also.. i had a hard time pulling myself away from watching Naruto.. Haha! But my mentor thought i'm not coming today.. he initially overheard me talking to my Spac2go clubmates over the phone.. saying monday's working at night etc.. hence crash with the meeting.. I actually said that my work is more important, therefore the meeting has to be postponed.. HAha~ Nvm la.. Luckily today shooting ends early.. the tamil concert is giving me alittle headache as i didn really know how to appreciate it..(Lately Deepavali.. alot tamil concert aR~) If its those more lively tamil song then i suppose its alright la~ But.. its those.. aiya.. very boring one.. thats why i listen till headache.. lolx! My mentor couldn take it too! HAha~ Before going home.. went to shop at NTUC and spent my last $20 voucher my dad gave me.. I bought alot of breakfast stuff.. such as baked beans,cereals,cheese,luncheon meat, mushrooms,instant noodle and most important of all MILK!! Haha.. and resulting myself to overspent by $8.. -.-" And now.. i'm home.. Just had my dinner.. My mum told me its alright to eat first.. I had curry and fried chicken. Actually not suppose to eat.. as i'm too heaty(Chinese term) not suppose to take anymore heaty stuff such as curry and fried food nor sleep late. Hehz.. will start taking care from now onwards. ^.0 K la.. I'm resting now and going to shower soon~ =) Btw, now theres a link to Baobei on my blog.. U guys surely go her blog see and Kpo 1 rite.. BakAs... Heez~ =P And!!! U asses(excluding girls) and read my blog already better TAG(write) something in my Tagboard Ar!!!
And for the pretty and generous ladies.. -.-" tag in my tagboard k? =P
Ciao guyz! *M!5s Ba0Bei*

Inner Me: Haiz.. I just gain a small enlightenment.. I came up with 1 logic. If its put into words.. "To remember someone.. try forgetting him/her" HAiz.. The photo Baobei took with her EX boyfriend.. keep flashing across my mind.. the whole day.. I found out something.. the pain.. didn reduce.. not even abit.. =( The more i try to forget.. the clearer the picture gets! >.< She and her Ex.. together and all those.. Haiz.. dunnoe~ And.. i feel that i'm inferior to him.. i dunnoe why.. even if i'm better than him in all areas.. when comes to Looks.. I lose...... i can't take it~ i dont understand why i'm feelin this way.. I didn want to compare.. but somehow.. i still did. -.- Haiz.. Since long ago.. i feel that my appearance wise.. sux to the CORE~ but luckily... thank god. There are still friends out there who appreciate me.. make friends with me. Aiya.. dunnoe wad the hell i'm toking.. Guess i'll end my inner thoughts here. Cya guyS! *M!5s Ba0Bei* *HugS & MuackS*

H u R T .....

2004-11-14T16:38:00.000+08:00

Back to blog.. I will be focusing on today only.. =) Went to meet Baobei once i woke up..(Last night i fell asleep on the floor without knowing it..) Then i was late.. for an hour? SiaN! Then she damn pissed off.. lolx~ I went to get apple juice.. hoping it helps~ And it did! Lolx.. We went to extend my passport validity first and i bought her a pair of her "dream" slippers.. Lolx~ then move to harbourfront(Meet her clubmates for Sentosa) While on the train.. I was hurt.. somehow..~ She bring out a teens magazine from her bag.. and showed me that neoprint of her taken with her ex stead.. It was posted in Teens.. Imagine.. when we just got together for a month or so... then NOW everyone is seeing her with another guy.. when the fact is she's with me.. HAiz.. So hurt.. >.< I swear i tried my best.. to hold back my tears.. to stop them even from flooding my eyes.. (To avoid arousing her attention) ="( I really had a hard time doing so.. wads more tough.. is i have to smile... smile to her showing that i'm fine~ I wonder how the hell i manage to do so~ 0,0? So sian lor... so many months back already.. now then the stupid Teens magazine post it!! really .... haiz.. *Depressed* Btw, i think the guy not bad leh.. quite nice lookin.. Haiz~ Dunnoe leh.. i tink........ yah you're correct.. he's your ex leh... yah... of course muz be gd.. yah.. i guess he's better than me.. The more i tink.. i tink that.. yah... mayb i'm not compatible with her.. Haiz.. Then he remind me of her PAST too !!!!! F*ck lor.. cannot stop myself from using the F word anymore... Haiz.. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Who can understand the pain....in my heart? NO ONE!! Who dare to say he/she noe.. step out!! I BET U CAN'T! Even if u say u can.. all bullshit man.. Can't be worser than how i feel! __ ="""( Haiz.. ="( Sad... After that.. we didn went sentosa le.. becos of the rain.. and also due to the lousy response of her club's member..(Only 7 turn up) So we went marina bay to go marina parade.. in the end.. the station master told us its at city hall!! No choice.. sian~ we have to go back city hall.. We went to buy a black jeans for me first(For working at esplanade attire) So we went peninsular plaze.. I manage to bargain a jeans at $60 worth to $32.. Pro rite! =P Then we went off to shopping.. Actually we wanted to catch a movie.. but time doesn allow us to.. as i got to work soon.. So we went to play arcade.. Glad to see her enjoy playing.. especially Puzzle fighter.. something like that.. She play until so song.. (But still lose me at the last match.. Me 1st time playing leh..) Lolx~ After that we went to shop at carrefour.. but didn manage to buy anything~ So she brought me to the chocolate shop.. still remember it call"Royce" . Sounds expensive rite! Yah.. alittle ex indeed. Hehz.. seeing how much she really wants it.. I bought her a bar~ ^.^ After that we went to have my dinner then set off to work le~ Can't send her home because workin.. Sad~ But got ask her to msg me after reach hm la~ =) After work, went to get the Teens magazine before heading home.. I want to keep it. Dunnoe why.. maybe due to some unknown reasons.. just feeling like keepin it.
Haiz.. I may look happy today.. but deep inside me..~ I'm really hurt.. very very very hurt~ ="( I decide to hide it from you until now.. because i dont wan2 spoil today's fun. Thats why i kept it all to myself. And i manage to do so~ ^.0 I can see that you really did have fun today.. =) Its all worth it.. Its isn't easy.. I would say its an "A rank mission" (Only those who watch "Naruto" know wad i'm toking) The pain is with me all the while... throughout the day.. since the very moment i saw the pic of you two together.. It has not left me.. Maybe it did left me awhile.. when i'm really happy with you.. But soon enough~ It comes back.. Haiz.. nvm la~ Now tired le~ Go shower liao.. CiaoZ Guys! *M!5s Ba0BeI* ^.0
Baobei: K la.. As promise, i blogged. *Muacks* ^.^

1st Season: 1st Day!

2004-11-04T17:22:00.001+08:00

Yo! Today begin my 1st season..! To become a punctual and good time keeper! =P Today i'm late for 5 min when meeting my nieces. 1st time go swimming with them.. sian~ I'm at my top speed already.. but still lose to my niece(Same age as me) by ALITTLE. =D After that, went home for lunch before work at 2pm. Actually i went home with the intention to bring the com to simlim for repair but.. the worrying of being late is driving me crazy~! So.. i decide to bring it down some other days.. And i had my lunch slowly and enjoy watching Naruto anime at the same time.. When its about time to leave, the anime juz attracted me to it like N pole and S pole~ It took me sometime to repel the strong attraction!(With my grandma naggin too!) Heh hehz.. =D And i waited for the longest train delay in my life... 8 minutes! -_-" Sian~ I'm late again.. for 5 minutes.. Sian½ lo~ -.-* After that went to meet Baobei at bugis to do shopping awhile.. And we went home..~ ^.^ CiaoZ! *M!5s Ba0BeI*

I'm BACK!!! =D

2004-11-04T17:22:00.000+08:00

Finally exams are over!! WOoooHOooo!! Song. . . !! Actually i'd like to blog at a later part of the week.. But... ^.^ She got me to update it.. And i was in for a promise~ -.-* K.. So this is wad happen.. In simple to say~ She's with me throughout my exams.. at my house accompanying me, bringing breakfast for me.. apple juice etc..~ But still my results is a flung~ Its due to my attitude in daily revision and ..... to sch~ I'm always late for the 1st lesosn of the day.. and skip lesson..(Forget for wad reasons..) Whatever it is.. this shortcoming of mine has cost me my results.. Its seriously hard to study on your own.. without attending lectures.. Might as well just buy the book, study at home on your own and dont go sch right? So.. i made an important decision.. I am spending this entire vacation for 1 sole purpose. To improve on my time keeping and puncutality. K la~ Shall stop here.. Tired :P Btw, u guys have any outing.. feel free to call me out~ ^.- CiaoZ! *BaoBei*
To Baobei: Thanks.. for everything~ Hope i didn disappoint you today =) *Miss U* *HuGS*

$$$ M ! 5 s i N G $ I + 3 M $$$

2004-10-17T17:32:00.000+08:00

Oh NO!! Its 7.30am!! And I'm meeting Mr Molly at 8am. Sian½~ The alarm and my dad failed to wake me up.. -.-" I got everything prepared in 15 min and rushed off to work.(One of my fastest timing this year) Then i borrow $50 from my grandma to take cab. So happen that the cab driver is an uncle.. then he drove very slowly. He told me that time needed from Yishun to Novena is 30 min at least. Then when i reach there, my mentor didnt scold me.. instead he gave me $20 for taxi fare~ We went to a water tunnel which is build 30m deep all the way from Changi to Jurong!! Wow~! Its really eye opening for me.. Lolx.. When i reaches the bottom.. we took a mini transport vehicle.. It looks like the vehicle in half life..(Remember the intro part? You were sitting in a vehicle moving towards the lab) This is the most tiring and "adventurous" shooting i have done with my mentor. After work ending at 11am, i went to meet girl girl at NYP.(We intend to meet first then after she finishes her project, we will visit her "ye ye" at TTS. In NYP, its still small compare to SP. Lolx.. =P After lunch, we went to a study corner at block F. That is where i lost my wallet!As the revision gets boring, I went to do standing board jump and felt that my standard has drop.. So i thought it was my wallet in the pocket and my shoes distracting me. And i left my wallet and shoes on the ground.. Then i went to make another attempt and i succeed! 252cm. My sec4 standard. After successful attempt made, i went back to join them. And i doze off for few min, then i wake up to find my wallet missing! -.-" The highest possibility is i misplace it on the floor then forgot to pick it up or other reasons which i might not know. Haiz.. then went to police post.. the office abit attitude.. probably he's getting impatient and pissed off by my lack of confidence testimony. Haiz.. after that i borrowed $10 from girlgirl and insist to see "yeye".(I feel that if i do not go, then all effort will be wasted.. At the 1st place, i visit girl girl is to see "yeye" right..) And i went home straight. My initial plan is actually after visiting "yeye", i will go for hair cut then join Jiaqiang in playing bball.. Everything was screwed up.. I only told my mum about it and she gave me some cash to survive first.. Now really broke le.. Haiz~ Then i just got to know that Baobeo's leg injured.. somemore at the same old injurie spot. Sian½.. Haiz~ Too bad i not there to take care of her.. Sad~ K la.. shall end here.. Didn study maths today.. only 1 chapter.. Sad man.. have to rush like siao le. CiaoZ GuyZ! *M!5s Ba0BeI* *MuAcKx* ^.^

2004-10-16T16:22:00.000+08:00

Right "now" ,before "now" and "after now".. My thoughts were, is and will be fill & filled with baobei... ^.^ Actually dont intend to blog.. Has been rushing project for past few days. Since have some time now. Blog alittle den.~ =) Today i flung my DC quiz and failed to practice for my ACS lab test next week(Was distracted by the thought of DC quiz). Reason to flung DC quiz: Totally forgot about the quiz until lunch hour. -.-" Today actually intend to have lunch with baobei.. but something crop up so can't eat with her. Luckily i saw her before reaching SAA to do my lunchtime duty~ Then i grab the chance to explain to her.. hehz~ Glad that she's understanding.. ^.^ Today DC test damn lame lor.. Haha~ As my class has filled up the lab..leaving no space for me and 1 more fren(Alvin).. We were sent to an empty lab under the watch of 1 technician.. Haha~ We keep discussing openly and psychoing her to help us.. In the end, she lend us a book to refer!(Its actually close book quiz) Lolx! Song.. but she only pass it to us at the last 15min. Didn help much also.. Lolx.. I think still flung.. Haha~ After classes, went to meet baobei and brought her to JE library..(Just feel like bringing her there..) Then we had our dinner there too.. And while we were shopping at supermarket for juice and sweet... she told me that she was late for her jap class~ and worse.. she's late for her jap test and not class only! -.-" Sian½ lor~ I didnt know that she has test.. Freaking sian lor... Haiz.. hope she can take the makeup test somehow.. After that sent her to school and i continue chionging my project. While chionging, jianqiang came to acc me home later. As usual, we chiong till the SALC close(9pm).. Then we went to eat with my class. And i went home straight. Dunnoe why.. although when baobei's not with me.. somehow feel that she is still there~ although i feel alot carefree.. somehow i still like her to be nagging at me..(sometimes la~) Just keep thinking of her.. Lolx~ K la.. shall stop her.. Sian½~ I will haf to miss her badly till sunday.(She has club camp from today to sunday) Tomolo still haf work at 8am. K la~ Go rest la.. Ciao GuYZ! *M!5s Ba0beI AL0+* *MuAcKx*

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2004-10-12T14:11:00.000+08:00

Woke up late today.. Really intend to be punctual~ HAiz.. nvm.. can try again.. Try and try and try and try and try until i punctual.. Most important is must put in effort! =) Mood was alittle dampen... I was wondering if baobei is still angry with me.. and so i went to Mrt station on bus.. While waiting for bus, i was into deep thoughts.. Suddenly 1 bus came.. and i thought it's heading towards the station.. so i went forward to board it.. just when i was about to board it.. i realize its the wrong bus.. and i just "act" as if i'm crossing the road instead of boarding the bus.. Sian~ When i was at maths tutorial.. I remember teacher saying me bad student because i didnt do any tutorials.. Then jiahong say:"Teacher! dont look down on him.. he was working over weekends.." Then guna say:"Wah.. why work? Work to support your stead isit..?" Then i sian.. nvm.. 1st. I know that i work because i love my part time job which is being an photography assistant and having a great mentor at the same time teaching me while i'm working for him..(The pay is not bad too..) I'm lovin it..! =P 2nd. She is independent enough to support herself. ^.^ Then at ACS lecture, i accidentally hit my face with the foldable table(attached to the chair).. Damn suay lor... Until she msg me that she will come to school and join me after work.. ^.^ Things liven up~ After class, i immediately go and chiong my project.. Baobei come looking for me after chatting with her clubmates.. I was busy rushing project in SALC then.. I think she noticed that i'm alittle tired.. and so... ^.^ She gave me a back massage.. Song man~! =) Feel refreshed... and sweet~ =P Then i carry on to chiong my project.. Lolx.. Before heading home, jianqiang join us to CWP to buy sushi for baobei.. She got craving for it.. -.-" After sending her home.. jianqiang and me went shopping at NTUC to spend my dad's $20 voucher.. I think we took an hour plus to shop.. Bought alot good stuff.. Hehz.. can eat again! =D K la..Tomorrow got quiz.. i going to revise my CA soon.. i never even have much impression of the chapter's name.. Chum liao~ Going to shower then eat dinner le.. CiaoZ! *M!s5 Baobei*

No mood

2004-10-11T14:05:00.000+08:00

Morning woke up, went to have guitar lesson. I was on time today and my teacher was late for 40min!! Sian½~ I was on time so that he could end on time and i can go and meet my baobei on time.. -.-" He made me late then i made baobei late.. sian~ Luckily she understand.. Then she went my house and we study.. I didn study much lor~ Only few pages only.. then we slack.. until awhile.. and night falls~ Then i sent her home.. While on the train, saw kheet tat and jingyi.. Then i told baobei bout jingyi and ask her to wait for me awhile.. I went to approach them and chat awhile.. And also i passed to jingyi the $150 for Jay's concert..(I dont feel like going man.. Alittle short of cash lately.. damn sian~) Then i chat awhile then realise she missing.. so i begin to search for her on the train. Then i found her sitting there quietly closing up her eyes.. and i know something is wrong~ Then i realize.. she's jealous~ I comfort and assured her again.. Then we reach her station and went to fetch her niece before heading to her house.. I think at that time then she's feeling better le~ After sending her home, went straight home.. While on the way, saw some ppl playing bball at my court there.. Very tempted to join in but too tired.. Maybe next day? =) Alot of project and quiz this week.. hope can get through smoothly.. Bless me man!! K la.. shall stop her.. CiaoZ guYZ!
-.-zzZ *M!s5 Baobei*

2004-10-10T17:05:00.000+08:00

Slept exactly 7 hours.. den baobei reach my house and wake me up le.. She brought breakfast for me!! =) Its kaya and cheese type toasted bread.. i think you guys can get it at kaya teahouse or what.. After that we watch 2002 and she was moved to tears by the movie.. I was wondering if she will cry if she get to watch "Tiramisu". I fell asleep soon.. and suddenly my mentor call me up and ask me to meet him at 4pm.. I ask him if i could bring baobei along and he agreed! Its because we are doing shooting at a concert in esplanade.. I was quite slow with my actions.. and this slow actions caused me $12.50. I took cab to esplanade with her to prevent being late. We had 1 shooting with small kids first then later on we went to had drinks then wait for the next shooting and a music concert. Just as we were about to left for concert, my mentor realize that he couldnt get a pass for her.. and so she has to go home first.. Sian~ Can't accopmany her.. Next time if 100% can then only i will ask her go. At the concert, i did quite alot shooting for mentor because his leg was injured.. so i took over for most of the time.. We work all the way till 11pm.. damn tired man.. i didn bring discman along.. luckily baobei accompany me by chatting with me on phone througout the journey.. When i reached home, i realize my maid has already kept all the food.. And i had to wake her up to ask her cook me some food..(That time she just got to bed only) Now i'm tired like siao.. Zhibin just msg me that theres guitar lesson tomorrow.. sian ½ lor.. I wanted to chiong projects tomorrow one.. K la.. i go sleepin soon.. damn tired~ Nitez guyz! CiaoZ! *M!s5 Baobei*

S a d

2004-10-09T17:37:00.000+08:00

Today nothing much happened. I was still dizzy in the morning, so i skip ACS tutorial and went for maths lesson instead. Before going school, i brought along the "Ice" sweet which i intend to give her when she forgive me.. Somehow its lost when i was about to give her at night time..(Will be buying her again =D) I went to wait for baobei after school 5pm until 7.30pm.. While waiting(intented to study), i saw kangming and irene.. Then they accompany me until jianqiang reach.(While coincidence also) Finally 8pm came.. and i saw baobei with 2 other guys.. Then when we reach mrt station.. i was surprised to see her sitting on 1 of the guys leg.. then i .. sian½.. And i kept quiet all the way while she chatting away with jianqiang on train. I was too jealous?? So afraid that i can't control my emotion when i start speaking... afraid that my tears will start dropping.. And so i focus all my energy to hold back my emotions.. We went to fetch her niece together with her. On the way back to her house, i carried her niece on my back and gave her some thrills and fun..(Hopping and running around) Before letting baobei go home, i got jianqiang to take care of her niece for awhile. I told her that my mum knows our relationship and my mum let me decide for myself.. I actually wanted to share this with her yesterday but there is no chance at all(She's angry that night) and i told her about my jealousy just now.. And soon i reach home.. didnt play basketball at all.. instead, i went to chat with jianqiang~ After dinner, i went to had phone chat with Carrot regarding her and jianqiang. It took me almost 2 hours to end the chat.. Btw, i already told baobei about my chat beforehand and got her permission~ =P Then now.. i'm chattin with her~ K la.. stopping here. Baobei.. sorry~ I just can't control my emotions jus now when i see u sittin on other guys leg..~ sorry.. CiAoz Guys!! *MisS Baobei*

My B'day...

2004-10-08T16:26:00.000+08:00

Had a bad start off in the morning.. I was ½ an hour late for APRG class. As i didnt do the project last night(Due to some eligible reasons), i was very stressed about the project on the spot. Then my partner got teacher to help us.. While she was talking to my partner, i was leaning back on the chair resting. Suddenly she turn and face me and say.."Jasper! I tell you ar... better dont give me this kind of attitude ar k" And she went turned around, took her bag and walk out of class hastily.. I also dunnoe what happen..(I was actually listening to her all the time.. just that my actions didnt show it) probably she thought that i giving her attitude by slacking on the chair and not listening when she's talking.. Aiya.. dunnoe~ Maybe i will apologise to her sometime later.. I went with Baobei to buy present for Carrot.. den have lunch at FC4. We met after last lesson and head to my house straight.. And she gave me my present! I knew she would give even when she tries to bluff me that she didnt prepare it..(I have 110% that she will give me.. So i just keep to my belief that she would have prepared b'day present for me) Thanks baobei.. I know you have spent alot of effort on my present.. ^.^ *MuaCkZ* At night, i went to sent her home first before accompanying jianqiang to dinner. While on the train, the train pass admiralty and i just told her that my ex stay at admiralty.. I tink i really hurt her.. She was so angry.. I just wan2 tell her that lor.. i dont want the fact that i didnt tell her about where my ex live to be the factor that cause dispute over we 2.. Theres really not hidden meaning at all.. and i wasn't thinking of my ex.. I was thinking of Baobei even when she's right infront of me.. How can i think of other girls?? I can't lor.. my thoughts are already filled with baobei.. Now.. she is still angry.. I'm really sad..~ =( At CWP, i went to help her exchange for Poohbear at mini-toon.. then i went straight to her house and past it to her.. because I'm afraid to have regrets.. (if fated that there is no tomorrow for me..) She told me that she dont want to see me.. and ask me to put the poohbear at front of her house..
=( And i went down to her room's window just hoping to get to see her once ,to check if she's fine .. and Jianqiang know that i'm not good at expressing myself.. so he teach me some stuff.. and i did without hesitating.. I was standing right below her window and tell her i'm sorry then i shouted "Wo Ai Ni".. then i left for home.. Just now I just had my 1st alcoholic drink.. Actually we bought Carlsberg.. but i was suprised later when pingkwai's brother actually gave me a red wine as present. I'm touched.. And pingkwai keep pouring me wine thats mixed with 7-up.. Damn nice.. the 3rd and last cup was mixture of wine,carlsberg and 7-up.. Really feel alittle dizzy after that.. And Pingkwai told me its not enough.. So we went to kopitiam and had 2 more carlsberg.. Thanks to pingkwai and his brother.. he unknowingly fufil my wish of drinking wine at my 1st time.. Thanks xiuqi too! for giving me a bolster.. Thanks man! And thanks to bryce,james,mingyuan,alex,pingkwai and jianqiang for coming to drink with me.. Thanks alot~ HAiz.. now baobei still dont forgive me for what i've said in the train.. I really have no intentions to hurt you.. I'm really not good with words.. But i can confidently and truly say that... "I Love You"... I have really cherished every single moment we had together.. Even if you let me turn back the clock, i will still do the same things again with no regrets.. because the things i have done are really already the best i can do.. Although i had quite a bad start off for today.. but she's with me.. cheering me up~ I'm really glad that she's with me.. But now.. Haix.. CiaoZ guyz!! Take care~ *M!s5 BaoBei* ="(

A|m05+ TheR3 ! ! !

2004-10-07T13:45:00.000+08:00

Today was late for DC lesson again.. i promise teacher to be early next week. =) AFter class, jiahong and me went to play basketball.. Damn sian~ Can't play much.. she dont allow..(My leg not fully recovered yet) -.-" And suddenly, we realised that its time for class! And we haven't had lunch yet.. -.-" Sian lor~ No fooddddd.... = no life.. i almost got gastric sia~ After lesson, went to meet Baobei..(Thanks baobei.. for the "CUTE" bobdog you've drawn for me~ =P) then jianqiang came along too..(I got him to get food for me when meeting me)^.^ And we decide to go orchard.. First we went to accompany baobei buy some stuff first.. This is the first time she buy something for me.. ^.^ Its something cute that hangs on to handphone.. Xie xie baobei.. ^.^ And we proceed to Far East Plaza.. Nothing much to work at orchard leh.. Boring~ Maybe wrong day, wrong mood ba.. Who knows.. O_o Then i sent her home.. gave her a small surprise.. At Taka~ She saw a small light blue dolphin.. and told me she likes it. Then i somehow got it for her without her knowing it.. Wonder if she got touched anot.. ^.^ Oh yah~ Hmmm... i wonder what's Jianqiang and her talking about.. so mysterious.. and dont tell me somemore.. Hmm.. Dunnoe~ Can't help but got alittle jealous again.. I'll try my best not to feel that way k.. Sorry Baobei.. =) While on the way home, we did some drawings on back of my foolscape pad.. So nice and sweet.. ^.^ After sending her home.. i went to play bball with jianqiang.. Alittle sian again.. we met new players on court.. they were china friends.. Got smack by 1 guy real hard on the face.. Sian½.. But nvm.. they were aggressive partially because they were new to play basketball.. Can't blame.. ^.^ K la.. i go chiong project le.. Can't disappoint Jiahong.. ^.- Oh yah.. My title is "Almost there".. it means its almost my birthday!! 1 hr and 15 min to go.. Actually expect to go pub to celebrate with my friends and drink alcholic drinks..(I promise my parents not to touch alcoholic drinks before 18) But i think maybe nothing will happen ba.. didnt really went to inform them~ Haiz.. maybe i drink at home with my dad ba.. drink like siao~ Heck.. K la~ Happy 18 B'day to myself in advance.. I'm looking forward to presents... Hope got ppl give.. Lolx.. especially Baobei.. =P Ciaoz GuyZ!! *M!s5 Baobei*

^^ Leave OF Absence ^^

2004-10-06T16:30:00.000+08:00

Was late for today's CA's lab.. Luckily Guna has finished most of the project stuff.. I didnt really contribute much.. but from now on~ I will.. Thanks guna.. =) Once after the class, i rushed to get my LOA for NYAA ceremony and also went to hand in my ITP attachment form.. Although its past the deadline.. the office in charge told me there is a high chance of approval.. Song man!! Gd luck to me.. =P Then at noon, I went to FC6 to have lunch with Jianqiang.. However, on the way i met Baobei! Hehz.. then i drag her along.. =P After lunch, i went to my CA lecturer.. The lecturer let us go off early.. Reason being?? Our textbook are short of a few missing pages.. and we had to postpone the lecture to allow the publisher print for us the remaining pages.. And we went to play daidee and slack.. The last lesson finally reach.. Maths! Today the lecturer really "pissed" me off.. She rejected my LOA.. she says that the NYAA ceremony starts at 9.30am.. why am i allowed to leave at 8am? Then she told me to get the director to apologise to her first.. Sian½ lor.. Guess i have no choice but to do so.. Then i went to meet Baobei after sch.. ^.^ When reaching Jurong, jianqiang ask if i wan to wait for him and go home together.. den i agreed. When he arrived, baobei's mood was alittle bored.. I got so worried on the train that i drew a Bobdog to cheer her up.. Luckily i succeeded.. =P But jianqiang was alittle upset and sian.. because things happen at the wrong time.. then i can't accompany him~ I also dunnoe how to say things at this point of time.. but jianqiang will understand.. At my home, my dad saw her le.. first time. And he ask her to have dinner at my house.. then we eat loh.. Luckily he didnt scold.. ^.^ After sending her home.. i went to search for jianqiang(afraid he got too upset).. Went cd-hut and funland.. but fruitless trips.. i made 1 last attempt by going his house.. and luckily found him sleeping there. We chatted quite some while before rushing home.. The moment i reached home, my dad say " Send girl home can send until so late one ar..?" Haha.. then i told him i went to jianqiang house after sending her home..Thats all ba.. Me go sleep soon le~ Nightez guyz! CiaoZ! *M!sS Ba0Bei*

-=(Nyaa Award Ceremony)=-

2004-10-05T17:00:00.000+08:00

Woke up by baobei.. but went i reach the toilet doorstep.. fell asleep again on my sis's bed.. -.-" Then i was late.. Lolx~ But we get to sit infront instead.. Beside me was an elegant lady.. still remember her name is Eleen. She's a teacher in some sec sch~ Just chat with her and nothing much loh.. After that met Jean they all~ Took some pics together and i went to class immediately~ I realise i was teased all the way from the moment i reach school.. by both club members.. my classmates and outside friends about Baobei and me.. =) After that, i went to meet her then we head towards my house.. Actually wanted to study.. but no time as its getting kinda late.. So we keep playing lo.. I just want to tell you that.. whatever stupid obstacles there is..(I will make sure we get pass it) Everything will still be fine.. I just want to cherish every moment.. =) Anyway.. obstacles is also sometimes good.. can test the strength of our relationship.. ^.^ After that went to play bball.. today the game gets alittle rough~ But everything still end quite well.. Jianqiang and i chatted a while before going home.. K la.. end here le~ Take care guyz.. CiaoZ! Miss Ba0Bei.. =P *IriS*

C 0 n C u 5 5 i o N

2004-10-03T18:45:00.000+08:00

After crying for 4 hours(7am-11am).. my vision got blur~ I was really having a concussion in the middle of my head. Then suddenly i thought of a "perfect" solution to salvage my situation.(Partially thanks to Jianqiang) Felt really relieved after that. I even got jealous over her today.. =) And now.. I only wanted to say .. She's mine!!~! ^.^ MuAhAAha~! WAhaAH!! HaGagAa~ =P Ciaoz guys! Nitez.. ^.^ *IriS*

*H @ p P Y - M 0 m 3 n T s"

2004-10-03T16:50:00.000+08:00

Btw.. i'm updating blog for friday night: I went to work for My Molly after school~ Yay! He helped me sign and chop the ITP attachment form.. Almost confirm can work him Mr Molly le.. Now just waiting for the office's approval~ =) Once i reached home, pingkwai, bryce, jiaqiang and meet up immediately.. The rest didnt came due to many personal reasons.. lolx~ We went Jalan Kayu.. We had alot man.. Cheese prata is very nice! Its not like those outside cheap cheese prata where they just place 1 cheese on the prata and fried. There also have chocolate and banana.. Both also quite nice.. Too bad Iris can't come out late night.. Lolx~ Or else she can have the chocolate prata~ After eating, we went to a unknown area.. After cycling for quite sometime.. we realize that we have arrived Sengkang~ -.-" It really took us a long time to get out of there and reach angmokia~ Then we cycle pass NYP at yiochukang before reaching Yishun.. Lolx.. its already 4.30am when i reached home.. Then the tragic began on saturday..(You all can refer to that day's blog.. 1 day before today)

For today's blog: I slept late last night.. Becos.. i'm talking to Iris! =) She's all mine!! =P Alot have really happened.. really alot~ Its really very hard for us to be together... Nvm~ Its already all belong to past. What matters is present.. now.. I wont say we will be together for forever~ But i will cherish every single moment.. ^.- Today she accompany me go dye hair~ Haha.. sitting there do nothing.. so nice and sweet~ =) Although its wasting time.. After that, we went to 4th home again~ The feeling is song man.. Damn shiok~ and sweet too.. =) Almost couldnt bear to let her go.. (I mean go home la~) But still did.. as its too late~ And i sent her home.. When cycling back to station, when stop at red light crossing, she help me wipe off my sweat.. No one has done this for me before.. except maybe my mum and grandma~ I'm touched. =) K la.. stop here le~ going to sleep soon.. Nightz guyz! CiaoZ Guyz! ^.0 *IriS*

F a t e

2004-10-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

Hi guys.. I think.. i know why am i existing.. Its for parents.. and my grandma. I have told my grandma about iris's past. And she.. now dislike her~ And she even say if i and her were to be together... then i dont need to call her grandma anymore(meaning break our ties).. I dont understand.. i really dont understand!! The person i respected most and is as close like a mother to me.. dont understand me!!! =" AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAArrRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
All i ask for is to give me some time to prove that Iris is actually a very nice girl.. but she didnt give.. Why?!! It not fair to me and her.. She didnt even give me chance... not even 1 chance... All i ask for is 1 chance.. ="( I have really tried.. At first is to convince myself to accept her past.. and now my grandma.. Why must things always be made complicated for me..?!? All i ask for is a simple girl who cares about me.. =" Haiz.. I dont wish to explain much.. She has really disappointed me from the way she looks at iris now.. i hate myself.. for telling her that~ I thought she would understand! haiz... and iris too.. also dont understand .. I think there isnt any option for me anymore.. its all decided.. not by fate.. but by my parents and grandma.. I decide to tell my mum about this at night.. and if she also agrees with my grandma.. I will sucide. Since I am theirs.. i will give them back~ I will only sucide the "present me".. In future.. i will really truly live for them.. whatever they want me to do. i will give the 110% of me to 100% satisfy them,even at the cost of my life and all my freedom. This is what they want right??? Fine.. everything will go smoothy as planned by them. After my birthday, i will be gone.. Hope i can spend my remaining days being the "true me" meaningfully. Now then i really really know.. i have fallen in love.. =") Theres a saying which is true.. to me at least.."When love is about to leave you.. only then you will notice its existence..". Loving someone means what? Is it about her body,her character or her past? No.. its her.. only her and nothing else.. So why should you care the past for what? It is now which matters.. =" But.. its alittle too late now.. Sometimes.. i hope my parents or grandma will say... "we only want you to be happy.. thats all we asked for..."And I have not drop my tears since the last time my grandma went to hospital.. I guess.. this is the last time my tears will flow.. for myself ,someone important(Grandma) and special(Iris)~ I will really miss all my friends... you all know who you are.. Thanks.. for being my friends.. I'm really fortunate to be able to know you guys.. Thanks alot.. I will end here then.. Take care guys.. =") *Iris*

s|4Nx

2004-09-30T23:28:00.000+08:00

Was 2 hour late for today's APRG lab. Last night 5am then sleep.. was talking to Iris. ^.^ Actually i was dizzy and intend to take MC. So i msg Jiahong(my project partner) and tell him i may not make it.. then he say"if you responsible then you wont be telling me you wont come." And so i forced myself down to school~ When i reach the class, my APRG lecturer keep saying me.. sian~ She say "you think score gd result then no need to be punctual isit..?" I really disappointed in her lor.. although i always late.. but really got reason.. then this time is i'm "sick". So i just replied "You want to malign me i also no choice". After classes, i went to meet Iris. Actually i'm suppose to meet Mr Molly to get my pay and let him fill up the ITP attachment form.. but he last minute couldnt make it.. so i have to meet him on friday.. somemore he ask me to work for him on that day.. I'm alittle sian lor.. because i already have plans for that day.(Basketball and night cycling to eat!) After that she went my house..(Actually wan2 catch a movie one.. but she insist.. -.-") Until 7pm, i accompany her to bank in cheques.. The floor's wet lor and i was wearing my trail slippers.. I was like almost slipping off throughout the whole journey.. -.-" As she was already late.. so we took cab to her home. The moment we reached there, she rushed off already~ And i sian½.. cos i'm not done yet. Then i wait for her to use toilet den i went over to her house.. And gave her the.. *BeAr*~ ^.^ Then....................... And i went home straight after that.. K la.. i go do my things le.. club stuff bothering me man.. Sian~ CiaoZ Guyz! ^.^ *Iris*

( P h O + O _ J 0 u R n @ L ! 5 M)

2004-09-30T14:41:00.000+08:00

Was alittle late for today lesson.. 20 minutes only.. =) At lunch, Jiahong accompany me to SAA to meet Jean to collect Sp blazer for NYAA ceremony.(Sian.. have to help Lilian collect also.. $30 deposit leh!! lolx..~) While waiting, i also wait for angelvine at the same time to clarify somethings with her.. but when she arrives.. its too late le~(Lesson time.) The moment i arrive SAA, i saw Irene sitting all alone at the corner there.. doing lunchtime duty alone.. See her so pitiful.. so went over to chat with her lorZ..lolx.. =P Only when i'm about to leave, Jean then arrive.. Sian.. but had quite a chat with her.. Song sia!! She got talk to all the local celebrities.. lolx.. and my retro idol!! FaNN WoNG!! Haha~ Interesting job man... next time must have a nice slow chat with her le..(If theres chance ^.^) Today at Negotiation class won a prize for some lame games... lolx~ Its a noise polluter.. Lame lox.. lolX~ Look for me if u wan2 see that lame thingy.. ^.- After 3pm class, i went to fetch Dennis to lecture theatre.
Song man! Finally get to see him in reality after so much phone conversations.. Song also because finally got the workshop started.. had planned for it so long man.. Tired le~ lolx.. During the tea break, i ate alot man.. They ordered for 70 person shares.. and only 30++ of us came down.. so i help to finish up the remaining 30++ people's shares too.. Lolx~ Btw, jianqiang was waiting for me since 5pm.. lolx~ I notice photography club got 2 girl anti social.. lolx~ I'm dealing with them right now.. hahah.. Will update u guys on them later. After the workshop ended, jianqiang and me went to Clementi to play arcade games..(Actually want to go gym one.. but my left arm do handstand then injured.. sian~ haha..)Lolx.. spent $10 there.. Haha~ Play like siao..! but i still feel that the shooting game at Bugis is more shiok! And we went home straight after the games.. Then just now shirley told me she know how to bake Tiramisu!!!! Whoooooooohooooooo~! Song man!! She sent me the recipe.. Havent look at it yet.. Once i learn how to bake.. Wahaha!!! Song man.. ^.^ Kkk.. I'm gonna have my dinner soon.. den shower~ Ciaoz GuyZ! ^.- *Ice*

-={ Moon Cake Festival }=-

2004-09-29T16:25:00.000+08:00

I actually woke up on time today. Hehz.. Went to shower den style hair.. ^.^ Then.. jianqiang called me telling me he's not going(Reason: Sick and sad). After chatting for awhile, i decided to accompany him awhile.. When i was about to meet him.. i realized my keys were missing!!! -.-" Sian.. i search the whole house up and down for umpteen times.. and still failed to locate it.. Was very sian lor.. so disappointed with myself.. lost things again.. damn irresponsible sia~ I search until i got very dizzy and couldnt go on anymore.. then i decided to skip class for the 1st time and meet jianqiang. We went to eat first then proceed to Yishun funland and played $5 worth of games.. the games there are expensive and spending $5 is considered alot lor.. we usually play $2+(Actually we planned to go Sembawang Funland.. the games there are cheaper.. but the search for keys delayed everything for an hour.. partly my fault..) After games, i dragged him to school. While we were walking halfway to his class, he really couldnt make it already.. so i let him go home.. And i'm late for my noon classes.. After school, i went home immediately.. Actually i wanted to ask someone to accompany me go Chinese garden to have a look at the "EasT Vs WesT" lantern displays.. but~ nvm le.. On my way, i drop by at Cd-hut and have a small chat with them.. I even carry a small kid on my back..(He belongs to one of the sales assistant there) Haha~ While he's on my back, he keep talking malay to me then i blur blur.. Lolx.. When i wanted to put him down, he will just rest his head on my head and refuse to get down.. So cute.. haha~ After much persuasion by his mum then we manage to bring him down.. =) When i reach home, i continue my search for the keys again.. until my dad is back~ When he found out, he start nagging again.. and we later found out that its my dad who bring the keys to my mum..(He thought the bunch of keys belong to my mum) Sian.. i wait for my mum to get home then can confirm the location of my keys.. and indeed! Its with my mum.. Lucky sia~ I knew i wont lose anyhow it lor~ =P As the time to meet my friend was near, i skip my dinner and rush down. Haha~ Only a few of us went.. david,jia liang and alex.. i last minute manage to get the girl staying right below my flat.. She's jinquan.. lolx.. she keep saying the moon will be at its roundest at 9.09pm.. stupid lor~ haha.. After we play awhile, then she left first.. We just keep playing until late night. Before we left, we pull of stunts again.. I went to burn the lighter.. The effect was very very nice sia~Mini armagedon lor.. Then we keep searching the area for lighter to burn.. So song man.. Next mooncake festival, we know what to get already...(Zippo + Lighters+ Candles + Sparkles) After everything ended, alex and i went to the S-11 to have dinner. When we reach there, the vegetarian stall was close already.. sian.. then when i was about to order meat food.. my dad call me and force me to go home and have dinner.. since i not taking vegetarian food then i might as well eat at home right.. so i wait for alex to finish his chicken chop then we go our seperate ways.. Upon reaching home, he nag again.. and also partly because i have not sign up for the starhub rewards thing..(After sign up, users who have maxonline,cable tv and mobile line can have further discounts) I tried lor.. but its alittle hard to sign up.. lolx.. think i will get it down tomorrow. And now..i'm disturbed by Spac2go club stuff.. K la.. I go have my dinner first then shower.. CiaoZ GuYz!
o.- *Ice*

* B @ s K e T B @ L L*

2004-09-28T16:32:00.000+08:00

Late for class again.. haha~ By an hour?? Was too tired man.. After the last lesson.. went home immediately~ On the train, i called up Mr Molly and told him about the ITP attachment thing and he agree to help me settle the form thingy by this thursday.. plus on that day he will give me my pay too.. ^.^. Another problem down.. Yeah~ Btw, something "coincident" happen too.. When the train reaches Clementi, a lady in pink come in with a laptop came in.. At JE station, we continue to board the same train and were sitting "beside" each other.. Because the door is in between us.. (Chim right?? If you think harder then you will get what i mean..=D) And so coincidentally.. we get off at Yishun together~ And i happen to see Guowei also.. He actually want to help me get number.. but i decline his offer in the end.. And i went to get my bike to go buy pimple cream.. However, on the way.. i saw her again.. She was stopped to do a survey by a "fat" guy.. Actually wanted to go over and help her.. but i think she can handle it alone~ And i went to linger awhile then see if she's still around.. Guess wad.. within that short while, she disappears into thin air~ I thought she went into golden village and so i parked my bike then went in too.. And still couldnt find her.. guess fate ba~ Even if i see her.. haha~ i also don think i will do anything.. Stupid right? I already given up in such things.. If fated to know then know lor.. i wont go an extra mile in order to know a person.. again.. So i went into cd-hut and slack.. We crap all the way till 6pm and i went to meet jianqiang and accompany him home to change to basketball attire. Just when we were about to leave, i saw benny!! My primary sch old classmate.. miss him man.. He was shocked when i recognise him.. haha~ as i was in a rush, i took his no. and left in a hurry. =) After that i went home and change too.. Meanwhile, mingyuan and hongpeng meet up with us at my house.. and we meet PingKwai below our house. Initially we wanted to go temple to play but its occupied by something.. i was really sad and disappointed.. Haiz.. then we wanted to go Yishun CC too.. and its also occupied.. So we went 325. There was only one small boy there with two girls.. but minutes after we reach, the girls left too.. haha~ We played a few games with the small boy joining us and the court is again occupied by taiqi students.. We have to leave for another court nearby.. At that court, we found a "Shuai ge" Handsome guy and a pretty girl(His stead). The guy look pro man.. and is indeed good. We had 2 games with him and everyone had put in their best. One game with him on our team and the other with him as an opponent. HEhz.. both game won.. song~ Long time didnt meet such a worthy opponent.. AFter that we went to Lower seletar.. Jianqiang was having alot stress and problems.. so pingkwai, jianqiang and me with mingyuan on my bike too.. we set off. At first we reach there, there wasnt any stars.. and i recalled what ice said.. then got scolded by pingkwai.. haha~ he told me because the sky isnt dark enough yet.. And true, later on some stars begin to appear.. At there, we keep throwing big stones to the water.. song sia~ I accidentally throw the stones to other stones and it create a big sparkle.. too bad i didnt saw it..(I was still in alittle concussion after throwing the stone) Before we left, *Wayne* called. Mingyuan la~ didnt let me listen to her voice.. so i gang up with pingkwai and jianqiang to fly him aeroplane..intend to leave him walking all the way home alone with his legs. We rushed down the road and got stopped by road blocks.. the police officer told us that we need a front and tail light when the sky is dark. He gave us a chance and let us off.. After that, we went to hide behind a truck and wait for mingyuan to get pass us first.. After he walk past, we went from behind and scare him.. i was the one doing the shouting right behind him and he was so shocked that he jumped alittle.. Haha~ And i fetch him home first before accompanying jianqiang home. After that, pingkwai and me went to Yishun ITE as he never went there before. As the road is straight, so we agree to race. And this time i won, i almost got asthmatic attack as i had really give it my all.. which includes my anger and sorrows.. Before going home, we had a chat below the blk. When i reach home.. ice spoke to me.. I'm really confuse man.. sian~ and i think halfway through, she offline.. probably she have something important to do ba.. or if pessimist.. she dont want to talk. I think its quite hard to handle the emotion now.. It have been sometime that my life got screwed up.. its time to unscrew it. =) Try lor.. think lor.. what else can i do.. I still remember kangming saying i have no confidence.. yah~ I totally agree.. Sian.. then just now my dad screw me.. saying the medicine fees are ex.. say no money to pay my medicine fee.. say i dunnoe how to take care of myself.. He said all these just because i had my dinner halfway and i went to do my blog.. Its because i got stomachache lor.. i told me but he just heck care~ Sometimes i really feel like talking back... but i promise my grandma not to.. Sianz.. If i talk back.. i'm sure to win lor.. One sentence is enough->"Who gave me this body with low immunity system?" Its him lor..I have tried my best lor.. but still will get minor sickness one.. i have already led a healthy lifestyle.. careful with my diet.. what more he want? You tell people i'm sick also no one will believe lor~ Because i look too healthy.. =P Sianz.. really screw up man.. Haha~ if i'm gone.. will anyone really cry for me? will really feel sad of my absence? Haha~ Pessimistic sia~ Must faster get up again.. and move on~ Hope 1 week is enough.. K la.. stop here~ Going to force myself with the dinner then go shower le.. Nightz guyz~ CiaoZ! =") *Ice*

* I c 3 = I r ! s *

2004-09-27T16:15:00.000+08:00

Just finished my shower and intend to sleep after reading Ice blog. After reading her blog.. somehow feel uneasy.. (Whenever i feel uneasy, i will remind myself.. "As long as she's happy with it" and then my feelings will calm down..)But today.. i'm really tired of keeping all this within me.. And i actually wanted to talk to someone about it and i chose Irene..(Its a random choose among some "Zhi Ji's" --> meaning ppl who knows me well.. so Kangming!! Dont be mistaken then whack me ar~ =P.) but i think she busy or wad so didnt reply in the msn.. So i think its time to put in my blog. One of the reason is also because i want to settle all my problems within this one week. Her blog did says that fling or what.. then i alittle sian. Maybe i really did fell for her?? To be honest.. in the beginning.. i would have probably fell for her.. But her past.. i find it hard to accept. I know past is already past.. whats most important is now and future.. But its really really very hard.. to accept.. If not for her past.. probably my feelings will run so wild that i can't stop it... At first i try to accept.. and things are going smoothly~ But at that time didnt have much feelings..(Means got alittle lah -.-") And later she say i'm a special friend or what.. then ok lor~(As long as she's happy with it) I'll will try best to take up the "special" friend position.. and try to control my feelings.. I still remember whenever i see she say about other guys in her blog.. i will feel uneasy.. but was overcome.. My mindset was.. as long as she's happy.. i'm fine with it~ I still remember all the moments with her ba.. There was once when i'm late for swimming then she left.. Actually i really sian lor.. Nvm~ Thats a unhappy one.. For the happy one.. its the trip to lower seletar.. Theres a strong urge to hug her??(Hehz.. dont tink crook ar~ ^.^) but still i manage to resist.. i just dont want to take advantage of her ba.. (And I also dunnoe if she will whack me anot.. if i did so.. =P) And most of the times.. i'm not sure if i got communication problem with her anot.. its just that she didnt talk much to me when we were out together.. Like i've said in my previous blogs.. i would just walk quietly with her and let her have peace. Only when at night, i read the blog then found out so much have happened before we meet each time. -.-" There are so many people special to you.. but theres only 1 special person to me.. I guess your special is common but my special means only one... Sometimes i really think too much.. but the thought of myself never fails to stop me from thinking much. Haha.. theres nothing good about me also.. Even if all is normal, i also can't bring myself to pollute u. Ar~! I think i'm only good at eating and crapping.. haha~ besides that, nothing good about me already.. lousy looks ar.. lousy character(Always late.. No sense of timing = no sense of responsibility), lousy person.. Hehz.. nothing more for me to lousy le~ lolx.. I sort of regret writing this blog.. but since i written so much.. can't regret now.. To Ice.. wait.. it should be to *Iris.. You always say care about other.. do you really care?? If you want to care for others then you should care for youself first.. if not theres no reason for u to care for others.. You think parents went through so much to bring up the child is for the child to care for others??? If you care for your parents.. then care for yourself. And relationship wise.. i know its hard for you.. but its not fair to yourself and others if you don't give yourself and others a chance.. i know i know.. if the relationship fails.. you will be very very very hurt.. but theres also chances it might be a success right? It maybe slim but its still there. If getting true love is easy.. then it wouldnt be call true love. I know its not easy to get over with one's past.. especially if it brings back bad memories.. but one shouldnt let it become and obstruction to one's progress in life.. This is easy to say but hard to do.. Anyway, i will try to help in any ways i can..^.- (Btw, i'm not saying all this for me ok.. Just that i dont have chance to say.. so i'll just put what i wanted to say all here.) Whatever it is.. i'm really troubled over my feelings.. its not easy to control one's feelings..especially when comes to relationship.. but i, Jasper, will certainly do my best.=) Jasper leh.. dun pray pray~ =P Sometimes if you did notice.. my reply are alittle weird.. now you know why right.. Maybe what i do here is childish.. but i can't keep it inside me any longer~ I'm gona stop here.. Now.. 1 problem down.. 4 more to go. K la.. go to sleep le.. if not i cant solve my studies problem.. Nightz guyz.. Ciaoz! ^o^ *Ice*

- = B o R ! n G zzZ = -

2004-09-27T13:41:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 11am today.. Sleep only 6 hours.. Sianz½ -.-" Mingyuan came my house again.. He used my com and i zhuo boh~ I called Mr Molly to check my work schedule this week.. and i'm off for the entire week.. Kind of disappointed.. I also wanted to talk to him regarding the ITP attachment thingy but i think he was kinda busy.. so didnt told him about it. Then i went to guitar lessons.. Sian lo.. Zhibin was teach yiyuan first because he couldnt catch up with our speed of lesson...This means jianqiang and me have to wait for him to finish teaching yiyuan first.. The waiting was so sian till i fell asleep on the floor .. -.- zzZ After lesson, "counsel" Jianqiang regarding betting soccer.. Haiz.. Money is really freaking important.. I reach home at 7pm and watch "Yu Tian Tu Long Ji" with mingyuan. And now... he just left for home.. Then only i get to use the com. Sian lo.Currently.. I think my life is alittle messy bah.. Ar!!! Give me the Strength and Will please.... PLeasE...* My studies, income, sports, sleeping room and.. my feelings.. I think its time to clear the mess(Hope I'm able to..) =) Kk~ I go shower now le.. CiaoZ! ^.- *Ice*

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2004-09-26T16:22:00.000+08:00

I slept all the way till 11am.. then mingyuan and me wake up together by his phone's vibration! Sianz½ lor~ Vibration only.. also can wake us up. Then i went to have a slight breakfast and watch meteor garden 1. Then i recalled theres a chinese movie showing at scv cable.. even though the title sucks.. The movie title name is Lian4 Ai4 Xin2 Xing1(Tiramisu), So switch over to see how sucky can it gets. To my surprise, nicholas tse is one of the main actor.. then the female actor was very pretty.. but i dunnoe her name. The love story was very touching lor~ So touching that my the tears accumluated at my eyes almost roll off. I really find myself lucky to be able to watch this show~ The girl inside really attracted me.. her looks(short hair) and her attitude.. Although this show is alittle stupid.. such as the ghost can reveal herself to alot of living beings..(At the ending part) -.-" But the love story is very very nice... :'"""( Those who watch the show will know about Tiramisu.. How nice if someone will bake for me too.. ^.^ After that i went back to sleep again.. You all got wake up in dream before?? Which means after you wake up.. you still inside a dream.. Thats wad happen to me.. Each time i wake up in my dream, its different time lor~ From 12am to 7pm.. When i really wake up to reality.. its only 4pm++ I felt really relieved lor.. because i had to meet Kangming to help out at the Residential Committee at Choa Chu Kang.. I immediately went to have late lunch/dinner first. And kangming call to tell him dinner provided there.. and so i only eat alittle. He also call to tell me to return a shirt i borrowed from his friend. Then i went searching but to no avail.. i was very sian lor.. den i'm late already so i throw all the clothes on the floor and get my maid to help me pack it.. When i'm on train.. my dad call me and tick me off because the clothes are lying messy on the floor(My maid havent pack).. Sian ½.. and i called my mum to help me talk to my dad.. I just keep letting him scold me on the phone.. Sian.. As for the RC mid-autumn event.. Actually i wanted to play bball alot that night.. but since i promise him.. so i have to fufil it. ^.- The whole event was quite fun and easy.. I went there.. eat then go play bball.. can only see kids there.. play until quite sian~ haha.. After that only i did some serious stuff.. which is bringing back whiteboard to the room.. Lolx.. Before i left for home.. i bought a lantern for my sis..(Hello Kitty) then yanling didnt give me bag!! Sian½.. i have to carry it to take train.. surely attract alot attention one..-.-" I also bought a small bear for the stupid Baka.. I intend to go her house pass it to her before heading for home.. but she's out at East coast park.. then never mind already.. Hope she can relax there.. I think i said something wrong again when smsing her.. Its you lor~ Most important is you happy.. I'm sure you know what i mean.. Bu she de also no choice.. ^.^ K la.. end here~ Me go shower then call girl girl to tell her bout Tiramisu.. Nightz guys..! ^.- *Ice*

~ H a PP e N ! n G ~

2004-09-25T19:00:00.000+08:00

Morning went to Jianqiang house to get video recorder from him because he can't attend school to return it today as he's sick. Then i was late for class.. Sian.. the paper i got c.. haha~ simplest subject but worse result.. weird man.. heck la~ Next time must do some preparation for it.. At noon, i intend to eat first then return the recorder.. so happen to meet Carrot and the gang. And they offered to help me return.. Heeex.. ^.^ Today's lab test flunged sia~ Really very very disappointed.. Yesterday spent so much time to do the project.. yet today didnt use what we did yesterday. At the beginning of the test, i already almost give up.. its only after twenty min or so den i begin to pick up again~ Really all out to think of how to do the lab.. I think in the end we manage to get some results out of it. Probably we wont fail after all.. But still sian.. Then after classes, went for Spac2go club meeting. We play soccer outside the club sia.. learnt quite a few tactics today.. Hehz.. This means in future then i can do my part in the game too.. if i get to play~ =) We went to eat after meeting.. Fucai lor~ Keep pestering me to join him for dinner.. Haha~ Only when we about to leave then i found out Said got drive today. I really want to take a ride on his car loh.. but still gave the chance to other club mates. We meet up in Causeway point for dinner. After dinner, Said sent me to Yishun mrt station because my bike is there.. While i was in his car, i switch the radio to fm93.3(chinese station) and its like the 1st time i listen to chinese radio on a malay's car~ Haha!! The moment he drop me, its kind of far away as its at northpoint.. i run all the way to take my bike and rush to basketball court.. Because Ping Kwai has already book me to play bball.. When i reach the court, its already 9.30pm.. I only get screwed alittle... Luckily~ My skills deprove already~ and slack too long.. didnt exercise for 3 entire weeks.. I'm starting training next week man.. no time to waste~ =) After the game, we chatted for awhile and suddenly i suggest to eat! We decide to go Sembawang.. initially we thought of Jalan Kayu.. but we are totally not prepared for it.. such as backlights,front lights etc.. Then the stupid Mingyuan also no bike. In the end have to borrow from my cousin.. -.-" And he also no key to go home if we come back after 12.50 pm as the last bus will be missed. And we had to wait for him to get the keys from home.. While waiting, Guofeng went PingKwai's house to get their stuff ready while i'm back in my own house. Everything was done in less than 15 min. The moment i reach home. i went to shit lor~ The feeling is like back to the old days in NCC camp. Even when shitting also must rush.. -.-* And i rush out of the house within the time limit. To my surprise, mingyuan was late.. He took my bike to get home.. Then when he arrived.. its like we had waited for 15 min. He bloody slow lor.. guess what he did..? He showered then come down.. Ass loh.. The worse thing is he didnt drink any water when reach home and now he's like abit thirsty..-.-" We set off to Sembawang park first before heading to eat. The path we used is a very remote 1.. it use to be total darkness... but luckily as we went pass, new lights were put there.(But again, its still very dim.. the feeling is alittle ghostly~) At the eating house, i tried 1 interesting drink which i have never tried in my entire life before.. the name is tongkut Ali~ Haha~ They say the drink is to zhuang yang (boost male power.. something like dat~) Smells like Kopi-O sweet but taste has bitter in the sweetness. Not bad~ The effect also quite good.. feel rather strong after drinking that.. Haha~ And we ordered some rotipratas to eat. After eating, we went home straight. Thats all ba~ Mingyuan's now at my house.. guess he'll be playing GB later.. sian.. cannot use com~ -.-* CiaoZ guyz! 0.- *Ice*

P r O J e C + ! ! !

2004-09-24T14:45:00.000+08:00

Today was late for half an hour for APRG test!! Luckily teacher wait for me.. WAhaha~! =D Then she nag again.. saying i never early before etc etc.. -.-" The test was much more easier than i expected.. haha~ complete it in 20 min again.. same as 1st test.. Sianz.. after the test, we get back our MST paper and 2nd lab test marks.. So sian lor~ My Mst paper didnt get A.. only a B while the lab test got A when i expect to get 60+.. This means that my MST got no As this time.. Haha~ Must buck up le.. Jiayou!! ^.- After that i went to T10 to get ITP attachment form. I call up the officer in charge to ask about ITP.. Shiok sia!! I found that i can attach myself to Mr Molly's company!! Whooooohoooo!! ^.^ I would be calling him tomorrow to tell him about this... see what he got to say.. Really hope this can go smoothly~ I really want to work for him.. =P After last lesson.. i went to do DC project with Jiahong under T15. The moment we reach there, i immediately took a speedy journey to dreamland.. -.-zzZ Sleep all the way till 4.15pm then start doing the project.. This is really tough lor~ I didnt study much mah.. then dunnoe whats going on.. Took me an hour to figure out everything.. Then we brainstorm until 8pm then only we went SALC to get the document type out. So tired lor~ Has never do project till this late before.. Sian½ man.. -.-* Luckily theres always rainbow hiding behind dark clouds.. While we were walking home.. i saw some refreshments outside a workshop.. then i was really hungry lor.. so hungry that i keep staring at the food and i was walking in a very slow pace.. Haha~ The person in charge saw me then ask me if i wan to eat.. Lolx.. i immediately agreed and Jiahong join in the feasting.. HahA~ Eat until song song.. =P When i'm on the way home.. saw some of my bball frenz playing at the court. I just went over to join them in shooting~ Sian.. too bad cannot play.. :"( But nvm.. at least i get to touch the ball and throw it.. =) When i reach home, i realize theres alot of club stuff for me to handle.. photography and spac2go.. sianz -.-" So busy lo.. kk me go do my work le~ Cya guyz.. CiaoZ! ^.^*Ice*